Well. I’m afraid I’m going to lose a friend to suicide, no matter how hard I tried to make him see otherwise. It’s ultimately his choice. And I’m not gonna force him to change. But the more I think about why I’m still here myself, is I just don’t have the damn luxury to commit suicide like some of the lucky people do. I just don’t have the luxury. I have too many people to take care of. And if I didn’t have one scrap of love for them, then I’d say fuck off and then hang myself like I always think about. But I […]
I have believed ever since i survied a suisied attempt at age 15 that i will live 113 years. i am 50, almost 1/2 way there. every day, i choose to live. i also believe that if i meet God,after a natural death, i will ask it if i could please not exsist . i don’t see myself chill’n with God for an infinit amount of time.
being married helps. so does having 5 cats. i had plants, but plants & cats do not mix.
to the owners of this web site, thanks for the safe place to let this out. i feel about 5 lbs. lighter.
Last year on December 9th I lost my virginty, to a guy I thought really liked me. We where talking over the summer and he was always busy. After many tries we finally saw each other. The place where we going to go was closed so he said lets just go to the park. He asked if I had any smokes, I told him no. So we went across the street and he made me pay for the cigs. As we got to the park it […]
I don’t want my life to depend on one person. But the truth is that my boyfriend broke up with me today and I just don’t know how I’m supposed to get through this. He told me he can’t deal with my depression and suicidal thoughts and it’s been like that basically since we started dating three year ago. I always knew we were never going to last, but he was what was keeping me going in this life. He tells me I need to get help and that I will be fine eventually, but I don’t believe that. I’ve been getting help for so […]
Day after day… my heart gets heavy
day after day, water blinds my eyes, i cant bear it anymore
i feel like a tool, people turn on when they wanna have my body
am i just a body? i also have feelings… but day after day, my heart gets broken.
i dont believe in love neither in feeling, all i believe is in selfishness
all the fairy tales I’ve read and watched as a child… they’re far, far away from me.
i wanted to be your Cinderella,
and day after day, all i wanted was to be hugged.
I’m just a doll boy,a forgotten one.
when you want to touch me… it feels good, […]
Staying strong means continuously uplifting yourself positively as a confident person by pushing through the hardest rock bottom times your best. Give it your all. And don’t bow down to bullying etc. Make a difference. Think about what you love and what you do thats special or even find a new idea. I like to write now because it helps me and people see it and feel it. Be a soldier, not weak at soul. I skate loyally and hard, i’m beyond commited. That’s most dope. That’s why I have it tatted across my upper chest. It’s me. It’s a view and reminder […]
People say suicide is selfish because of all the people it hurts. Well I want to know how those who care expecting me to endure the pain that is my life is not selfish on their part. Do they not believe the extent or severity of the pain in my life? There has to be a point that they understand I have no hope or will to live another and that without ending my life I am suffering far more than they will endure from my absence. This theory, or social convention, or whatever it is is bullshit. Suicide is my choice and if anyone […]
So I honestly believe I probably won’t graduate high school this year. I’ve always had a hard time with school. I just believe even if I manage to pull it off I don’t have a future. There are other reasons why I want to off myself, but this is one of the biggest reasons. I lack motivation, I always have, and I probably always will.
Today, was really down, more then usual, so I had taken a pain pill. And I was thinking during the last period of the day that I was going to home and overdose on pain pills. My friend had asked me why I was so quiet, so I told her, and she told me a lot of people would miss me. I told her I didn’t believe her, she told me to go ask my Mentor, Ms. M if she would miss me. So I did. She told me she would be sad and mad. And that she would miss me. She gave me a […]
I was raped when I was 12, but nobody knows about it I tried telling my parents but I ended up telling them I had lied because I blammed someone for it, who wasn’t who did it, it was my grandpa who raped me and I can’t seem to bring myself into telling my parents because I know they won’t believe me and I would be judge but every day I wake up wishing I was dead praying for cancer or a brain tumor, I’ve tried suicide before but all it did was make people judge me and make me feel worst, I play happy […]
I wish I didn’t feel the physical effects of depression. Lethargy is the worst–you can’t do anything and yet you can’t tell anyone why you can’t do anything. This entire weekend I’ve done nearly nothing, but why should I do anything anyway? All of our existences are inherently meaningless, our lives will end and we will all be Nothing. Truly, nothing in this life actually matters at all. And yet we go about as though we have a purpose (well, most people do anyway, I suppose people like me do not) and believe that life is beautiful and sacred when it isn’t. Life is just […]
Hi there,
I recently got divorced from my wonderful wife, we met wen we were 14 and had been together ever since. Up until 6 months ago when she left me and my life had spiralled out of control.
