So Im new and I dunno what Im doing.. so um excuse my stupidity. I just thought this would be a good alternitive to help people and to umm… uh stop myself from commiting suicide.. in the future. So yeah. Hi =)

Let us die young or let us live forever.

Hey there. So I finally created an account here. I used to open suicideproject whenever i feel suicidal, but never really had an account to post or comment or anything. I could just sit here and read all your stories. And honestly, some bring tears to my eyes because they keep reminding me of the pain I currently feel. I feel so bad for anyone of you who knew jeremy or kallie. I’m sure they were great people. May their souls forever rest in peace.

Im so confused about what is happeneing on here!! I was talking to kallie and have been devestated and sick thinking  the sweet girl from the emails lost her battle with depression and now pol are saying it was a hoax?!? WhO would do that?  Pret on somebodys emotions like that? Im so confused….. Whats the point of this site if its  all  lies?  Im here out of desperation… Tryin to find people who understan….i dont know what tothink

i want to help as someone whos attempted murder twice i know   death is not the way if you stay alive and fight though  all of your problems  no matter how impossible they may seem  if you fight depression, abusive relationships ,bullying or what ever makes hurts and makes dying sound  like a beautiful thing    you  will have  put all the people who tell you to go die or beat on you in there place  killing them on the inside  when you smile it like sending a giant middle finger to there face dont let depresion ,other people  what  evers holding you down […]

In 15 not very rich I have to clean houses with my mom. When I grow up I want to become a cop or join the military but i cant because my mom decided to bring me here illegally I didnt want to come. I feel like theres no future for me if your an immigrant then you would know that its practacly impossible to get the citizenship. Im not popular at all high school is really hard because im not pretty and im really quiet I might be the most dumb in this house. My sister gets the best grades while im getting 60s […]

If only my sisters new the truth that my dad cheated on my mom and i was the one that found my dad cheating on my mom. They would finally understand why i hate daddy. THey just dont understand why i hate him so much. THey think they had the best child hood ever but it was only because i was there to protect them from everything that was going on. I wish i could tell them but they are the type of people that dont want to hear anything bad. So they ignore it and pretend like it doesnt exist. I hate that so […]

I survived…wish I hadn’t. The feeling of your life slipping away. Minutes tick by. Finally. The moment is near I can feel it. I feel weak. Everything starts to soften. The lights dim. My eyes shut. Darkness. Its over. Thank you.

It was just taunting me. I awake. Cold red water around me. Dammit! And so here I am. Alive. Breathing. sucks…

next few days… probably….

I’m scared of getting up in the morning. I’m scared of pain. I’m scared of failing suicide today. I’m scared of embarrassment. I’m scared of being raped or murdered. I’m scared of being judged. I’m scared of being forever alone.

Sticks and stones may brake my bones but words tare my skin apart

Suicide isn’t cowardly. U wanna know wat is cowardly? Treating someone so bad that they want to end their life.

The light was to bright so she hid from the sun. In her dark place she held the gun. Tight in her hand. She closed her eyes, held her breath waiting to face death. She had been teased and taunted for to long.. She couldn’t stand it anymore.In perfect position, the gun    Well     loaded. Raising the gun to her head running from life, family, friends, enemies, choosing death she pulled the […]

How can someone feel beautiful?

Do ugly people know that they are ugly?

How do I know when people don’t lie when they say “You are beautiful”?

Who can tell me if I’m beautiful or not?

Why beauty is so important to the world?

Why it is important to me?

???????????

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This is what makes me happy. If only it would come true.

Angel: (Her Story)

Angel lost without word had fallen into the woods. Broken white wings and a half cracked halo, she meets a fallen angel. Fallen Angel afraid, not knowing what to do, instantly carried her.

Fallen Angel (His story) After Accident:

She meets him, he met her, as they both walk into the bright path, he grabbed her hand so she wouldn’t be afraid. Not knowing they both received wings and golden light crowns. She didn’t see what had become, but she realized that it was the man. He turned and threw the crown back; waved […]

I HATE REALITY!

IT IS FUCKING TORTURE!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9eN9h00h94

iv got one to many skeletons in my closet, they are all falling out as things burst at the seams
another cliche “rescue me”up
im so messed
yes you know to much
which ends my chances at not being pitied.
i want more than your pity

When I come back.

I wont care, I’ll just be me.

You hate, then hate.

I don’t f***ing care anymore.

You want to push me away then fine. Push me away.

You want to talk bout the past.

F*** You!

You actually really care, then convince me.

If not, then pretend you never knew me. Stop wasting your precious time.

Then just leave me alone.

Just be like everyone else and turn into strangers. I tried; I always try.

You didn’t even give me a second or third chance.

Why should I tell you my story? If I told you the story then okay, if not, then I really don’t trust you.

Mind your damn f***ing buisness.

Seriously, I aint ganna be too nice anymore.

I […]

I’ve been contemplating it and I’m completely ready to kill myself. Between child abuse, society and my family rejecting me for everything I do, and my mom still making me be a girl after coming out as FTM trangendered, I’m done with life. You’re probably thinking that my life’s not all that bad and it gets better. If it got better, I wouldn’t be contemplating my 3rd suicide attempt at 16 years old.

I’m downing lots of GABA (that’s sure to make me pass out even if I only take two and it’s a normal day) then waiting a while before I tie my hands up, […]

My dreams have shattered. My dreams used to be my life & I still want them to be fulfilled but for that I’ve to travel back in time in order to stop myself from making shitty decisions in the past. Only god can make me travel in the past but I now doubt His existence. My prayers got unanswered when I desperately needed them to be fulfilled.  For few of my dreams which can still be fulfilled, I don’t have a will power & courage left in me at all.

It started from my childhood (I’m almost 21 now). I had very few friends since my […]

I’m having a hard time being at work right now. I feel depressed and just sad, I’m not sure why… I just want to disappear.

I’ve attempted suicide twice in my life… I’ve been thinking about trying again allot recently. Just the other week I was fantasizing about jumping out of a window in this 20 story building I was in…

How does everyone cope w/ day to day life? I try the best I can to put a smile on my face and go about normal life – but that is getting really hard to do.