I hate living by the hospital. My apartment just happens to be in between two firehouses, as well. At the bottom of the hill sits the police station. I hate this location.
I thought I would enjoy it, being walking distance to work and the train line. I figured I’d be safer in this part of the community, so close to all emergency services. I assumed it would give me peace of mind. It’s an inevitable contradiction in my soul.
I hear sirens daily, hourly at times, for minutes on end. Where are they going? My roommates and coworkers go about their day, it’s unknown […]
everything is crumbling beneath me, i’ve lost two jobs. me and my dad are getting evicted, and we have to move out by the 28th and we still haven’t found a house to live in. i wrecked my car the other day and the whole right side is totaled, then i found out, my windshield is cracked and now my battery is dead so we have to buy a new one. i’m sick of everything. and i’ve had close calls with attempting suicide again like one time, i was driving down the road and i was speeding and i almost just threw my car off […]
now thats a song i could die to thats a song i could cloce my eyes and stop my heart to thats a song i could shut down my braine to and let my taterd sole be huged and kissed by an angel to thats a song that gives me hope in the dark gives a reson to die for me but i whant to be here with her im only going if she goes and hopefuly she whont but if she dose thats what i will go to so i can be held by the mother earth and her so i can smile close […]
I can’t jump to conclusions without knowing for sure…. but I have a strong feeling my good friend on here has passed, or is in serious trouble. She rarely if ever commented on here, but she and I are close, so if you are reading this, you know who you are, and your last email was pretty distressing given I know your situation. If you have passed, I wish you peace in heaven.
The king is dead
Once apon a time, he walked the streets a king
Happy,proud
safe and sound
Life was a joy
His home was his heart
He loved so much
No hatred in his thoughts
He was happy in his home
He was living his dream
Now life’s got him down
Chained through his knees
No turning back
He’s to tied to this place
Stuck
Roaming the same streets
No crown on his head;
The king is dead
Responsibilities like cement to his back
Never ending nights and no one’s up late
The world he once loved
Have turned him it’s back
The days are the same
Through his […]
when you as low as you can get
in a pit were no one knows
theres no way out
pick up your gutar and play
pick up your voce and sing
pick up you mike and screem
hit the death beat on the drums
let the music fill your sole wether it screems sings or plays let it fill you
Is the LGBT group has a better chance of
suicide????
Call it mercy, call it hope call it however you want to, but, i decided to become an organ donor before the end so the fact that i dont want this body nor this life can help others live and enjoy their lives to the best, also because of this resolution poison is no longer an alternative, just can’t seem to find the rigth way to get out, im collapsing, every second i crumble more and more, im traped in this barless pprision thats my body, i just cant get out, i want to sleep forever to never wake again, i must put an end […]
To fail or succeed…
I’m dying to know….
If I can’t live a happy life, then I don’t want to live at all. I’m miserable, I don’t know how much longer I can wait to he happy.
I may be new to this site, but I’m not new to being emotionally and mentally damaged, nor am I new to being around people of all different backgrounds who are just as emotionally and mentally damaged.
I been hearing quite a few things about adults coming to sites and chat rooms for depressed or suicidal teens in particular hell bent on picking up as many impressionable individuals as possible in hopes to find a few victims to prey on.
Let’s face it, a lot of emotional teens can be easy to take advantage of, sometimes you don’t even have to try. I used to help a […]
I’m new here, just made an account. Anyway I’m a 22 year old guy. I was recently diagnosed with epilepsy and that has been having my depression worse then ever. I’ve been depressed for my whole life. I honestly can’t think of the last time I was truly happy. I don’t think I ever have been. Life is too much right now. I don’t want to keep doing this because staying alive feels like it’s killing me. The non stop doctors apointments have ruined my sad at best social life. Never had lots of friends. Always only had two or three but they were the […]
I’ve had a few good days. Better than before. The thoughts are still there. Who knows. I’ll just keep going for now. It’s strange to pretend this side doesn’t exist. Maybe this will go away eventually. I don’t want to think about it any more… Just feel better. Circumstances are changing…. For better or worse, we will see.
By the end of my junior year and beginning of my senior year of high school so many things were going through my head. Also at that time my high school ex had broken up with me. So much confusion because she was my first love, we cared about each other tremendously, and she was all i could think about. But when she told me that she didnt want to be together any more it shattered me a bit. I played it cool for a few months, but just seeing her hurt even more. A year has passed and she graduated already. I remember visiting […]
Hi, so this is my first post. I stumbled across this website when i was googling how to cope with this world that i hate so much, all the answers were bogus and I think that this website will maybe make me feel more alive? Basically I’m very sad with reason, i guess? I know that people have it so much worse than i do, but that doesn’t excuse the fact that i want to commit suicide or leave society, which would lead to me being picked up by a middle-aged psychedelic man looking to fume me with drugs.
I want to runaway, and i have […]
I’ve suffered more pain in my 19 years than most endure in a lifetime. I’m so tired of going to bed every night hoping I won’t wake up, only to do just that and have the pain reply itself. No one in my life cares or even notices. I’ve attempted to end it once before, but I woke up in a pool of my own vomit instead. I tried to move on from suicide, but my life is a void. Nothing but lament can fill it. Everything jut seems so unease for me right now an I can’t stop this pain I’ve been feeling, it hurts […]
So it’s been a while since I last posted anything. I feel like I’m getting worse as the day passes by, voices are still telling me to give up and die. Last night I broke my chain of self harming. The last time I self harmed was a couple of months and that’s all I think about now, all I want to do is die, why can’t I be happy as I use to. There ain’t many issues happening in my life but I still experience a psychological war against myself. I just need out.
i see my self not just as a wast of space but as a thing to be toyed with its all i have been all my life i had hope but now shes drifting away im loseing evreything i love in the space of a few weeks befor i left for a wile befor i came back here i had some ider of what i was doing but now love and my mind are fading and my hope if i had any is gone
my sole is cold and leeking out of my body im a ship in space drifting a hulk thats all i am a emptey […]
Hi people,
What do you think about disclosing your depression in the workplace? Telling your boss or HR or someone you trust.
Is it a good idea?
What are your experiences?
I want to disappear but the only thing that stops me from doing it is my love from my family and friends because i don’t want to see them crying because of me.
I almost got what i want(nice circle of friends, loving family, money) but still, i want to disappear. I commit suicide once and that’s the dumbest thing i ever did because all of us have our time but me, i’m rushing it.
When i’m alone, i want to commit suicide. But the things that are always sinking in my mind are “How about your family? How about your friends? Are you crazy?” Yes i […]