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by deerdezz 9/19/2015

written by deerdezz

Im a little nervous bout tomorrow night. I dont have anything planned but it always seems in my luck for things to start turning topsy turvy whenever i let the roll of the dice take the wheel. Ive been spending the week with a really close friend of mine i known since highschool. Hes been under a lot of stress with his mom going through chemo even had an infection scare and i drove her an hour back towards LA to the nearest hospital.

Shes doing much better btw and weve been having a good time in each other’s company but it feels bittersweet knowing […]

9/19/2015 0 comment

by deerdezz 9/19/2015

written by deerdezz

Its been a while since i posted. Im still around but i hardly feel as though i am. It wasnt really an attempt to kill myself but for a moment to feel as though i disappeared..and i took a 30 day supply of sereoquel. It was an odd sensation. Body becoming heavy breathing slowing down mind in a different plane, a different high for sure.

Ive been prescribed a higher dosage this time round like 100x the strength actually. With only a week or two’s dent in a month’s supply. Im wondering what kind of high it would give me now. If I’d find […]

9/19/2015 0 comment

tonight i end it all and sleep forever

by asunayuki1 9/15/2015

written by asunayuki1

I cant take it i had enough i got a gun and tonight i blow my brains out. Everyday is the same shit and i cant take it !!

So good bye to this life and to being invisible !! I will finally be free and just sleep forever…

9/15/2015 4 comments

Do you know how it feels when…

by flatliner 9/13/2015

written by flatliner

…you are in love with a girl and you know that you will never be able to do anything with her because you are the ugly, short idiot that nobody cares about? I am so depressed and desperate all the time because of that and because i know that i will be alone forever. I feel terrible so much that i lock myself in my room and i hate everyone. I don’t want to speak to anyone… i was starting to get used to the fact that i am unattractive and that i will never find the special one but now… now i feel so […]

9/13/2015 9 comments

what am i doing?

by tooyoungtoocrazy 9/12/2015

written by tooyoungtoocrazy

…hi

could you please tell me what I’m doing here?

i don’t know what I’m doing here.

im in the same room as my little sister and mother.

I’m doing “homework” for my mock exams this week.

what I’m actually doing is using homework as an excuse to listen to music…

in 24 hours and 15 minutes ill be in the a mental health service place for youth…

and I’m scared.

i was recently referred but now I’m actually going I’m not too sure what to do.

what am i doing here?

and i don’t mean this site.

what i mean is get me the hell out of here please I’m a 15 year old boy […]

9/12/2015 3 comments

I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE

by asunayuki1 9/11/2015

written by asunayuki1

Why do i even try anymore . I am in pain i cant keep living like this. Overdosing on pills or hanging myself dont work at all!
I give up i can’t keep going on like this . I am invisible to the whole world and i cant take it anymore. I realy want to blow my brains out and just sleep forever !

9/11/2015 3 comments

Opiates

by Nobody915 9/10/2015

written by Nobody915

Hi everyone,

Hope you’re all well.

I was diagnosed with [condition] where I was prescribed codeine (sort of like morphine) to ease the horrible, physical pain. However, it really makes my head spin which also makes the sadness go away. In fact, I feel almost happy. I know this can happen when you take opiates and i’m trying my best not to become addicted to them (which I am not) but sometimes, I just wish I could take one whenever I feel down. It’s horrible thinking but I was just wondering if people on here know what I mean.

Comments are really appreciated. Thanks

Your Nobody.

9/10/2015 8 comments

wish me luck

by passionfruit3 9/9/2015

written by passionfruit3

So lets see if I can explain this i have attempted suicide so many times its become like an addiction. But ive always been saved cause ive always gotten afraid and get help after ive done something. I don’t want to live but im afraid to die.i can go half way through with suicide and take the pills i can stand on the bridge but i cant jump and i cant not call for help cause im afraid.
But lately the urge is there again and i have to do it failed attempt or not cause it’s like cutting if you don’t do it the […]

9/9/2015 4 comments

:/

by toxicllama 9/8/2015

written by toxicllama

im basically word vomiting at this point so if this post jumps around a lot please bare with me.

ive been in a pretty big slump and i cant seem to get out, all i can think about is dying and what it would be like to die, and what people are going to think when i die, and what happens after i die. i made several plans to commit suicide and i just cant push myself to do it, im such a lazy piece of shit. i thought that maybe if i go back to school ill enjoy senior year so much that ill hang […]

9/8/2015 1 comment

First post

by Mike89 9/6/2015

written by Mike89

Im 26 and never had a girlfriend. I watched a lot of porn and become a sex-addict. I fucked over 300 prostitutes last 5 years and i cant stop with this, it makes me feel so numb. When is see couples walking around i feel so angry and envious.

