This is my first post.

I’m sorry but, I feel sick. My day was full of mania and cigarettes and I can’t believe I got up this morning… It’s one of those days when you are the thing in question.  It doesn’t help that my parents will not talk to me because of the DCFS case I filed against them.  I feel so alone here. I wish that I could take this whole week back and start over…

no. I shouldnt be here anymore. Im so fucking anxious right now. I swear if i see more flaws on myself or flaws that worsened i want to gain the guts to fucking kill myself like i had the balls to before. I wasnt born right, lets just leave it that way. Even with AB+ grades school is a disaster. People dont call me by the person im meant to be. I live a lie at school. My identification there is a lie. No one in real life will ever fucking understand. In terrified of my mild eating disorder and the scale. I cant bare […]

The feeling i had, the loneliness i had, i wasn’t comfortable talking to any one cause i didn’t know how they would respond to it. i didn’t want anything going around. it’s bad how i absolutely didn’t trust anyone…
i made a mistake, it went from an argument between two people to and argument including half the school and i didn’t know what to do at the point.. i tried to make new friends, didn’t work. i had to lie to my parents so they didn’t find out that there daughter was a loser, their daughter had no friends, their daughter has issues i Didn’t […]

Hey I’m ariel
I’m 19yrs old
I am a female
I am black and native american
I have had suicidal thoughts many times
I have tried to commit suicide many times
I’m over that now
Ive come to realize life is to short and I wanna have fun
I live on the east coast
Do you?
Want to vent and become friends hopefully losing the suicidal thoughts?
Email me: arielgrn@gmail.com
I will answer maybe sometimes we can text or talk on the phone
Love all of you 🙂
Smile 🙂

Hi I’m new. I don’t really know what I should be saying. I don’t even know what led me here. A lot is going on. Usually I sit hard as stone, an expressionless look on my face and deal w/ everything. I have done it for years. I have no family left. I’m just another teenager in a foster home. I know people have worse situations than me. But I never knew I could hurt this much. Every night I just cry myself to sleep. I’m afraid of being put in another bad home. I’m afraid of what might be coming next. I’m breaking inside. […]

i’m 15 years old. my name is Jessica. im a sophomore. Ever since high school started i’ve lost completley EVERYTHING and EVERYONE i ever had. i’m not skinny, and i’m not rich. no where near either of those. i have glasses. im not a nerd. so overall, im basically a useless, pointless piece of lard ! >.> or at least thats what i feel like. ive been depressed for a few years. nobody really gets me. no one understands me. i got a little better for some time, and then last year, my freshman year, i just went through way to much shit for myself. […]

As its said is as it is, I feel I am another addict, not substance not drink, only but another feel, because as it is now, im addicted to how i feel, the sadness.

I want nothing more that it begone, but twice in head is that its one, what brings me peace is wgat hurts the most, but i fear not for me but for the girl I love, that it might just be to late! One girl, she brings my all the joy I could ever need and yet she feels much worse than me.. she doesn’t know, yet I’ve said before, its her […]

That feeling that everyone hates you? That you’ve got absolutely nothing to live for? That your life is horrid and you have nothing to look forward to?That feeling that no one cares and they wouldn’t notice if you were gone? The world would be better if I were dead.

Why won’t my head shut up? Why is it all I think is “what’s wrong with me, why doesn’t anybody like me?” Nothing seems to distract me, nothing makes it better! I’ve been single for 3 years, have lost god knows how many friends because I’m always miserable, the only ones I’ve kept are long distance so they can out up with me on the brief moments of contact we have! No one wants me, no one likes me, and here I am, on a Friday night, sat alone wingding like normal! And I wonder why I’m alone! 🙁 I wish I could break this […]

I havent been on here in awhile but now i need to come back because my world is turning back upside down.The depression is bad and for once theres not a real reason.I just feel drained.My meds were making me hyper in the beginning.I had a sense of happiness and peace for just a moment and now well its gone.Im back to being the me that i dont want to be.The me who feels like a failure and nobody cares.The me that feels depressed.
Im trying to wait befroe doing anything this time.Because my familys going to disneyland together and none of us […]

So, my story continues.  I’ve got spinal problems causing chronic pain which I have lived with for years, but there’s no cure.  Just strong strong painkillers.  I’ve got mental health ‘issues’, to put it nicely.  I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, to treatment-resistant depression, OCD and PTSD.  Borderline personality disorder tendancies, with obsessional-compulsive personality disorder.  My current diagnonsense is Bipolar II with complex PTSD, chronic pain and chronic suicidal ideation.

Recently though, this chronic level of suicidal thinking has escalated into something much deeper and darker.  I am back to believing that things definitively cannot get better; I cannot get better as I am so […]

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i never had a friend,never had a girlfriend,never had good parents or simply people that not hate me,nad for those i love,’m able to see through them and i care so much that they escape in fear,like if i’m a criminal or a monster… i either have a bad family situation,and people hated me from when i’m born,still talking of hate towards me it’s not right,because all my actions,all my words and arguments,everything,even this post,come from the idea of someone else, people i see in real life,on internet,in tv… for example when my dogs died i didn’t cry,i just said “what would do a normal […]

new to here. i have actually tried and failled twice to committ suicide. i was unconcious on my frontroom flat the last time. from a couple of litres of vodka and loads of pills. i had to have my stomache pumped out and kept in hospital for a couple of days. i didnt ask to be saved. but some one likes me. i was driven to d hospital and didnt kno where i was. i just am at a seriously low eb in life and have nothing to look forward to. i do not fit in with every day people as such. im just a […]

Well I dont know if ive had the roughest life matter of fact I havent, but Ive been through the prison system 3 times and have been homeless on the street for what seemed like forever before I got my family back and got off of drugs. I thought that my life would get better I even felt like I found god, but now Im always questioning myself about different thins like I got a girlfriend and she is awesome and I thought I would feel better about that but I dont. I have crazy thoughts and I dont let anyone know because I dont […]

Today a woman bumped into me Accidently she wasn’t watching where she was going and we collided and she made me drop some things I was going to purchase she immediately apologized but her face was of pure fear like I was going to hit her or yell at her. Her friend then comes running up( before i can say “its okay, im fine”) with her arms out like she was trying to calm down a stray dog or a wild animal and me with my introverted personality I murmured a really low “its fine” and ran away without collecting my items the i dropped

I realize that this woman is probably generalizing me […]

Insanity: An allergic reaction to society.

Most of us wish for our eyes to swell shut, so that we would see no more.

We wish for our throats to close as we gasp our last breath.

Unfortunately, we just keep couching the shit back up, only to succumb to more.

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So I guess life is about finding a partner to share your life with, being the partner for somebody and building a life on a relationship, maybe having a family. Sounds nice. Sounds like something I’d like to achieve.

So my life should be about perfect. I just got two A:s so I’m a good student, I live together with my bf and everything seems good.

Let me just say.

Fuck this shit.

Two of his friends came over today. The other one offered me some candy and I said “well… thanks.” What did my bf say? “You don’t have to be such a moodkiller.” Yeah. A moodkiller. And […]

Whatta surprise.

I’m feeling broken again.

What. A. Surprise.

Someone has brought me so low again.

Who would have thought.. I’d be depressed?