It’s 4 am can’t sleep , haunted by my past unable to let it go . Keep thinking that there is only one way to make everything go away . Deep down inside I tell myself to just survive the night , it will get better tomorrow . But the thoughts keep flooding my mind , the old friends that I pushed out my life , the family members that I never talk to . Telling myself that if I let no one love me , or get close to me then it wouldn’t be like I’m hurting anyone but myself .
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Absolute Certainty
in that special way that lets you know that you have a place in their heart. She smiled at me and it broke my heart. The path of human coupling is a long and winding road, and I’m not up to the journey. As much as I want to take the trip with someone, I’m afraid of being hurt, of being reminded that I don’t belong with people, that I’m only here to serve.
In my brain, it feels like I could succeed at.. building some sort of relationship built on trust and support but… There’s no evidence to support that. I’ve never been able […]