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Today…

by CrimsonDream 3/19/2014

written by CrimsonDream

So today I found out that I’m failing a class. I’m so disappointed and ashamed in myself cause I used to be the girl in the front of the room telling you the answer to problem 7 and earning good grades. Now I’m the girl in the back of the class room asking you for the answer to number 7 and receiving bad grades. I get told constantly that I could do better , but when I try my best can still get improvement.

I get told to ask the teacher for help but I don’t want to. 1. Because I feel dumb and ashamed, and […]

3/19/2014 5 comments

Why?…

by CrimsonDream 3/17/2014

written by CrimsonDream

I ask myself this question more often then others.

Why am I fucked up like this?

Why did I change from the old me?

Why do I hate myself?

I can’t answer all those questions maybe not even one, but I do know that

I feel this way and I think this is how others view me because this is how I see myself.

The girl who fucks up, the broken one.

I’m not a person I’m an element of the universe.

I just so happened to be picked to live the life I lived cause I know nobody could live it as bad as I do.

I ask myself ‘Why’ because I know […]

3/17/2014 1 comment

The opposite of love is…

by Stain 3/16/2014

written by Stain

A while ago someone posted, I think on this site, “what is the opposite of love?” It was meant to be a trick question because they said the answer is not the obvious “hate” but rather “loneliness” or something like that.

At first I agreed, but the more I think about it I think the opposite of love really is hate.

In physics the opposite of any force is another force that, when applied to the first, causes zero. For example the opposite of a 50 mph north wind would be a 50 mph south wind so anyone standing where they meet would feel nothing.

So back to […]

3/16/2014 16 comments

Relentless thoughts

by bayareaguy 3/13/2014

written by bayareaguy

Suicide….it is ever present in my mind…I’ve almost finished with all of the paperwork (will, power of attorney, advance directive, etc). I’ve prepaid for my cremation. The urge just won’t leave me alone or give me any respite, any rest.Â I think of suicide each and every day now.

I am so profoundly and desperately lonely. I have a constant headache. I could buy a gun tomorrow (this is Arizona where people openly carry them into restaurants)…I could answer the call of the Golden Gate Bridge….I just don’t know.Â I cannot discuss this with anyone I know, it’s already caused some people to avoid me and denigrate […]

3/13/2014 8 comments

Feelings

by silent survivor 3/9/2014

written by silent survivor

I’ve never liked when someone asked me how i was feeling because it seems like no one understood that i didn’t have the answer to that question. People only see emotions as black or white and they don’t realize the grey area that is between. People get frustrated with me because i always answer ”i don’t know” to that question and they ask ”how can you not know what you’re feeling?” well i don’t get it either because sometimes i don’t just feel sad or happy. I can’t even tell them that i feel numb because they wouldn’t understand that either. ”How can you feel […]

3/9/2014 3 comments

18 and life

by catwardude 2/24/2014

written by catwardude

I often ponder death wondering if its better than dealing with the pain walking around broken beaten and just done death is always the answer that comes to my mind at least it seems like the easy way out

2/24/2014 1 comment

To all girls on SP

by ravanys 2/21/2014

written by ravanys

To all girls on SP. What would you do if you broke up with a guy you met right here and was together with for almost a year?
Would you block him and ignore him?
Would you try to forget about him?
Would you erase him from your life?

From my personal experience, the answer is yes. I still want to die even though I know it’s not the answer..

2/21/2014 13 comments

Reasoning and thoughts. I’m still here. Wish I wasn’t.

by juniper keepsasecret 2/20/2014

written by juniper keepsasecret

When I try to justify the point life I consider what I’ll tell my child when they ask why we exist. Not only do I not know the answer, I don’t believe that there is one.
When discussing my own belief in the futility of life people try to remind me of the good things in life.
Try to convince me that there’s always something good.
Occasionally reminding me that my own loss of life would be devastating to those around me.
Carey’s death was devastating to me. It’s devastating every day.
So yes I know how you might feel. Now maybe you might know […]

2/20/2014 2 comments

Emptiness

by Agion 2/11/2014

written by Agion

I really don’t know what to do anymore.

Some call it a phase of life, others just a small crisis.

But I don’t know and I actually dont care.

I feel empty. Nothing excites me. I don’t have goals and no matter how much I search, I just feel that I will be put down.

