with each fresh cut,
the blood river rains,
and my body will never be the same.
I am completely alone, all day every day, unable to do anything because I feel so sick, in unbearable pain, unable to think or concentrate at all. Even just writing this is taking so much out of me. Oh, and the air conditioning’s been broken all week so it’s 90 degrees in the house.
I have literally just been laying in bed in the dark in the same position the entire day, doing nothing at all except trying to survive and occasionally crying because things are so unbearable. I don’t think there’s anyone who cares at all.
I literally just cannot do this anymore.
I’ve […]
no respons not a thing
blood on the floor gun in hand
why coud a boy feel this way
feeling alone coold and dead
he toke a gun to hid head
didunt feel a thing just a bang
then wight then darkness
the war song of the centrey
we fort the war on drugs
but we for got the people who neeid the help
didunt her the yeps and crying
didunt see the bullits flying
just dead bodeys
the floor in blood
what a fucking nice naber hood
the […]
I feel like everywhere, every day I’m constantly being lied about how much others care for me being alive. Deep down no one really cares what happens to me. It’s all a lie. Everyone is a hypocrite. They act as they care because they’ve been taught to do so. I feel like no one can help me or more like no one wants to do anything. I know I shouldn’t expect others to do what I can’t do for myself, but it would just be easier if people would support the only options I have left. I want to die.
No one is there for me […]
does anyone have any good tips or idea on how to cover up bad and noticeable scars? It’s getting too warm for jackets and I can’t use bracelets as they are too high up?
It’s so pointless me being here, it really is. I really am a freak and a burden to everyone. Seriously, I used to be the target and now I find a target. I’m just so freaking twisted! 6years ago I turned violent and odd, not only do I lash out randomly and harshly ( I regret it instantly after) I use harsh words against people too. I don’t get it?! Surely after being the target of all these things I would help prevent it from happening and not cause it! My thoughts arnt normal ( and there is no way that I am waiting it […]
i hope you are up to date with your reading. someone is jerking me around. your office says its the insurance co. the insurance co says its the office. either way for some reason my co-pay to see you has now tripled. been waiting for some edict from on high saying i need to stop seeing you so often. guess now i got it. something to do with specialist services versus therapy services. blah blah blah. i love insurance companies. oh well its only money right? my current financial crisis notwithstanding. i keep saying i am worth more dead than alive. yet another example. someone […]
I roll to my other side to be greeted by an empty bed once more. The imprint of your body still engrave in the mattress. The smell of your cologne and stale cigarette smoke, from long sleepless nights, still lingers in the air. A bottle of cheap liqueur solitarily stands on that old mahogany dresser. Clothes strewn across the room from lust filled endeavours, fueled by the cheap elixir of love. The shattered remains of our love lays in pieces on the floor, alongside the broken china. I lay here an wonder what it was all for?
I somehow manage to drag myself from our un-matriomonial […]
Im new on this. I feel more alone than ever. when i found this cite, i fell in love with it.
Life sucks!! I hate it so much and i wish to die. I get lied to about everything and feel alone lost and its Hell. I’ve tried mutiple times to die, but then the memories come back on why i shouldnt.. I hate it!!
I think this is goodbye everyone, i think tonights the night… I don’t know yet.
There’s no such thing like a purpose or a meaning in life, in fact the whole universe exists without a special reason or purpose. People invented the notion of “purpose in life” so they could cope better with other people’s mistakes, selfishness, cruelty, or because they envy other people’s realisations and thereby they feel less worthy to society and need something to make them go on. It’s a form of self defense, I think. So why is it bad to want to stop carrying traumatic,bad memories or incurable diseases with you? Because other people would suffer from losing you?
We are conditioned to think we have […]
I am a useless c**t. I am greedy, stupid and selfish. I have no friends. I am a liar. I am a disgusting waste of space. I am completely worthless. I am morally and spiritually bankrupt. I am lazy. I am wasteful. I have no respect for anything. I am a parasite. I was/am delusional. There is absolutely no reason for me to continue living. I have no future.
it’s been 17 fucking years.
in all honesty i can’t wait until it ends. 14 cuts this morning, more soon to come. starving myself, pulling out my hair. what a great way to spend my birthday.
anyway, im losing everybody, which is what i want even though it hurts. i dont want anyone to live for so i could finally just fucking die. my birth day isnt a happy day, i’d say its the worst day of my life tbh. all i want is a nice new pack of razor blades…..
The world is becoming such a terrible place. Nothing will change until some major tragedy will open people’s minds. So I’ve decided no matter what, I won’t wait. I will commit suicide. I will try. We’re already too many, one in minus, won’t count.
I have been saving the blood from cutting. I keep it in a glass vile then use it as ink later. I find it a little morbid but cool! What do you think?
getout of my head
go away
i never what to se you agen
you hert me ones
but not agen
get out of my life
get out of my head
let me sleep im going to bed
dont bother to wake me
ill be gon
just sent a kiss
the finel straw
ther gon and i know the thing to do is be happy
but for years iv mornd
in this lonly world
os flying home
dont know were home is
but you never see me
Any one that wants to talk please email me
solace_@hotmail.com
what i dont understand why are you doing this think about it for 2 secs just think the times we were properd to diy for echother and now this you whant to go i get it but what if were here to be together and stop echother from doing this shit and if one of us gos down we all do i hant to know what the fuck is going on in this world right now
hi everyone, i am from India. i have decided to commit suicide, this is it for me, I canot take it anymore. this life is very hard. i dont know how to kill myself. please help me, any easy thing i can do at home would be a great idea. also i live with my husband and inlaws. so i  cant have a failed attempt. please suggest something
Hi! Now, let me start off by saying that I am not full of the same deep-seated depression as many of you are.
My family loves me, I was never molested, I haven’t even cut myself. But I still want to commit suicide.
Not now, not even tomorrow. But upon reaching a certain age, I have not decided upon the age yet – it may be 60 or 70 even. But I will do it.
I know what you’re thinking -Â Well, if he’s got a good life, why would he kill himself? That’s just plain selfish!
But the thing is, I’m Asexual. I won’t ever have a wife to […]