No matter how far I travel, or what I try to do, I all ways end up back here
does anyone want to just talk? for the past couple months ive been away at college with no one i can talk to and i just want someone that i can exchange past experiences/ life stories with. im 18 years old and ive been depresseed since i was 14
I’m here to help anyone who needs it, and I’m always open to new friends. So if you’re struggling with anything at all, my tumblr is snowlette.tumblr.com, and my gmail is koorishiroiuyoku@gmail.com.
I just want someone who can trust and beaccepted by. I feel like no one cares about me and if I were to die tonight nobody would notice. I hate myself for being so lonely.
Hello everyone. My name is Shane, and to be straight-forward here, I’m not suicidal. Not anymore anyways. But I know what it’s like to feel lost, alone, and worthless. And I wanted everyone to know that if you have nobody else to talk to, you can always talk to me. I’ll answer you by email at armstrongshane8@gmail.com if you’d like, or you can add me on skype at armstrongshane (my usernames for those aren’t very creative, I know). I’m pretty much online day and night if you need to talk and I really enjoy helping people. And I realize how hard it is to talk […]
No one needs to read this, no one needs to care. I just need to put it out there. Last night I said my bf broke up with me. The friend he promised didn’t care about me did everything she could to make me feel better. Thank you. But how the last round of this relationship started is what I need to talk about.
He had been dating a girl who was extremely clingy. Finally he broke it off with her. We both said that we still had feelings for the other, but I was a little wary. I told him we needed to wait three […]
This world sucks u need money. To live and survive. Or u loose. Everything … what else is next..now I can’t aford Counsling. Or other. Bills. Child support Probation. Etc ether way
Its a looseing. Battle. Any way I look at it ..I’d rather die than be in jail. I can’t even. Find a job after I got busted by the state revenue. Board. I understand why Jesus let the state kill him. And didn’t run ….. Lord I lift my empty hands to you o Lord
Everybody seems to think there’s only one way of looking at things;
Living is the only option, right?
For if you’re suicidal, there must being something wrong with you.
Who decided life was worth living anyway?
Actually death is a option.
It seems so strange to think life is for everyone.
That someone of sane mind can choose a way out.
After all; aren’t we free control our own lives?
last night was the worst of many. i not only lost my family and home but i broke a promise i thought i never would. last night me and my mum had a really big arguement over my birthday. its in 9 days and im turing 17 and all i wanted was to spend time with my family and do what i want to do as its the 1 day of the year i get unlimated attention for the right reasons. mum wanted to be selfish and make the day about her so we both got angry. she yelled and threatened me and i pulled […]
So I decided to be completely honest right now about my life.
one of my friends is constantly attempting to commit suicide.
my entire group of friends is into cutting and marijuana.
my parents think I’m the good one.
my teachers think Im the smart kid.
my siblings want to be like me.
but I hate myself.
I want to die.
i can’t even tell my friends who cut that I do too because they depend on me to be the stable one in our group.
the one who isn’t fucked up.
i don’t know how much longer I can take it.
i just want to drive and drive and never look back.
honestly?
i feel like shit
…in that time, at that moment and in every time and every moment of the future, you truly believe you cannot and will not be able to cope, that it’s all too much and nothing will ever be right and it’s not like it’s ever going to end well anyway so why not just quit now? It makes so much sense to simply put an end to a life that is nothing but painful when it feels like it will never be anything else.
And the people who try to prevent the suicide of others will often say things like “what about your family/friends/loved ones?” and […]
I don’t know if this description of suicide is accurate even though it it is splashed all over sites that claim they want to help. What if the problem is permanent? Can you help now? I thought not. You can’t give a bullshit definition for something if you have never experienced it before. Another one of societies attempts to label the things which they do not understand.
Why bother in the world of inequality, where billionaires have everything and the masses are destitute. Why work, why slave over, why even participate in the game of social mores and maniacal head hunts. Maniacal CV and Resume sending. This is not the way life is supposed to be. Spend all your money on pleasure, and then let someone else play it. Fuck all the GDP statistics and the deranged global money-changers.
Im not really close with anyone so it’s hard for me to tell people how I feel. Everything has just became to much for me and I don’t no what to do. The cutting/burning isn’t enough anymore. All I think about is ending my life. And I know deep down I don’t really want to but it feels like most the time something else is in my head telling me it’s a good thing. In miserable I hate living I hate doing anything. I try to convince my self that I’m not crazy or whatever and this will all past but it doesn’t. I really […]
I relapsed last night. People have been touching my arms and I wince. They ask about it and I say I fell but I think they really know. My girlfriend know and I hate it. I’m sorry everyone :c
Oddly named post since we are well beyond Halloween but nonetheless a suitable title ….
Today I received a sample of ******** from a possible source free of charge so that he could prove that he is legit. Problem is I have no way of testing it without risking possible harm to myself as I am the only test subject I have. I have no money to buy a 245$ kit from Exit international and if this isn’t N but something poisonous and painful my plans will be thwarted. Does anybody know of anyway that I could test my sample?
Trick or Treat….
Lets hope this is a […]
I relapsed last night and this time cut on my wrists instead of my thighs like normal; honestly I don’t know why I moved spots. I’m so self conscious today though. Constantly pulling at my sleeves and bracelets to make sure no one can see my cuts, especially my family. I just hold in so much anger and sadness until I feel like I’m suffocating under it all, and my only release is when I cut. Needless to say I’m very disappointed in myself.
Everything I love is being ripped away from me and I can’t do anything about it. I feel useless. I can’t feel real happiness anymore, I just feel hollow. I feel helpless and hopeless. I nkow that I’m encroaching on their comfort zone, so I back off, but then I feel even lonlier. Pretending that I’m okay and that everything is fine is getting too difficult, and I don’t know how much longer I can keep this act up. I don’t want help in the form of a shrink or a pill or a padded cell. I have plenty of ways and opportunities to end my sufferring, but I’m hoping for some reason, any […]
What are alternatives to suicide??
It’s so hard to bring myself to kill myself. I know that I will never be the same again though. I will never get a bf, be happy, work again, or even clean house. I messed up and I can’t forgive myself. I can’t even get out of bed.
If I just knew I could live my life over again, I would be able to do it. I had such a good life with so many wonderful opportunities over the last 7 years. All I had to do was to take just one of those opportunities.
How do I get the courage to commit suicide?