Everything I do is put down. I got support, but what does that count? They wont be there forever.

I wonder, why was I born? I feel empty. Don’t feel joy actually and just waste my life.

I tried many times to kill myself, stabbing, hanging, drowning and even throw myself infront of a train or […]

2/11/2014 3 comments

Fear

by TheGlassChild 2/10/2014

written by TheGlassChild

I’m scared to live, so I wanna die. I’m scared to die, so I try to live. Stuck in the middle and the hollowness is too heavy. The logical thing would be to face the fear to live, before the fear to die. But I’m not logical and I want an easy answer, though I know there aren’t any.

2/10/2014 4 comments

To die or not to die?

by shu 2/7/2014

written by shu

I have no idea what this is for.

Who can argue that anything we do is meaningful.

Is it time to go? Yes it is maybe.

And how to go? It seems it is just as hard as living.

Drugs Rule Everything Around Me.

The End. Or is it the beginning……

Ten billion stars later maybe the answer will illuminate.

2/7/2014 8 comments

The impossible question

by SuicidalBilly 2/1/2014

written by SuicidalBilly

Throughout my entire life, I have searched for the answer, the truth to what the purpose of humanity’s existence could be. Being a former Catholic, I believed “god” to be the answer, but the ugly and unpleasant truth is that there WAS no answer from the very beginning. Life never did have a purpose. People tell themselves that there is some cosmic and divine reason for our existence, but that is a false illusion created to hide our fears, and to ease our consciousness, just like how people delude themselves into thinking that they will be reunited with their loved ones in heaven, or […]

2/1/2014 9 comments

nihilism

by addicted 1/25/2014

written by addicted

nihilism: highest values devaluate themselves. the aim is lacking;”why?” finds no answer.

does any one experienced nihilism?

if so how to cope with it? is suicide is the only way to get rid of it?

1/25/2014 10 comments

Not the answer

by IsabelDaUnicorn 11/17/2013

written by IsabelDaUnicorn

Suicide is NOT the answer.

ive learned that.

Plus because im a youngyin’.

even tho’ life gets bad once in a while.

you gotta pick yourself up and find another thing in life to worry about.

maybe something more important than Â the thing your worrying about.

dont sweat it,

I promise,

life gets better.

MUCH better.

i love you no matter what.

never forget that.

11/17/2013 9 comments

killing me

by givin' up? 6/8/2013

written by givin' up?

I fell like there’s a stone destroying my chest..
my body has banned me cry..
I refused to look sad at school or in front of my friends..
I have to be a support to my friends
I have to stop cutting
I’m the only who want to scream?
my world is in other dimension..
please just tell me that I’m not the only one feeling like that right now
nesecito contarle a alguien mi vida pero tengo tanto miedo de darle mis problemas a otro, ser feliz no era lo mas importante? no tengo corazon, estoy sola, me siento asi pero me da miedo […]

6/8/2013 1 comment

Knowledge and nighttime.

by khajiit 11/18/2012

written by khajiit

The world is quite a peculiar place that I have yet to become accustomed to. Sometimes just the sheer aspect of living overwhelms me. Does that in itself make any sense at all? I very much doubt so, but it pervades me nonetheless.

Even now, looking outside my window; at the beautiful tranquility of the night, the pure brilliance and wonder that the night evokes. Looking off into the glittering scenery before me I can only wonder about life. The significance of everything, The sheer luck and probability that life has unfolded and used to mould and influence the present. The magnificence of it, the questions […]

11/18/2012 1 comment

What’s the Point in Living Anymore???

by painisme 12/17/2011

written by painisme

My mom can get cancer again, and my dad left us without a home or money…I have no friends, my family wants me to go die…they all call me a demon…FUCK LIFE! I’m SICK of getting tortured and neglected by people who say they “love” me…WHATS THE MEANING OF LOVE??? LIFE??? I can’t live with this anymore…I”m DONE being the punching bag…I HAVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE BEFORE…EVERYONE thinks I’m doing it for attention…EVEN MY THERIPIST…They tell me I’m a lying piece of shit…FUCK YOU! I’m only struggling! Why in the HELL would I fake this?! IT’S CALLED PAIN. My STEPDAD don’t give a FUCK about me…he […]

12/17/2011 1 comment

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