I look fine on the outside but truly im in so much pain inside. i hide it all with a smile. i dont know why i have have pain inside. could it be abuse from my father? i feel like i need to end one of our lives to end this pain. Question is whos?

the stupidity of the human race fucking PISSES ME OFF.  first, i want to know why it pisses me off so damn much.  Then I want to take a hold of every illogical whiny jackass and hit them four hundred times with a rusty crowbar then leave them to the rats in the sewer.  No one will come for them.

Today I sat down in the library after school.  It was me, my cousin, and my brother (chris).  Chris starts demanding rudely that I look at his photoshop pictures, constantly saying that he’s better at photoshop and all that drivel.  Since he was being such a […]

i don t feel that i have ever fitted in every good relationship i have i ruin.

I just don t feel that I have any worth anymore.

i feel like i am screaming but no one can hear me,

im not brave if i was i would have done it already im a coward.

Hey I’ve been depressed for a very long time now. I’m looking for someone to share my thoughts with, as it is usually very lonely for me. If you are a kind and caring person and would like to talk with an understanding person, respond to this post.

my name is victor martinez im here to tell you a storey i once thought that there was no escape from my past that what ive done had no redemption if you are really wanting to hurt your self read this if not this will give you propective to understand how we’ve felt and why we want to end our lives…..there was a kid who was born  he didnt know who he was or who his parents were he was abandond from the start he was put into home age of 2 he though these were his birth perants but at the age of 5 […]

I was browsing around a nd i found this site. maybe itll help me. i have hopefully kept myself as anonymous as possible to tell my story. I cant talk to my friends or family cuz they either think im crazy or just looking for attention. sometimes i agree with them.

It started when i was 5. my great grandfather molested me for about a year before it stopped. he has been dead now for 2 years. It didnt come out to my family until late last year. When i was 8 an important someone in my life molested me until i was 9 when he […]

The love of my life. How can I have a life without him? Lung cancer, about 3 months ago. At home. In my arms. Thank the universe for hospice, because it was painless and peaceful. He was 55. Handsome, bright, knowledgeable—everything to me.

I’m 59. I had to sell the business we were running together—he was the main ingredient—at a distressed price and feel lucky to have gotten out at all.

A lot of death in my life–my mother last year, my father (lung cancer) when I was 30, my twin brother (suicide) a few years later and then another brother (suicide–terminal renal cancer). I handled those […]

i have been in a mental hospital for six days. i wish i was still there. i was actually having fun there. i know its wierd to say, but i want to go back. once i left the hospital, i was hurt again. i almost stabbed myself with scissors last night. i just didnt have the guts to go through with it. i hate myself even more for being such a wuss.

Her nose was cut in violence.
(Aisha-Gets-New-Nose)
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-south-asia-11530849

It’s true of violence throughout the world, but side by side there is also benevolence.

To avenge the same violence upon the incriminated, seemingly goddess wrath, but definitely self-made, human-made.
Condemnation aggravates hate to this world !
To brighten the sky with firecrackers bring sparks of lights, swift of joy, but never the beauty enough to steadfastly brand in hearts.

Of her plastic nose, though fabricated, indeed brought back her smile and faith of beauty.
Even though it’s just some money-chasers’ engineering, those plastic surgeons or craftsmen’s artistic time well spent did create a masterpiece reward.
Despite some scheme of […]

so close to giving up. don’t want to be here again.
i just want to fuck myself up. get out of my mind. out of my thoughts. i stopped drinking.i don’t want to go back…
it just feels so inevitable.

Can i ever just get over ONE FUCKING ISSUE?!?!

i feel so pathetic. i was over it.

i liked the same guy for two years he knew it too. first year… okay whatever we were friends. second year i had to get a schedule change and we ended up having every class together. we were close. he drove me home three days a week. we had every extra cirricular together. we always wrote on the same questions in LA. we went to bible study together. band. AP english. musical theatre… yeah musical theatre. that was where he told me. right after our fifth (out of 6) show. he wouldn’t just tell me though […]

For six years i had a great life.I had a great family but because of a car accident i lost them all. I have nothing left I wanna kill myself anyone please help me!

Hi everyone, I am a 23 year old girl living in Cali.

I have been depressed for quite a long time and last year I went to the doctor and I have been taking Citalopram since then. However, I still feel like I have the depressive symptoms, I am always tired of life, bored of life, I feel lonely all the time, want to sleep and be in the bed and not get up. It’s like living and breathing is very hard for me. I have suicidal thoughts for a long time, I always thought as I get older my life would get better and  everything […]

I’ve been fired. Not laid off, not downsized, just “you’re not good enough anymore.”

I used to love this job, then the company changed but I still thought they meant it when they said they wanted us to speak out when we thought company policy was hurting our customers (which, in the healthcare software industry, means hurting patients).

The job paid really well. I moved here to the midwest US, far away from my family on the east coast and my husband’s on the west coast.

I should have squirreled away every penny, realizing that eventually the company would boot me out like the worthless person I […]

Hey people of SP, I’ve always liked music and it plays a momentous role in my life.

I was just wondering what songs you guys like.  Just post youtube links and/or a list of bands or specific songs you like! anything you like, post it please i want to fill up my ipod some more

  

It will generally be found that where the terrors of life come to outweigh the terrors of death One will put an end to their life.

But the terrors of death offer considerable resistance: they stand like a sentinel at the exit gate.Perhaps there is no one alive who would not have put an end to their life if this end were something purely negative, a sudden cessation of existence, but there is something positive in it as well:

The destruction of the body. This is a deterrent, because […]