I’ve been in an OK mood this week and it wavered depending on how my day went for example I’ll be in a good mood but if one little thing happens that irritates me then it affects my mood for the rest of the day. I don’t have any friends at school or anyone that I really talk to except for in 5th period which I don’t mind so today at lunch I hear that someone saying they’re going to Cancun so I comment “oh you’re going to Cancun” and this boy at my table is says “I would appreciate it if you don’t but […]

there are two shots.
just two.
then you hear screaming.
you hear cars screeching as they swerve. the driver’s alarmed and confused. BANG BANG!
just two shots.
all I can see is this weird picture.
i see a bridge first. always the bridge.
then I see cars in front of the bridge.
the sky is from pitchblack to daybreak.
I always see the brigde.
then I hear them.
The two shots.
always.
screaming.
sounds like about 20+ people.
but then this picture…
the bridge and the cars, police cars.
the cars are all empty.
then I see a hand.
a hand holding a gun.
and […]

As an atheist I realize how futile life and everything in the universe is.  I realize that even in death there’s no peace.  The totalitarian controllers of this world won’t let us leave peacefully.  They want us to stay alive and suffer until the bitter end.  Once labeled “mentally ill” they won’t even let you buy a gun to end things painlessly.  I will continue my search for barbiturates though to attain a peaceful death.  I actually have a lead to get some phenobarbital on the silk road.  We’ll see how this works out.  Hope you guys are doing better than I am..

Why did he have to hurt me so much? Why did he get his friends to follow me and make fun of me? Why was I just a joke to him? What did I do that deserved all this?

My only crime was that I loved him.

Now all I am left with is pain.

so when i went to school i took 4 vicodins. i felt pretty fucked up and I still do right now, because i took them only 2 hours ago. I’m home now because I feel like throwing up (that might be because I havent eaten in 2 days..) I’m going to take the rest of the pills later.. I hope that will be enough to kill me. I can’t take it anymore, life is too much. no one cares so it doesnt matter.

(UPDATE) — i just threw up the juice i just drank. i dont know if i am throwing up because i havent eaten, […]

well just look at my face the black sheep of life who has now lost apslotly evrey thing

I feel so lost..

I’ve never thought of suicied. I’m too afraid of pain. But I guess it can be the easier way to go. I have an amazing boyfriend who tries to help me with my problems. But while he’s tending the tree, the roots are still being eaten away.

My dad doesn’t really respect anyone, himself, my mom, or especially me. He only cares that you can earn your keep, not your feelings. Not how his constant ups and downs, tantrums, and screams murder me, little bits at a time.

I don’t like complaining, much less being a burden, especially on those I love. I know many people have […]

He’s gone, and will never come back. That, I’m sure of. I almost don’t care anymore, regardless of the 21 years we spent together. It’s still such a shock – such an emptiness. The fact that he’s blaming me for everything, that he believes I’m far more ill than I am, is disconcerting. It makes me doubt myself, all the time.

I’m cold. I’m almost always cold. I sleep alone. I get up alone, I live in near silence, and fear. Where will I go, how will I get there, what will I do?

I gave up […]

That’s it i’m checking out.. My last words is “suicide because life is just too mainstream”..Goodbye! See you all on other side..

Everyday I feel like shit.
My walls are crumbling.
I’m falling.
I’m worthless.
I can’t be stuffed with anything.
It’s pointless caring.
I’m sick of trying.
Let it end.

That moment, when the voice in your head, your voice tells you over and over, like a mantra. “You are nothing”

All day, especially when I am alone, it says it continuously, over and over until I feel sick, to the point where I want to vomit.

I am saying it now, I have been alone for about 15 minutes, but I continue to say it, to myself.  “I am nothing, You are nothing”

When will the suffering be over?

Please just… be quiet.

l am an oxygen bandit.

I did not ask to born, I did not sign up for anxiety and depression.

I fulfill no purpose in society.

I have no significant other nor children.

The world would be better off without me.

I will be gone soon.

To me it takes a lot of courage to off myself.

It is a permanent solution to permanent problem.

No, sometimes things don’t get better.

I will never be good enough..

I was feeling down about my looks and myself as a person last night and my mood kind of transferred to the next day(today) later on in school in fourth period I didn’t feel like doing work because mind was too preoccupied. I felt even worse when I went back to class because my crush in there and I started to over think that why would he ever like me maybe for him to like me I’d have to be better than I am now but I guess I did it because I needed to put how I felt on to something

if any of you ever need anyone to talk to for anything you can txt me 8043716894

spin spin spin its all my life seems to do nower days i dont know were i am in the world no more im lost not fownd on a sinking ship and thers know way out i whant to go away from here and be in pese

If I killed myself right here right now I know no one would care it would make everyone happy in fact. My friends tell me they care but they never talk to me anymore. Right now seems like a good time to go everyones asleep so I think I’ll get the gun and end all this pain I havent wrote a note just yet so I’ll have to do that, not to mention calling my best friend promised if i would ever kill myself I’d tell him instead of him finding out secondhand. I just hope that people give life a better chance then I […]

Hey Suicide project. Long time reader, first time poster.

Tonight’s the night! After 27 years on this blue ball, I can finally go to sleep knowing that under no circumstances will I have to get up tomorrow. I will never have to go to work, pay a bill, or sit an exam. I’m never going to be cold, wet, bored, hungry, lonely, anxious, or sick. I will, to shamelessly quote steel, never have to face the horror of another fucking day. My contribution to global warming is at an end (well, besides the final 46 kilos from the disposal of my carcass).
Of course, I will […]