It should be a no brainer
Go court with a lawyer deal with it.
I cant. I cant see that court room anymore. I cant see any more police. All stupid charges, not even mine. Yes i was the idiot out with these people that ended up getting done for their shit . So i take that. But no i dont want any of it. I cant. Im so mortified. How could i end up in trouble with the law?
Its not even that anymore. Its worse. My depression has eaten me. I cant move. I cant think. I dont have a life.
So if i dont have a life i might as well stop breathing. It will at least stop the pain the sadness the fear
Im a good person. I dont understand why this happened. And ok so it happened. Why is it still going??? 4 -5 years… 3 years absolutley dibilitating.
I want my life back. I want any type of life. I cant take it anymore. Im hiding alone right now with a rope wrapped around my throat. Im a fucking *****. Ive done it before. Why cant i again?
This is so stupid. A person that cant shower for weeks or get out of bed is expected to go defend themselves in court.mind you my ptsd goes crazy in court or near cops. So what the fuck. I cant even call them. Thats how stressful it is. Im having one panic attack after the other just thinking about it, when my phone rings, just knowing i have to call and deal with it has put me over the edge.
Ill be good please God make this go away please. I dont hang around stupid people anymore, im staying clean im trying to do the right things for the future. Please. I cant live like this. Please i cant im begging you.
What the fuck has happened to me? This jsnt me. I need me back. Please i dont know who this is. Just let me come back
Pleaae let me come back please
Coz i dont know how much more i can take