I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MY HEART IS BROKEN, I LOST MY LOVER AND MY BESTFRIEND. SHES NEVER COMING BACK. AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I DROVE HER AWAY WITH ALL MY INSECURITIES. NOT TRUSTING HER ALL THE NAGGING AND PUSHING HER AWAY. I LOST THE BEST AND WORST PART OF ME FOREVER. SHE NEVER WANTS TO SEE ME.AND ITS ALL MY FAULT. AS I SIT HERE WITH TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY EYES IM LOST WITHOUT HER. MY LIFE IS OVER…. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER. I CANT … I CANT PICK UP THE PIECES ON THIS ONE. MY HEART IS BROKEN. NO […]
I’m just done. I fucked up everything, I’m just done with everything
I’m tired I wish I sleep forever. I hate myself. 🙁 I just don’t feel right anymore , everything is getting more worse. Growning up sucks. I’m sick of this shit , I’ve lost the ability to feel anymore , I don’t know how to feel. I just feel like dying 🙁 !!!!!
This is my last post.
after playing ssl on some stuffs ( #ResetTheNet ) , i already don’t have money for eat and pay my place.
everything dissapear.
everything “told” me i’m just a junk.
off course it’s not my fault because i can’t prevent  my eyes from watching a stupid people do whatever they do
God sorry..
after finish creating this post, i’ll go
fuck that, i will hang up myself now.
I’m freaking out. I’m fucking freaking out. I can’t wait anymore. I want her. I want her to want me. Why is she taking so much time ? Why doesn’t she miss me ? Why doesn’t she come back regretting everything and saying I’m the love of her life ? It’s not fair. Stupid shitty life. I don’t deserve this and I’m sick and tired to collapse under your vicious hits. This girl is meant for me and she doesn’t even realize it. She doesn’t even want me. What will I do, alone and miserable in my stupid small apartment. Without her. Without everyone.
I won’t […]
What did I do that was so bad to deserve this? Why do I have to feel miserable my whole life I can’t ever have any happiness. As soon as I thought I found Somone that really made me forget about all my problems. “Snap” it’s gone I’m accepting that fact that iv lived alone my show life so I’m going to die alone. That’s fine but I wish I can just die why do I have to go though hell my whole life and kill my self why can’t got just kill me already. Their is no plan for me things aren’t going to […]
Drowning in the despair of my mind,
peace of soul I cannot find.
Demons are raging inside of me,
break my cage and set me free.
Trapped in a vicious game called life,
Sending only pain, loss, and strife.
Maybe one day I can leave this place,
I will be gone, without a trace.
I have no one to leave behind,
free of the war inside my mind.
We wanted to live not suffer,
All our hopes and dreams were smothered.
We’re all living, quietly bleeding,
suffering here, painfully breathing.
Nothing to live for, nothing to lose,
years and years of constant abuse,
All […]
I don’t even know what this is anymore. I used to be able to feel the pain, but apparently, if you immerse yourself in enough pain, you eventually stop feeling it. And I’m starting to miss it. I don’t even know. Anything, I guess. I’m lost in the world, and I’m not really sure I want to fin my way again. This is all I’ve ever known, and I don’t know what life will be like if everything were perfect. Suicide isn’t a last resort anymore- it’s the only option. And I have no choice but to take it eventually.
So, only 2 tablets for depression and the rest for other things, but they aren’t even making a difference…the doctor says ‘no amount of dosage is going to make this go away so you need to figure out what it is that’s really bothering you’ um, I know full well what bothers me but most of the things that do are beyond my control and I cannot change them. I just don’t belong here you know?
