I hv divorced for almost 6 years but I still felt the pain inside. Beforehead, everybody telling me tht I will hv a new life and getting better, just few months later, few years later. however, nothing hv happened. My life is just going harsher & darker.  I didn’t hv a job now, and hv no money, ,,,,parent’s health are getting worse n worse, I can’t communicate well with my brother/sisters, i hvn’t hv many friends, and they can’t always be with us, i feel so lonely lonely lonely. Every morning I wake up, I just ask myself What I can do then ?  I really dont know how to keep […]

I can’t remember a time when I smiled before I went to sleep. A time where I wasnt in a fetal position wiping tears from my eyes and wishing I was never born…. I’m curious to see what my future holds but if it’s anything like my past I wont live past 20 and that’s a guarantee

Chris was my savior…. I loved you Chris why? I just couldn’t tell him I couldn’t get on my knees and beg him to take me back. Pride…. but it hurts, I couldn’t begin to describe the pain. Chris you’ve ruined me. I have to stop feeling because my heart would stop if it tried to keep beating through the constant hiccupps of endless crying. There are not enough tears…. But I hate you. How could you do this to me.!? Such toxic emotions would surely poison me and send me right to my grave. So I […]

I Can Not Feel…. It was going great for a couple months. I was high everyday without fail but of course that’s how my happiness is.. going.. going… gone. Weed was basically a dam stopping this flood of depression from drowning me. I’ve been sober a week and it’s all come crashing down. The only thing stopping me now is the fact that I’m emotionally numb, but that might not be enough for long. I do not want to die I do not want to live I do not want to be happy I do not want to be sad […]

Hello, my name is Viktor D.
I’m from Serbia, and I have a lot of emotional problems, along problems with people.

I am a metal-head and people who don’t know what metal is and how good metal-people are, and that they also have emotions, and can be soft and good to other people and nice, polite etc. but when I see other people who don’t understand what it is, and when I see them make fun of it and me and my friends, it makes me burst with rage, but then I understand that even if they somehow get better and start to understand, there are […]

Everything I do is just wrong and for the past 20 years that’s all I have ever heard, my children have no idea I’m their father because while I’m gone risking my life at my job my loving wife makes sure they know I’m not. I have given everything i have to give them all a comfortable life my wife doesn’t have to work and my kids are going through school. But now I found out she’s been cheating on me and that my kids are now calling this f*$&!ng thing their daddy I’m just done what’s the point there is no point…

A wish

A wish where two friends

Drive on the coastal highway

With the windows down

The music way up high

Just dancing

Throughout the whole trip

A wish

A wish where two friends

Drive into the woods

Up into a hill

Just watching the clouds

Just watching the planes

Just watching the birds fly

Just watching nature

Just having a decent conversation

Like two innocent children

No stress

No drama

No problems

No situations

No fights

Just two friends being children for a day

Just a wish

September 10th of every year is World Suicide Prevention Day.  To acknowledge the importance of this day, as well as those who have forfeited their voices in exchange for freedom from their unspeakable suffering, New Middle Press would like to offer 50 free copies of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself to the first 50 individuals who respond (as well as the administrator of this site, if he/she would like a copy). For information about Dear Mallory, please go to www.newmiddlepress.com. If you would like […]

I ve never really talked to anyone about my story, mainly because the thought of being judged is terrible to me. But I’ve never had an easy life. At 4 years old I can still remember my mom telling me after her nightly screaming arguments with my step dad that she despises me and wished I was never born. Things have always been like that. And so I’m always faced with these deeply underlying issues as I try to live a normal life. When I got away from her at 12 years old, it was only to live with my alcoholic dad who beat me […]

Through me people look. I

Hear all they say and

Everything is important, needs to be discussed now, in private. No one

Feels the need to keep it a secret in front of me.

All they know is

The fat girl doesn’t say anything

Gossip? her? no. tell? never.

I wonder what would happen if they

Really knew all the rumors and

ies that i know?

Fall. Get up.

Run. They are –

Everywhere. No Escape.

And when i fall to my

Knees will

Someone come rescue me?

Why can’t i control the anger? I feel it puts all those i love in danger

Why can’t i control the fear? Can’t let it out when anyone is near

Why can’t i control the hurt? Everything important cast to the dirt

Why can’t i find the hope? Surley all the answers aren’t in rope

I can’t even control the tears, building up a flood all these years

I wish i could control the pain so bad it leaves me hopig to be slain

What do they see in me?

What is it that i can’t see?

The last words he ever said, were said to me; his little princess, I had been.

I know it has been years but all the pain is still here

and all I bottled up keeps flowing out in never-ending tears.

I’ve used a blade and I’ve used pills but I’m filled with all this fear.

So I keep on breathing, dead and alive at the same time.

All I want is to make it stop, not my life but the feelings

Erase the scars and form real smiles

Because I really do want to stay here for a while.

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
See right through you any hour

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Today, I met a little girl,
With brown hair and brown eyes.
She is only ten years young,
But beyond her years she’s wise.

Today, I learned that life’s not fair.
This girl, she cuts her skin.
Barely grown, yet feels such pain,
From outside and within.

Today, I saw the truth denied,
To me by many folk.
Life is hell and then you die.
Today, I finally broke.

I’m falling into the darkness
Falling so very fast
I dont know what to do
I have no one to ask
No one cares
And if they do they don’t say
I have lost everyone
Everything important to me
So I have made up my mind
Everything isn’t worth all these tears
So tonight while I’m home alone
I’m going to take all the pills I saved
Chase it with something strong
I’m going to end it
While there is no one here to save me
To night I will take my last breath and be done
When they find me
It will be to […]

So some people may want to know a little about me here,

My name is Paul. I’m blind, 16, and love music. I’ve wanted to take my life many times because I’ve made so many misstakes.

Email me if you have any questions at brl.cents@gmail.com

Or google paul blind wrestler.

You’ll find me there too.

She wanted you to know exactly how she felt,
She wanted to write you something about the things that she’s been dealt,
But the things she has inside are impossible to describe,
So she uses her wrist as paper and paints her thoughts with a knife.

The dire need of feeling pain, my mind no longer being sane,
Deep down inside, I feel as if I’ve died,
With each breath, I wish a quick death,
As I lay on the ground, without a sound,
With a reach of my hand, I gave into my internal demands,
Raising it to shine in the light, it gleamed as evil as the night,
With a cry, tears fell from my eyes,
The need for pain was driving me insane.

Gripping the sharp metal tight, I pushed down with all my might,
The stinging sensation, fueled my temptations,
Line after line, far from fine,
Push came […]

Please Dear God,

Take me away from here. I’ll do it myself if you’ll take my fear.

I’ll take the knife so sharply, so swift, the instant release will be like a gift.

Jumping is not the answer : I would fear the fall. Pleasae Lord, Send an Angel, for Death has come to call.

I can’t wait much longer trapped here like a mouse, i feel like a prisioner within my own house.

Thank You, Dear Lord, for allowing me this escape, thank you thank you Lord, to meet you i can’t wait.

To embrace me in your gentle hug, to finally feel the warmth of love.

So Dear Lord, Please […]