I have no motivation to do anything constructive to entertain myself on this Friday night, yet I can’t stop obsessively surfing the web.

I was feeling positive, hopeful, but the loneliness and boredom that accompanies it is overwhelming. I feel I can’t do this alone.

My heart aches. I wake up anxious nearly everyday wondering when it will end.

If I could just feel happy, I know that’s impossible but ugh. Please, have mercy. I look around at all these functional people living their lives and I don’t understand how they lead such stressful lives without breaking. How do they persevere? They’re like superheroes to […]

fuck everyone, everything, over & over, hard.

don’t fucking talk about me like you know me because you just fucking don’t

clearly

if you did,

you would care more

and why can’t you fucking see all this evil in the world

why do you even smile or say it’s good

when someone you supposedly loved just turns into, well, money

how does no one actually give a shit

like what is thisssssssssss

i asked you for help, did i not?

you definitely saw me suffering

do i look strong to you?

choke me, stab me, rip off my skin, just do anything else… i know it would hurt less

just make sure it ends because i can’t stand this […]

Hey bro, first off I want to say that I don’t want to dissuade you from making your own choice of ending life, and I definitely don’t want to encourage it. I however know you are experiencing hardship, and cannot judge anyone who decides to take their own life.

I Just want to let you know that you are one of the nicest people I’ve encountered on an internet community. You have very good objective logic and reasoning, and are considerate of others and their beliefs. I lurk alot and rarely post, but I posted one thread on this site, and you provided a really thoughtful […]

The times u feel when ur heart is shattered and ur soul is dark when ur mind roams trying to find answers on why does this happen to me why is this world so cruel I just don’t understand anymore the time I feel down the times when I wanna be alone are to clear my mind and forget everything to life the. Pain from each word said by people to me The feeling of emptyness inside ur heart hurts everytime I cry it’s a peace of me getting wasted away everytime I’m sad I’m always hurt my heart is always hurt the ways that […]

Do you really know? You think the scars are beautiful, but do you know how I got them? Do you know what I think about every time someone calls me useless or stupid? Can you understand how it feels when the others stare at me because my sleeve rolled up? Can you help?

long live for weed.

Don’t you just wish you can be in a coma for a couple of years so you don’t have to deal with all the shit that’s in your life?? I would love that.

A famous poet ELIOT said: “When u get little You want more, When u get more, You desire even more, but when u lose it, u realize LITTLE was enough”

I just want to end my life, I can’t take any of this shit anymore. I’ve never had the guts to do it though…do any of you know a painless way to die?

I don’t want to be alone anymore. I need someone to need me. Is that too much to ask?

I have had no sleep again except for like 3 hrs but I woke up strangely happy…I am still in a lot of pain but I might get my meds today which makes me happy and then right now bc of u all on here I feel I have a support system that I never had before…I jus wanted to thank u all

The only thing I have that I can rely on 100% of the time is my daughter…
I’m just so tired of everything.
I am literally exhausted of trying to keep pretending that I’m fine.
I am tired of trying not to cry.
Usually failing.
I’m tired of being blamed…
I’m so emotionally worn out…
I don’t want to care anymore…because all it ever does is hurt….
The only one I know will always be here is her.
I’m so tired of false hopes…
I’m exhausted…waking up is a burden that I only continue to carry for her…
I have friends I care about…but she’s […]

As the time draws near and the time for my exit gets close I can’t help but wonder “is this what I really want?”

The end…The final breath…The final speck of light that will flee from my eyes as they go blank as I gaze at the sky….

Is this really what it has come to?

All the hours in school; Pointless

All my memories; Lost

All my progress in life thus far; Gone

All my achievements; Forfeited

All my favorite things; Erased

Everything that I have ever experienced; Forgotten

But as I reflect upon these things I had an epiphany ….Whether I die on the date I have scheduled or not….these things still […]

I posted recently about deciding to quit dxm for the long term.  So far it has not been too hard.  My mental health is drastically improving.  The only this is the boredom I feel now.

What is everyone up to tonight?  I always try to respond as soon as I can.

<this is a rant- you’ve been warned>

you’re such a fucking joke, you know that?

i’ve known you for over 10 years and i’m just starting to realize what a horrible person you are. you hate being judged, but you’re the first to judge someone else. you are a complete fucking hypocrite, and make my life hell. you tell me to stop bringing up the past because you’ve changed but you just keep proving my points. i know you hate him, but that gives you no right demand him to do something after ignoring his existence FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR, and then spend weeks bitching about what […]

I have been out of work since I graduated from a master’s program. Since then, I’ve been struggling with severe depression. It’s been so bad that I get to the point where I have panic and anxiety attacks when going to interviews. I’m on welfare, but it doesn’t give me enough money to live. My boyfriend has been helping me, but he got laid off. I am so worried about money and how I am going to eat and pay rent that it’s hard to do any job searching. I’m to the point where I don’t think I can work right now until I get […]

ok so after about 2 hours of sitting here thinking of what to say, how to say it, and again asking myself “is there a point?” I guess the only reason or in my case the only point that i should do this is because i do know that if i don’t try something soon, i am going to hurt myself sooner or later.

So lets start at the beginning, At 17 I was strongly concidering suicide, I was 5 mins away from blowing my head off with a shotgun, i mean i had it under my chin and everything, i was just trying to get […]

Somedays I just lay in my bed staring at the walls in silence. I get so busy in letting my thoughts run that an hour will casually slip by, just like that. Sometimes two.
Staring at these white walls.
Not listening to music, not sleeping, not on my laptop, not even moving a twitch. I just let myself breathe in silence.
And I wonder adding up all those hours, adding into days, weeks of endless uselessness of nothing when I go to meet God will he damn me for these days of wasting my “precious” life he gave? The big man will ask me, why […]

A few months ago I posted my suicide note on here, well… I’m still alive, the dog leash I used broke while I was hanging… no one found out about it thankfully… I guess the moral of the story is, don’t buy cheap dog leashes….

I feel so lonely today. Someone that I didn’t like got a rose from a boy. I felt so bad after that I literally cried for hours I told my dad and sister and they said I was being “immature” and “childish” and that it was “my fault” that no one likes me.But they don’t know what it’s like to feel so alone and have no one. I just want to die now. No one likes me and no one cares. This morning I wanted to talk to the school consoler but she was too busy. No one has time for me.