I have online therapy because that was the quickest form of help they could give me…I have been feeling so anxious this week:( I’m not even really sure why, I […]
I spend my spare time crying mostly. Often I cannot stop. Forgiving myself has come to be one of the hardest things on my agenda. The most difficult thing to overcome. Who knew that the hardest thing to overcome would be yourself. Who knew that in one moment you will barely be able to overcome the choice of eating breakfast or not.
i wish i could say what i want to say…  i wish this post was what i originally thought id post here….  i just feel no will to do anything….  i feel depressed but not in the way it usually was….  im so anxious, so stressed….  and i dont have the crutches i normally used….  perhaps it was a mistake to move, even tho this should be better for me, i think…  i feel like i cant do this anymore….  i feel like things will never get better and never be ok….  which is different for me because i used to think things like i […]
She’s planned to end it when we get back from vacation. When the real world comes back into our relationship. Get back the day before my 18th birthday just a few days away now. Tonight was the first night I thought I could possibly have the courage to do it. I don’t want to hurt her more. I wish I could do it and it not hurt her at all. She’s the light in my life my sunshine. Without her my world is a very dark place. And I don’t like the dark
I guess I should start off with saying that I am a 17 year old Female.
I’ve delt with depression basically my whole life, I can’t really do much about it except try my best to be positive. Life has been pretty hard, I’m not gonna lie. When I was 15 I experienced my first real serious relationship, he was a douchebag (so I’ve come to realize) but at the time I was pretty naive and didn’t see it. He constantly flirted with other girls while we were dating, he cheated on me and then dumped me for my best friend. We only really dated for […]
Humans are smart and tend to take intelligent decisions always
how to close a business deal, intelligent choices to make life better,the probability calculations, innovations, research.
out of all these most intelligent choice is suicide
Why some people consider it as selfish act?
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Hi there I’m a 14 year old gay male, I suffer from schitsophrania and chronic depression and I think I need to let my story out. I self harm, I started at a surprisingly young age of I think only six. At the time it was not an addiction it was something I had done once or twice because hurting myself and hiding it did’t get me in trouble where as hurting other people did. Arround the age of seven, I got my first scar on my wrist in the shower, using a shaveing razor I had cut just […]
through the deepest depths. you brought me back from doom.
you are the carrier, the lasso.
is your spectrum so deep that you will reach.
never uniting, the story of the lost.
Lapras are oh so mysterious, too.
the water universe. the golden age.
a million years under the sea.
Gyrados, the trident.
Polywag, Polywhirl, Polywrath. our mankind.
the butterfly of the dead sound.
what is in the depths of darkness, under the sea.
why is the population of water pok. so low in the vast ocean.
the ecosystem of the lost and mystery.
the ying and the yang. one, versus the world.
celestial princess in our dying habitat.
it’ll be like…… we’re gonna go die……
or….. I just […]
I hate myself, I hate people, everything hurts. I don’t understand happy people. Even if someone is not a psycho, most people are assholes. Everything depresses me, the pills don’t work, the exercise doesn’t work, therapy doesn’t work. A 15 year old boy was raped in the bathroom of my local mall. You’d think a kid that age is safe to go alone to the bathroom. I read that two 12 year old girls stabbed another 12 year old girl 19 times. A man tried to sell his baby for $50. What the fuck is this shit hole? How can anyone be happy? Is everyone […]
i fought with myself for all of 2 seconds before posting this.
I feel morally corrupt for even doing this but here goes. I found a new site called Lost All Hope. its lostallhope.com.
its supposed to have methods, stats, links and all that good stuff.
I felt like if i posted that here, I’d be giving people the fuel they need to do what they want to do and that it would be all my fault. But i also know how desperate I get when I get in those moods and how I wish someone could point me in that direction. I may or may […]
Every decision that I have made each mistake and failure in my life is floating around inside my head. The fact that i’m emotionally disconnected because I’m terrified of feeling anymore more pain. I don’t want anyone not even my ex and deep down I think I still love him. I still talk to him I still see him and I’m sure that’s a big mistake on my part. But I can’t let go maybe it’s because I’m afraid, maybe I like remembering the good. Its unhealthy I know that, but I seriously think that there is something wrong with me mentally. Is it wrong […]
Fuck all of this… even with you sitting right next to me, suicide is still my first thought… why am I still here; I’m so done with this all…