Its been 5 minutes and I already miss her I miss many in the end were all alone so why have I driven them away so early I’m sorry to everybody and to E I wish I was enough today its obvious I never will be I miss everyone I truly am alone and I cant cope with that too long being alone so alone
I am so sick and tired of this life. Everyday is like Groundhog Day. When I wake up i wonder why only to find out that my life Sucks!!! I am soo depressed, anxious, stressed out by the littlest things and my solution to these symptoms is to drink and drug. I know many other coping skills but none work for me. I have attempted suicide many times and cant even get that right. Suicide is on my mind daily and I think i am going to try a more violent method next time. I want to do it June 11th the day before my […]
I have been thinking for years that this stupid life should stop.
No purpose, what am i living for?
I m hearing those voices in my head saying “i want to die” over and over again, I was feeling better once i said it to my future ex wife, but now she is gone.
It was not easy to keep it in myself, thinking of it everyday, failing at my feeble tries. My cat wake me up when i was falling asleep with a bag on my head, when having a fight with my wife, that knife i had in my hand, didnt had the edge to open […]
its been a tough couple of years..sixth grade and up was bad. my eighth grade year, my dad passed away..two months before i entered high school. R>I.P 7/19 i entered 9th grade alone and lost…i hated the world and i had a huge gap in my heart..from 7th til this day, i used self harm as an escape..after my dad passed away from cancer, i didnt eat and i constantly self harmed..a week and a half before homecoming, i lost all my friends due to rumors that everyone made up..saying i slept around and did drugs..none of it ever happened and none of it was […]
so i just got cyberbullied by my friend he posted something on facebook and it was humiliating for me and the fact that he was my friend i didn’t do anything bad towards him and there’s other guy who helped him hes also a friend i did a lot for him now i dunno wht to do i am a good guy i never thought ill of anyone why did this happened to me i am crying for 2 days something i think i should die i am too innocent for this cruel world
how does she laugh how does she cry whats the color of her eyes does she even realize am here WHERE IS SHE where is this beautiful girl who is she whos gonna company my world!!!
-the helium or ******** tank
-the pressure gauge
-the tape
-the plastic bag
-plastic tubing?
what else would I need? i am only asking for informational purposes. and am not currently trying to use it.
and how much psi has to be released from the tank for this to work.
i PROMISE myself il visit this POST 10 years from exactly now if am still alive….
the countdown begins..
Don’t ask me how I am.
I don’t know
How could I?
I just am.
Don’t ask me what to do.
If you don’t know
How could I?
You just are.
Don’t ask me why.
None of us know
How could I?
We just are.
ive been wondering all this while. why am i so ugly, fat and stupid? people keep leaving me and that’s not ok. ive started cutting about a month ago and it is addictive. im doing it all day without even stopping. sad is the new happy and pain is the new cure. bye!
My life is defined by fear. What am I afraid of? That I will never feel happy, peaceful, or content. That I will never experience love, or form any kind of real connection with another person. That I will never see this world, or my life, as truly meaningful.
Why do I fear these things? Experience. It’s been so many years since I felt ok with reality. Since I got a good nights sleep. Since I had a good day. I can’t imagine anything that would make this life seem ok. I can’t imagine anyone ever being able to accept me as I truly am (pathetic, […]
He did it to me again. Last night, he saw the intent in my eyes. And he trapped me.
Showered with loving kisses, pleading words for me not to go. A couple years ago I would have considered myself lucky, to have found someone who yearns for me to live. I now know the truth of it all.. love is selfish. Each kiss he plants on my body is a new shackle tying me up to this life. Every inch of my body, covered in thorned threads, adorning me with love and blood, imprisoning me to this very existence. “Don’t leave me..” he whispers. “You promised […]
Biggest part of the human race disgusts me. I dont want to be a part of it anymore. I secede from it. From this point on i am my own being.
i’m curse like a bad luck come to every good people that i meet or that i love
that mean im nothing just a bad thing still alive
i tell you everyday how i feel, i scream to get you to look back at me as you walk away. i tell you that you are my strength, my everything yet every cell in my body is telling me that i am wrong, that had you really cared you wouldnt have abandoned me, you wouldnt take away in one day what you had given me over four years and ten months.
i cry myself to sleep every night, i wake up in the mornings unable to pull myself together and face another day. the sun is too bright and the dull days are too soul […]
I tell you i’m serious. Over and over I tell you i’m serious. I tell you if you’re not serious then get the fuck away from me. I tell you to fucking be serious. Every comment you’ve posted affirms my view of this world because i told you to stop and you wouldn’t and could not stop because you love what you do. you characterize me when i explicitly and obviously tell you otherwise. you diminish every single one of my words. you deliberately write comments that sound unfazed and uncaring and smug. you need to go away. you need to stop typing because you […]
i hate that im in this life, that i suffer so much yet am still forced to pretend like im ok.. I AM NOT OK!!!
i wish i could scream this to the world and finally rid myself of this charade
Do you every feel like no matter what you do it’s mess up and no matter how hard you try things are still a mess? I couldn’t be anymore depressed than I al am
I had a mental breakdown last week and added 10x more scars to my body than there needs to be… I am a pessimist but also an optimist in training. But right now i feel like all the bottles in the world of prescription Prozac and Ativan couldnt fix me, i feel broken and lost like the lost things that end up in neverland. I hate these feelings they drive me insane and one day im scared that i might just be. I am only 19 years old but have suffered from depression since grade.9 and anxiety since grade.10, despite being in my 2nd year […]