Do you guys crave sweets an awful lot? Like at least once a day and generally multiple times a day.
There is always a reason cry, but most if the time we are not in the mood. When I’m not crying, I’m furious. Regret or rage; these are the defaults.
I need to be distracted.
I was great. I don’t mean good, but rather, expansive. I was broad scoped and wide minded, but then I fucked myself. I broke myself. I died years ago. I left a shell. A husk of pity, remorse, rage, and I am left smoldering in ash, reminiscent of, but never again as I was.
I get to imagine, but never to feel… and even these images are fuzzed, as my grand machine sputters […]
Hey everyone I haven’t been on here in a while but still feel the same feel always depressed feel like giving up which I most likely already have and more but im still always here for anyone who feels the same way and just needs to know someone else is out there that cares and feels the same way but we still all have to stick together and be each others comfort because only we can understand each other
I need something to keep me going, because anymore I see no point in living. Everyone always meets someone better than me, then I become nonexistent. I’m use to it, I don’t blame anyone, I only blame myself for not being good enough. And yes, I know that people leave our lives all the time but why is it that no one seems to stay in my life? For once, I’d like to feel wanted/needed. But that probably won’t happen, I’ll kill myself long before that day comes.
I’ll try to keep this as short as possible. I feel like I’m wasting away. Every day is exactly the same. There is no progress in my life whatsoever. The same thoughts for over 5 years…every single day. I just can’t bear this any longer.
I’m drowning in self-pity and an emptiness I can’t even describe properly. Every day I cross the street in the hope that I get hit by a car. Sadly, they always miss. I wish I could bring up the courage to kill myself, but the fear of failure is so prominent that I can’t do it, yet. Sometimes I feel like […]
It’s sad I never heard of this man up until recently while on a random YouTube video spree. He is a great philosopher and comedy just happens to be the way he conveys his message. If you’ve never heard of him you should watch a few YT videos of him……The man is absolutely brilliant.
I’m not a writer, Â just bear with me.. As I age I see no change. Just a flatline with no end, blank room with no doors or windows. Everyone has doors and windows. I’m always in a rut, never can catch a break. In pain mentally and physically. Â According to my doctor, Â I’m “fine”. Everyone thinks im fine. Â Im on a fine line , wanting to disappear. People who didn’t deserve to die should take my place, at least they had a place in this world. As of this point im not interested in harming myself, iust the thoughs of volunteering to leave disturb me […]
I was molested. It makes me feel like a whore. Disgusting. Absolutely worthless, and I want to tell my best friend so badly. But I don’t know if it will actually do me any good. It was years ago, what do I expect her to say?
My therapist told me a joke today. How many therapists does it take to change a lightbulb? The answer is it depends if the lightbulb is ready to change…
If you’ve ever been to therapy you know you can only get so far unless you really want to be a different more adjusted person. In so many ways, I don’t want to be better, because I’m so sure I won’t be able to get there and even if I ever got close to something good I’d be terrified of it all falling apart again.
I keep telling my therapist that I’m wasting her time and my money […]
Hi, this is my first post. I’n writing this because I need help on the topic of ‘becoming mute’ The thing is, I have friends and what not, but I just don’t feel the need to talk to anybody anymore. Iv’e been having daily panic attacks due to my severe social anxiety, and I’m tired of it. So basically what I’m trying to ask is how would I go about becoming mute? I don’t want to do this right away either, it would be best if it happened slowly. Just to add, I want to become silent to my parents as well. They are no […]
maybe i would never end up killing myself ever.
I am 59, I do not work, my children have all moved away, I have no friends and am surviving on very little money. I do not feel I have a purpose in life. I am not interested in voluntary work because of chronic pain. I am depressed and just wish I had the courage to kill myself. my mother and grandmother died at 72 so I guess I have to wait that long. life is unbearable. I go for days not seeing anyone. get up in the morning with no plan or purpose and go to bed at night in a lonely house.
My greatest fear is most terrifying, because I’m certain it will come true. I am so scared by the thought that I might just end up alone forever, but I even more scared to get hurt again in a relationship. Therefore, I will never try to build relationships again, and I will most definitely be alone forever. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t, ya know? And I’m at this college with a bunch of really great people, but then again, I met my first love here last year, and he turned out to be fake and evil. I don’t know what to believe about […]
This feeling of loneliness that is manifesting itself withing me is what reassures me that I am still alive and that although I feel dead I am merely on auto pilot. It’s a painful feeling that feels as though my heart has imploded and I walk around with this accepting it as a part of me, like an extra body part or some weird thing like that.
But I don’t want loneliness to spread and grow inside the people around me, so I’ve taken it upon myself to put a smile on the faces of people who look upset or just any random person in […]
here is the story about how i lost the love of my life.
i started working at my job a year ago. at first, it was tough because i wasnt used to really socializing around. but after a week, i had managed to make a few friends. one of them was a guy that was short but very cute. he would always greet me with a smile and a warm “hello!”. for the next few months, he became one of my closest friends there. he gave me his number and we would stay up late at night having conversations about life and work and random […]
i’m new here so i’ll do a run down on my life.
my family has always had a problem with depression. most of my family has died from either suicide or cancer. growing up pretty much knowing i was gonna be depressed sucked. it was always so hard for me to find friends. i was always the “weird fat kid” that no one wanted to be around. my family (in my eyes) was always pretty and skinny and very popular. my cousin who was my age was always noticed, while i was always looked over and ignored. when i was in 2nd grade was […]
I’m so depressed today I’m all alone.I went to school and I didn’t have ANYONE to talk to.My ‘friend’ was too busy talking to her friends to even notice or remember me, so I just sat alone for 15 minutes till the bell rung. Everyone has someone to hang out with , someone who understands them.I feel left out.I can’t relate to anyone, it’s almost as if I see everyone as an enemy .No one really cares if I’m in pain, no one cares if they hurt my feelings.I’m such a boring person I only have 2 ‘friends’ and they barely hang out with me.It feels […]
easy way out?? probably easily accessible and fast.. painless in not a requirement if its going to be quick
gun laws are very strict in this part of the country so any other suggestions other than firearms??