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30th Birthday

I made it to 30. Now what?

by beautifulmonster 11/3/2017

written by beautifulmonster

Turned 30 couple days ago… been dreading this ‘milestone’ for awhile now. You would think my family to help soften the blow would have done something for me a party… or a cake… or $2 worth of balloons!!!

Naaaaa of course not.
Spent the last 5 days sleeping because I couldn’t deal with reality. Only now I have this itching desire to scream and run rip my hair out slice my skin burn the house down.

I feel like I’m going to explode. I am going to explode. My chest is so tight. I have so much on I can’t and don’t want to deal with it.

How […]

11/3/2017 2 comments

I’ll try

by bailey25 2/15/2013

written by bailey25

I’ll hold out for 2 more years. But if things don’t change by my 30th birthday, then I’m going to do it on that day at midnight. I’m tired of being stepped on, cast aside, lied to and generally fucked over, but I’m willing to try to make things better. This is the only promise I can keep in regards to taking my life. I’ve already written most of my letters to loved ones, letters of apologies and I’ll make sure I put them in a place where they can be found. I just hope that I won’t have to use them.

2/15/2013 3 comments

Surrendering

by Elleonil 5/6/2012

written by Elleonil

August, 5th will be my 28th birthday. My previous deadline was my 30th birthday, but I just can’t wait that long. Now I’m struggling to wait even my 28th.
I can’t find a reason to go on. I don’t care anymore about my future or work or studying or hobbies. I thought that I could at least be useful to people with the same kind of problems, and that if I can’t help myself, helping them could be my purpose in life. But who the hell I’m going to help, I can’t get close to anyone.
I feel so hopelessly alone. I don’t have real […]

5/6/2012 14 comments