Well, There was a boy and a girl, they’ve met once before about 6 years ago now, I believe, anyway they had lost contacted until last year when their friends had  told them about each other. Now, they started talking , and talking they both knew what they have been through and they both knew how they felt, if one was not happy the other one wasn’t well it toke a few months until they started dating, but when they dated, man were they cute, they did have there ups and downs but they go through it, until he had to move, his dad had died and his grandparents so he had to move somewhere far, they didn’t see each […]
Isn’t that funny. I made you dinner, ironic uh? I couldn’t see your face though but I knew it was you.
I’ve decided. And now I can’t wait. I’m going to kill myself next week. Goodbye all
I hope this makes some people smile. Some laugh. And maybe gross out a few others..
just had my morning poop! and it felt good
I have been suicidal for a very long time. I feel there is no way out. I feel like I can’t let go because of my responsiblities. That is the only thing keeping me back. But, I have been thinking of ways to kill myself that would look like an accident. I think driving on a rainy night and skidding off into a ditch. I feel like drugging myself and then setting my house on fire while everyone is not home. They could get money that way. Taking pills just doesn’t work. I feel so sad that i feel this way. I hate to say […]
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One to avoid killing themself Then truly it is the end.. I HATE this gov’t. And this economy. IWBGWLIO.. . Gofkurslfo
nlookers no one ever knew me or talked to me..
Now I have one person I call a friend, and no one else as friend.
I sometimes miss those white sticks of cancer but hey, they are a crutch and aren’t I supposed to be better than that? So much better in fact that I just ate all the damned Christmas cookies! Feel terrible now. But when you weigh out the good the bad and the ugly, it boils down to the cookies being the wiser choice out of all the choices I could have chosen.
I actually wanted to post about this site feeling as close to having “friends” as I […]
4 Months ago I left my home town to go to a industrial city 500 miles away in search of work and opportunity. I established a job as a sheet metal worker, I enjoy the job but I am required to work 65 hours a week which is fucked.. on top of that i get 4 days off per month. Ive lost my life, my Girlfreind of 5 years, my freinds, my dog, my family… everything. Im alone, I have no freinds here nor do i have the time to make any, I drink myself to sleep on a regular basis…I don’t look forward to […]
Your boyfriend walks into the house, to greet you after a long hard day at school. You had called him that morning, telling him you didn’t feel well and that you weren’t going to show up. You told him not to get the homework for you and to just stay away until you got better, because you didn’t want him to get the bug. Of course, thinking nothing of it, your boyfriend agreed and said to get better. That day, you decided to do the unthinkable; kill yourself. You decided to cut, to bleed to death. Your parents were gone, no one was home, it […]
I have thought about this for so long now. Why should I complain about wanting to die? I have a pretty good home life, an amazing boyfriend, supportive friends, even a good life going for me.
But there’s this tiny side of me that scares me.
I have my parents bitting at each others throats, jerks who wantto talk trash about my boyfriend, friends who abuse my feelings, and all these bad traits I see in myself.
Who said life is perfect? Why do I have the right to want to die?
I do though.
I really Do.
I have lied to so many […]
I lost one of the last few things that kept me going. I pushed him away but honestly I never really understood him. He was just there. He promised he would help but he lied and I knew he never cared.
Every morning he would annoy me by poking me or calling me stupid. We had those retarded kiddy fights and it was just frustrating at times. I don’t know what I wanted from him but I felt I was better off just cutting all ties with him because he just doesn’t care. I sound so selfish for saying so and I’m terribly sorry.
My […]
12/12/12.
I just got out of a psych ward today.
I’ve been depressed and suicidal for 6 years now. I had no intent on killing myself, but somebody thought I did, and they called the cops on me and threw me in the loony bin. This is the 2nd time I’ve been hospitalized like this. Last time I actually did try to hang myself, a few years ago. I never got the help I needed for being abused for years and years.
I hate hospitals and doctors with a passion, but I managed to figure out some things while I was in there. I’m glad to be going […]
k that panicky feeling is back in my chest. Why? cuz i don’t feel like the energy and effort I have put into the weeks sessions is going to land me a job any time soon!!
I feel like my efforts are not good enough, I didn’t put enough considered thought into my words and what I wanted to convey and it will show in no one biting my hook for work.
I also need to move and am looking at a more expensive place which happens to be a better place, in an area I prefer to be living in, and a […]
Purge, PURGE, Â binge, starve, starve starve starve. Â Happiness is a skill. I just need practice.
Alone. Numb. Bleeding.
this is how I am before I go to bed.
Only hope is to not wake up.
What’s up with all those people in my head. I am the voice saying kill and also the one saying don’t, I am the one saying you’re worthless nothing of a person that can’t even finish anything you start nor succeed in anything but also the one saying well, you’re not that bad, you did this and this and that, you’re just a bit exhausted.
I am a lazy person bored with life. I want many things but only for short moments of time, everything else is just emptiness. I hate the way I am and just don’t want to live like this. I tried to […]
I know how it feels to not want to be here. Both of my sisters committed suicide 17 months apart from each other. One in july and another this past Nov a day after thanksgiving.They both hung themselves. I feel like they gave up on me and left me in this world alone. I get very angry but I realize me getting mad does nothing. I feel like giving up and being with them many of days but I cant hurt my family and mostly, my mother. I wish I could of saved them and they was here with me today. losing one sister was hard but losing another […]
As confusing as the title may be it’s actually accurate, nearly dead-on exact for any definition I can give.
I guess I’m ‘giving up’? But I don’t like that phrase. It’s too sympathetic, when I say ‘giving up’ its like I’m on the wrong side, as if I don’t want to do it. But yes, I’ve decided to end my life, or as I’d like to put it, I’m ‘exercising my right-to-die, as I see fit, in light of circumstances which I feel are too great to cope with and the rewards of doing so too little to be worthwhile’.
Question; Why?
Answer; You could say I’ve lived […]
I was suicidal in the beginning of this year and tried to kill myself in February. I have been cutting for 3 years now. BUT. It HAS gotten better. I still get extremely sad and I can’t help that, but what helped me was never being alone, never having the time or energy to think. For the past month I was never alone I stayed after school with friends and had the time of my life, laughing.  I was never left to my own thought and thats what kills you. You just need to keep busy, distract your self, think of those moments the you laugh so hard you started […]
Has anyone else felt so humiliated it feels like you walk out your room naked and every ones laughing at you and you feel like you did it you’re self, YOU made you’re self look stupid by choosing to “Look On The Bright Side”….and all that happens is that at the end of the day nobody cares about it as much as you?