Do not hate someone because they are not you. Do not hate yourself because you can only be unique, original, individual You. Stop hatin’. Just a suggestion. Rock on.

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I’ve been on medications for quite a while now, and I think they’re becoming pretty much useless… This year I’m turning 25, which is the legal age for being able to buy a gun in my country (Brazil). And I’m planning on buying a gun as soon as I can, and finish this f****** pain once and for all… I don’t even know why I’m saying this here.. probably because there isn’t anyone who I can share these stuff with…. The worst thing is… Even if I do kill myself, nobody will give a fucking fuck…… My mind is a mess, I’m totally lost, I […]

Still trying to figure out where I fit in the online world. I keep thinking I’ll just stay offline more…but then I don’t. I guess that only works in the real world, where I stick to either the familiar (work, home, favorite coffee shops, etc.) or “familiar-unfamiliar” (new coffee shops, new hikes, etc.) where I feel comfortable. Poking around at different sites for depressed people, or people with broken hearts, or child-free… nothing jumps out at me in “YES THIS IS YOUR PLACE” fashion. I’m curious about one of the child-free sites, but it didn’t seem very welcoming, and also was […]

My mom is such a fucking *****, I’ve had it up to here!! I can’t stand her shit any fucking more, last week on Thursday, she fucking ruined my plans because one Wednesday she thought I was going to beat up my sister because I complained about her touching my things. She made this HUGE scene on the phone, in the party she was in and at home. She is fucking STUPID, all she fucking does is think lowly of me and I’ve had ENOUGH. So on Thursday, she RUINED my plans because  she says I MISBEHAVED on Wednesday, so I got SUPER FUCKING PISSED, […]

life really just makes no sense to me. it’s a never ending circle of hypocrisy, people motivated by there own person agendas with no consideration for how what there doing affects the rest of society. It’s not just politicians or business persons but it’s just about everyone who is willing to sacrifice everything and destroy everyone that has the potential to stand in there way. It’s the bullies in school, the teachers who don’t understand you, the parents who think “it’s just a phase” or don’t even care.
I realize my rant is slightly of the topic this site is intended for but it’s these […]

Whatever lifts you up
Whatever floats ur boat
But I can’t take it anymore
So I’ve gone remote
To a desert island
In the middle of the sea
Coz my time has run up
For when I used to be me.
So cry your tears
They’re what made this sea
and don’t go without them
Or else you’ll be like me
On a desert island
In the middle of the sea
Remote doesn’t even come close
To the things I have been
I was awfully afloat
On a big large boat
But then it tipped over
And sunk down below
Down in the depths
Where […]

Whose woods these are I think I know,
His house is in the village though.
He will not see me stopping here,
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer,
To stop without a farmhouse near,
Between the woods and frozen lake,
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake,
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep,
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,

i fownd a sharpp nife and the pane full pleshure of it sinking in the blood mixsing with the ters and i can here my mum laughing her head off my frends slip away im going to diy some day so it mackes no difrens dos it ?

i know one thing ill never forgiv my mum and dad for abanding me on this world im still convinst im ther exprment see how far we can push this one will lv had it……..

The worst fear to have is a fear of ones self, you can’t run or hide from yourself, when scared you cannot stop yourself. I am terrified of myself everyday..i can hurt me more then anyone else. I have lived with this fear for a long time, but yet again the fear has grown. The fear grows when my emotions get stronger and sadder, when i feel empty and comatose’d. I cannot run or hide or stop myself anymore. I have no one or nothing to hold back the frightful me from hurting the scared me. I am a monster….just not of my own making.. […]

Everything builds character they say, every little gripe and suffocation of my personal image will just mean something more in the end. I will transcend and be greater for it. What I wouldn’t trade a bit of “character” for something resembling happiness. I am 27 and still unsure of what I am here to do every little path that i stray across simply ends with me holding the bags and the jackals growing all he louder. I know that since most humans are wrapped in their own egos, which is not a condemnation of such because it is a natural thing and should be embraced, that they see suicide as something that more or less pertains to them. So when […]

The Grey

“Once more into the frey… Into the last good fight I’ll ever know. Live and die on this day… Live and die on this day…” – Joe Carnahan

I fell like this is my last fight… All the shit thats goin on in my life. Failing college, feeling the disappointment of my family. I’ll always be a failure. And I’ll die at the end of this fight. Whether the fight being the end of my college career at my own hand, or when I’m old and pathetic and withering away. I pray its not when I’m old…

Numb and empty with no hope of a change of status quo. Knowing fully well that you may make it if you try but being so fucking lazy to get off the freaking bed. Yea thats me. Saint lesswill. Incapacitated by a love long gone

It all started when I was born my real mother was seventeen and my real father was twenty-three my real father was in prison for drugs and my real mother gave me up for adoption. I was took in three days later I was only four months old. A woman named “Wilma” took me in and raised me until I was three and she met my step father “Paul” I never actually had a dad before so I was happy but a step father came with three step sisters and two step brothers they were all old enough to live on thier own except two […]