Suicide is inevitable

9/6/2015 5 comments

by neptune 9/5/2015

written by neptune

i’ve tried. i really did. i gave everyone around me at least one chance to try and help me. but no one actually bothered. and i can’t tell anyone, because i feel fidgety whenever i tell anyone. because of all sorts of things. i’m detached from the world, i don’t have any true friends who will be there with me 24/7, even in front of my closer friends, i still have to pretend. why? because i’m scared they will all run away the moment they see all my flaws. i’m scared that once people see the real me, they won’t want to be […]

9/5/2015 5 comments

what is wrong with me

by neptune 9/5/2015

written by neptune

lately, i’ve had a new problem pop up. i’ll feel fine once, and suddenly, i’ll feel so angry, and get worked up over the littlest of things, and then sad and i’ll start crying, and whatever the hell comes. what is wrong with me it’s fine if it’s a while, but it’s been going on for a while honestly fuck this

9/5/2015 6 comments

this sucks

by toxicllama 9/5/2015

written by toxicllama

im not even supposed to be alive right now. i had planned to kill myself almost two weeks ago now and i dont know why i cant pile up the courage to just do it. everyday i wake up and dying is the only thing i can think about but when it comes to it, its like my body wont let me. and then i wake up the next morning feeling even shittier than the last and i really just cant take this anymore. it feels like the universe wont even let me to but my heart is in physical pain. i was going to […]

9/5/2015 6 comments

I really cannot do this anymore…

by Darkenergy 9/4/2015

written by Darkenergy

I don’t know what to do anymore… I’ve been suffering from clinical depression for about two and a half years now, and nothing that i have ever tried has ever been able to help. The incessant feelings of pure worthlessness, self-hatred, and pure relentless sadness are becoming very overwhelming at this point in time and I don’t foresee it getting any better anytime soon. I’m just sad, all the time… and its so bad sometimes that I just find myself crying for hours, and i am tired of it… tired of all of it… I feel like a burden and a problem to everyone around […]

9/4/2015 11 comments

on epiphanies

by internova 9/3/2015

written by internova

it’s kind of strange how and when you realize there’s something wrong with you. i haven’t really thought there’s anything wrong with thinking about death – i’ve been thinking about it for, what, the last three years now? it was almost like an unconscious epiphany that hadn’t hit me until, a few months ago, i stopped and just thought about it: what classifies as depression? what classifies as suicidal?

and for the longest time, i did not only believe, but i was convinced that i’m completely alright.

sometimes, i’d be trying to sleep at night, and i would think of how it would feel to hang myself. […]

9/3/2015 1 comment

I guess its over

by wannabedeadcat05 9/3/2015

written by wannabedeadcat05

These past few months have been hell, i moved out from my dads place after having my baby to live with my mom hoping things would be better with her and they were for a year. Until she and i got into a fight, over my boyfriend. She was right, i was a prick but things were never the same after that, we fought a lot. Up until the point where she started demanding rent, got a job but i wasnt able to.keep it because of my anxiety amd depression. My mistake. Fast foward, she called the police on me after my sister (18), and […]

9/3/2015 7 comments

Nobody knows me…

by Bluerose 9/3/2015

written by Bluerose

Nobody knows what kind of hell i live in! People think im happy and ok… But im not! And so long as im in this hell… I will never be ok. Im sick and tired of crying… I just want it all to stop. I cant take anymore…

Nothing will change… No matter how hard i hope… No matter what i do… Nothing changes. And i cant take this anymore!!!!!

9/3/2015 3 comments

lol

by neptune 9/2/2015

written by neptune

i don’t know, i’m not even that old. but life just seems so tiring and pointless, every day, i do the same thing, and i don’t even do it well, and i just can’t find the energy to do anything. yet in front of everyone i have to put up a smile, and act like i’m ok with this life. and maybe i need to quote megan louisa garcia when i say it seems like right now, the most i can hope for is persevering through life, not enjoying it, not living it, and that’s really not what i want. at times, i just feel […]

9/2/2015 2 comments

just rambling…

by Delisnak 9/1/2015

written by Delisnak

my life is at bay nothing bad but the ache in my heart. i really miss him but he seems over me. i fucking knew one of us was gonna get too attached and it was me. dammit i just want to forget about him. go back the few weeks i fell for him and change how things happened. my only 2 friends are being supportive and keeping me busy. my mind always wonders to him. everyday i think about him and i go to walk up to him but i see that hes with hes friends and today he was with a girl so […]

9/1/2015 1 comment

Relationship

by Sev 9/1/2015

written by Sev

So… i love a boy… but in the last 2 weeks and even today…
He’s causing so much pain in me…
And i’m standing here knowing i have to make a choice…
A girl, is sleeping in his apartment, she’s the type of girl that dates a different guy every month…
I really don’t like her
I want to trust that he will not cheat on me…
But i simply can’t do it, this is killing me everyday…
When i thought everything was going to get better…
It got a lot worst instead…
I’m so frustrated with all that…
I’m trying to be sober and all that […]

9/1/2015 10 comments

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