“oh dear babe what am i going to do with you dont cry ok im here”
this was after my last time i tryed to leve i could feel her there huging me from 1000 miles away
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one day ill slip away no one will know were i am
one day ill fly away till my wings melt in the sun
one day ill bleed out in a shower no one will find me.
one day one more fucking day on this earth ill go insaine
im going to screem at the stars till thay fall on my head
ill sware at the sun till it berns me red
ill get in evrye fight till im beten to a pulp
ill cry evrey nigh till i can cry no more
ill cut my arms till you cant see the skin
ill slice my chest with a razor so thin
ill dice my legs up […]
When the venom toutch my soul
A pice of me dies once more
If I keep this up I will be gone
And every drop that comes dripping down
Makes me less and less who I really am
It the destroys the bad
And leaves me in nothing
Theres nothing left
After it all has bled out
Im nothing more than the numb inside me
just a poem I write a while back xx
Just when I think I’m starting to feel better, like a punch in the face it reminds me how depressed I actually am and that what I really want more than anything is to not be here anymore. These feelings will be here forever
Hiya for who ever has reads this. My problem has been going on for nearly 9 years now, out of a 7 day , say 3 to 2 days am happy full of life,loud making jokes,love my girlfriend full of trust , then for next 4 days am down in dumps don’t want to get out of bed,moody,paranoid,want to kill my self this has been going on for years and iv never been for help (and don’t plan to) but a came across this site and was wondering if any one has symptoms and can help ?
I woke up at 3:30 am jolted out of a sleep. All I could see was my boyfriend stabbing himself in the arms, blood splatter, tears rolling down his face. All of this because he loves me . A bad fight because I don’t trust him– a recovering drug addict who promised rehab but bailed and never went. I feel guilty, helpless. Was told to practice tough love and to cut the codependent role. The codependent in me feels responsible for what he did. The tough-love person feels manipulated. Regardless of those two opposing forces, he entirely blames me for driving him to kill […]
I am incredibly suicidal and am ready to end my life with an impulsive moment…. but I find myself commenting on other people’s posts about not giving up and to keep fighting. Am I a hypocrite? Perhaps I am so conditioned to think that my life is not worth anything but other’s lives are worth the effort.
I can see it in the dull yellow streetlights glaring off the sidewalk at night, and I can smell it in the exhaust fumes from passing cars
I can see it in my parents’ creased faces, and I can see it behind my friends’ glassy eyes
Despair
Desperation
Abandonment
Loss of hope.
I’ll run from it until I’ve taken another hit, until I’ve taken another shot, until I can’t be any more numb than I already am
But it’s always lurking right around the corner
Despair
Desperation
Abandonment
Loss of hope.
Believe it or not but i am only 13. I might as well begin with I have attempted suicide numerous amount of times; Cutting, Hanging an this might sound ridiculous but putting a knife in a toaster. Every time it ended up with me getting hurt and my mother covering it up as she thought if anyone knew i would be taken away from her. My Mother is mentally ill might i add (bipolar and depression). I myself have depression and it brings me down like a ton of bricks (correct me if i am using that phrase wrong) it brings me down to states […]
I know sometimes you don’t want the seemingly useless advice people give you. That’s what I’ve seen anyway.
Im not a therapist; I myself am not in a decent state, but if you want to talk about anything and everything without constant advice feel free to contact me.
georgiahjones@googlemail.com
Who am i.
What am i.
Is any of this real.
I was brought into existence so why the fuck cant i feel.
I’ve thought myself crazy
Nothing seems benign.
I cant bring myself to distinguish good times from death that passes by.
It’s fake.
A lie.
It’s all just in my mind.
It started with philosophies but now i don’t know if i’m alive.
Who am I.
cold dark sleepless night take me away by the candel light of the lantern on the bow of the boat of deth as i dance my hands on the key bord the words of hope and loss on the screen take me trough me i know how bad i am take me fight me love me kiss me i whant to be toched dont let me go i may fall dont hold me to closce i may hurt you teas role down my cheeks as i think of her tern to black then red blow up in my face all best layed plans stop
take a toke carry on
i […]
Hi,
I came across a few posts which put a serious doubt on the Helium Exit Bag, I was banking on it ever since i read about it in Mr. Humphry’s book, ‘Final Exit’. It made it look like a fairly simple and a fool-proof method but on reading various posts of it failing, i am wary of it. Does anyone know the exact reason of it failing?? I dont like the hanging method since it causes trauma for the one who discovers the body afterwards.
This is a serious question. Please be 100% honest, especially if you have bad news for me. I never had a girlfriend. After all the rejections and hurt I’ve gone through bec of women, I cant be objective about my looks anymore. I just hate myself.
I want to find out, if my shyness and sadness is the only reason, why I never had a relationship OR its also because i am just fuckin unattractive to women.
Could u find a guy like me in any way attractive? In my self-perception I couldnt 🙁
ps: i hope i figured out how to upload that picture ^^
Over the past two years, things have been pretty rough.
I’m a fairly successful 40-something, a good job and a reasonable house. I enjoy some great hobbies and am pretty competent in a competetive sport.
However, I have recently lost both parents due to terminal illness and then, because I was unable to support her emotionally, my wife left me for another man. Somebody I knew.
We had been married for nine months.
She was significantly younger then me and, despite trying for a long time, was childless. We had been trying for much longer than we’d been married but it just wasn’t happening.
After she left me, I got […]
i am a junkie, drugs are all i have. my best friend after five years had sex with my gf. i dont want to die. but idk what else to do
I am dying inside in my heart ….. i cant live without her…. my every second is going with pain… I really truely love her sooo much -…-
I feel utterly useless. In my daily life to even on SP. When ever I finally think I can do something, I try my best at it. I work as hard as possible, thinking “This might be the day where I can finally do something right for once!” I brim with the confidence that only appears every other blue moon (If I’m lucky). Only to be destroyed. I end up worse than I was before, getting closer and closer to my limit everytime. I don’t know how much longer I can last. My fuck-ups are only a single percent of my problems, but it hits me […]
Maybe i am confuse but
Maybe im not
but i no
im still bisexuale
Tell me this
why am i like this
i just want this to end
please just please
let me die
oh please
Tic tok
the time has come
with 1 swipe
i am done
my days are numbered
i cant keep running
i got to stop
no reason to live
while i am in pain
i cant contain
what i have unleashed
but at least i gave
a good fight
-brian