I want to die as I hate my life all so hate living I all so have
learning and spelling disability All have the rest off my life naiver
can sleep all so I Have depression I have lived 48 years off this hall
so the only way out is to take my life I want to die so so so bed I
naiver stop thanking about wanting to die I hoping I can do it soon I
want to die badly I don’t want to go on living any longer but I want
to die vary soon hope […]
I´m sorry – english isn´t my mothertongue but still I´m gonna try to make some sense…
It startet when I was born. My mother never wanted me. I know, because she told me the first time when I was eight or nine. And a few times more when I grew older. She said, she only took me because she hoped I would make my father stay with her. Now that he is dead I´m starting to think she really loved him. In her very strange way.
I even start to believe, she isn´t the bad person I always thought her to be. Maybe she was just afraid and […]
People who commit suicide ROT IN HELL.
From Dante’s Inferno
“The suicidals are alleged to go to the Wood of Suicides. This is a forest in the second level of the seventh circle of hell. Since they destroyed their own bodies, they are denied a human body in hell. Instead they take on the form of trees. Their leaves are forever picked at and eaten by harpies, or vicious mythological vulture-like creatures. When their leaves are picked by the harpies, they bleed (which is the only time they can speak) and then when they heal, their leaves are painfully destroyed again. “
I’m not just some average, run of the mill emo teen with bullshit high school issues. I’m a 21 year old man with a family. I’m not depressed, i wasn’t abused as a child or molested by a family friend. I’m the same as any other sane person. More or less. I do not hate my life, i do not hate myself. I feel as if i’ve simply become pointless. I go about the same routine and do the same thing everyday. Repetition is slowly driving me mad. I know that the idea of suicide is faded and frowned upon, But for me it’s […]
When I look at my wrist,
I see the grayish purple tethered up scars.
When I want to see,
The new bright pink fresh cuts with smeared dry blood around the edges.
Why can’t that wish come true?
donnie darko. suchhh a magical movie. i love you so much. movies keep me sane. getting lost in anything but reality.
Steppenwolf by Herman Hesse
This novel is supposedly the writings of Harry Haller, a lonely intellectual who feels isolated from the rest of the world. The story is the account of his existential transformation. Beyond the plot, it is an exploration, a painful one, on the hollowness, emptiness and meaninglessness of life. It talks about how lonely we really are, in the confusing and unexplainable world in which we live. It also talks about the desperation routine brings on, the fakeness of love, the necessity of death.
Please Don’t Kill yourself.
Life is Beautiful.
We laugh to smile,
Cut to bleed,
Trust to regret,
And run to hide.
Sell my soul, its just a hole
dark as night, black as coal
depressing, regressing
lack of a blessing
enter the shadow
its all I have now
I don’t feel I want to live anymore….the pain is too much and no one cares. I wish so bad I could let those who hurt me know the pain I feel, but they don’t care. My life has no meaning other than pain. Normally I would numb the pain with alcohol….as bad as it may be, it helps to forget for sometime. It hurts most that this pain is in vain. I’m sorry for saying all of this.
Do you think if you cut your wrists badly enough and sat in a bath you could die of either blood loss or drowning?
Gladd is now shut down!
http://assistedsuicide.org/blog
But dont worry people! This wont change ANYTHING at all! Thank you Sharlotte Hydron! God bless you! You have helped MILLIONS to end there lives with DIGNITY! Thank you so much! This changes NOTHING! But thank you one more time!
does anyone have any experience w/ this type of therapy? Or, have you even heard of it?
I went to a new therapist today and this is what she suggested, but my family doctor had never even heard of it!
When I wake up in the mornings I feel everything. I go through the day and I feel hatred. I hate who I am and who I want to be. I hate the idea that my life wasn’t my choice, that I am surviving while there are thousands of people dying who deserve to be alive. Every moment of every day I feel too much emotion for my mind to handle. I feel anger toward others and myself. I feel alone, more alone than I’ve ever felt before. But the worst part is that every second I am thinking […]
I’ve wanted to kill myself for a long time, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.  I have prayed to God many times to take my life.  Last month, I developed a really bad chest cold. I never went to the doctor to get it treated.  My cough is very deep now and I find it hard to breathe, sometimes.   I think God has finally answered my prayers….Thank You, God.
if i let you go…will the scars continue to show?….ahh worked with my friend brad today. little does he know about my obsession i used to have with him before i knew him. hah. i have unicorn earrings in my ears. magical isnt it?…i dont know what the hell im talking about. its hot as a ***** ib my room. yet im in jeans. im too lazy to change.
I wish…I wish I weren’t so broken. I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me that it’ll all be okay. I don’t really have any positive relationships with adults, because my father is never home and my mother has anger issues and sucks at dealing with the emotions, whether they’re her own or those of other people. I did grow close to my guidance counselor over the last three months, but now that I’ve graduated I don’t really…have anywhere to go. I dunno. The problem is that my friends–the ones my age–are also fucked up beyond all repair. Or, well, that’s not […]
Sometimes I get tired of being the sparkly one. Sometimes I get tired of being the person that everyone looks at. Sometimes I want to disappear into the grass, let myself fall asleep forever in the warm sun. Sometimes I don’t want to be the one that looks at the world differently. The one that paints her nails pink and green because the colors remind her of mint chocolate chip ice cream and watermelon which reminds her of the summer. Sometimes I don’t want people to notice my outfits and say they’re really cool, or compliment my hair because I can pull off something weird. […]
I’m not sure if I love you,
Or our friendship.
I would rather spend eternity with you
Than my so-called boyfriend.
You’re everything I need.
We are the best that friends can get.
I cry at night because I don’t have you.
Please,
I need you.