I really could just finish this now. All the bullshit from others, self loathing, anxiety and depression could be gone with just one slit. The knife is in my hand, no one is here to stop me, and even if they were, I doubt they would with how they feel about me now. I really want to do it and get it over with, but I just can’t seem to do it. God knows why, I mean it’s for the best, so why can’t I? Maybe somewhere inside I think it will get better, or maybe I am scared of failing that just like everything […]
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Anxiety And Depression
I can’t sleep, my anxiety and depression are getting the best of me. My thoughts are becoming irrational. I know it’s not normal to have suicidal feelings but I’m having them anyway. It’s a challenge to drive into town because I so want to speed up and go over one of the cliffs. I’m so lost.
I believe that our choice of music is very much a reflection of our souls. I’m a bit older than average amongst the people here. I feel fortunate to have come of age during one of the best musical booms in American history, New Wave, and its technological red-headed step child, synthpop. I’ve always been musically inclined, and I found I had a strong affinity for the pasty white boys standing behind keyboards pushing buttons in order to “play live”. My all-time favorite band is Erasure, whose popularity in America peaked when I was in college, but I frequently “worship” the “Holy Trinity”: Erasure, Depeche […]
Hey all 🙂
ok so im not going to go into some long story about how i ended up here but iv been through a few threads and have similar experiances to some on this site, basically my illness is anxiety and depression (depression resulting from the anxiety). My questions is for everyone who has made a FINAL decision to end there life (without a doubt) no cries for help BS etc. Personally i believe no one wants to die and suicide is a choice between the lesser of 2 evils. 1. Living in misery / pain (terminal illness) or faceing oblivion with the possibility of […]
I’ve had anxiety and depression most of my life, on and off since I was around 10; and more and more frequently since my twenties (I’m almost 40 now). Right now it’s not the worst. But I would like to be dead.
Like I said, I’m not in the depths right now – but it’s been four years since I’ve really had much pleasure in my life. Â I can keep going – I’m productive, I’m pursuing things I used to love, and new things I might love now. I have a home, I have friends, I’m doing okay financially. But I am not even close to […]
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