She left me with over 20k debt which has trashed my credit file and take me 11 years to pay off. She moved in with another man and it broke my heart.
However I couldn’t believe my luck I met a wonderful girl within a few weeks of my divorce but things went from bad to worse, she ended up pregnant and aborted our child without telling me which […]
I want to find the way so I could talk to him, and tell him that
here everything’s worst. That my will is dead, that I would like
to have a change to hug him, I want everything to be as it was,
my life is so grey that the pain will never go away.
I want to remember, that it’s better not to believe in love.
I should hate him for leaving me here, I’m just a nostalgic
lovesick person, that hates feeling like this.
How am I supposed to live like this? I’m not allowed to mess up,nt allowed to be different. At least that’s how it feels. No one will understand me. No one can ever know about what I do. The kind of things I contemplate. IM IN MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! I’m not supposed to think like this, I’m supposed to walk around and gossip, and talk about boa like the rest of the boys. I’m not supposed to keep a razor hiden in my room, in not supposed to look forward to being alone, I’m nt supposed to go home as fast as I can do I […]
You can see me down in that place where I try so hard to wave..my arms burdened by gravity holding them to my face.. so heavy and so hot..believe me or not it’s my fate. The next step I take means too much to take and so I’ve stood still waiting for my will again.
Repair these broken hands.. what is there left to grip? Repair this broken man for the sake of broken lips. Come apart to let you in and hold me down to fix.
Put me back the way I was and I’ll just fall apart again. Reconstruct this broken heart […]
“With This Knife”
I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how i try i don’t know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain
With this knife i’ll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife i’ll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you
I can’t believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million […]
I’ve always felt I was brought into this world by mistake, that I was meant to be in some other solar system. I’m just not like other people here. I have no friends, no job, no life. I haven’t really been happy since I was 12 (I’m now 62)
I do think about suicide sometimes, and believe people like Robin Williams are just braver than I am. I figure that at 62 I can’t have many more years of this agony anyway.
I find it very sad to see these posts from 12 and 13 year olds. You are very young and things have a way of […]
Can’t believe that I ever thought I had more serious problems in life before now. I was sexually molested and had awkward sexual situations with adults and others that were my age growing up. I repressed the memories, I repressed all of it because it was all so terrible and disturbing. I never dated growing up, I fell in love with a guy and started dating him when I was 19. I started having sex with him when I was 20 years old and once I started I couldn’t stop we always had sex. We were careful and responsible about what we were doing and […]
So I’m currently writing an assignment for my mental health and well-being paper. The aim of this assignment is to examine the different pathways in which a well-being of an individual is enhanced.
Now, this may seem super random because compared to my other posts. I’ve never really done this. But I was wondering, if anyone, and I mean ANYONE would like to contribute.
What I really wanted to know is, when you think of that one happy moment..just that ONE HAPPY moment, what do you feel? & What is it that makes you feel that way?
Another is forgiveness. Has anyone ever taken the courage to forgive […]
Humanity seems to believe the absurd ideology that all humans are created equal. Therefore, when someone has something like ADHD, or some other disorder, be it mental or physical, of course others will try to ostracise them! We’re raised in a society that says everyone is the same, and that people can do anything if they set their minds to it. This society is fucked up. Many “disorders” or “syndromes” aren’t detrimental at all, but rather, they’re different ways of acting and perceiving. Why can’t they be respected as such, and why do people with these differences have to be seen as inferior to others […]