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I think it’s said that only 3 people in 1000 are capable of suicide.

by Stain 5/1/2014

written by Stain

Is it possible that this entire human world is completely upside down in its beliefs, and in fact life is a bad thing; death is a good thing; and suicide is the act of an enlightened soul that has come to this awakening?

What do humans live for? Ostensibly to contribute to life. To make life better for themselves, their families and other humans. Longer, happier lives for everyone.

The same thing can be said about an acid trip. You want it to be a happy one. You want it to last as long as possible. You want to share it with your friends. But in the […]

5/1/2014 2 comments

why can’t i just…

by Jay 5/1/2014

written by Jay

stop.

why can’t I stop playing this in-between. I’m not getting any better, I CAN’T get any better until certain things happen that just aren’t happening, that are out of my reach. And I can’t end it either. Why the fuck can’t I just do one or the other?

NO it’s not a matter of positive thinking. NO it’s not like I don’t know what I need. I know what I need and I can’t fucking GET it. That’s the problem. Why don’t I just MAKE the attempt so that they HAVE to listen?

No, I’m not making it up. No, doing fucking yoga isn’t going to help. […]

5/1/2014 2 comments

Forget It

by justanotherteenagestatistic 5/1/2014

written by justanotherteenagestatistic

When you know how hard it is to drag yourself out of bed in the morning, then we can talk.

When you know how hard it is to even keep breathing, when all you want to do is stop, then we can talk.

When you know how hard it is to believe that life will never get better no matter what you do, then we can talk.

But right now, all I hear is noise.

5/1/2014 1 comment

im done

by killmealready97 5/1/2014

written by killmealready97

I havent posted in a few weeks but thats because i was getting better i made plans and i was supposed to be going to my friends 21st tomorrow but then tuesday we argued because i asked her why she hadnt replied turns out her friend was in hospital and she told me to fuck off ive sent her over 300 messages and she hasnt replied she wont even read them which hurts so much more shes one of the last 2 people in my life i care about now theres only one and she hasnt been replying either so im alone i have no […]

5/1/2014 14 comments

I’m alone.

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/1/2014

written by skeletonsInthecloset

I’m alone. and maybe it’s better this way. I told the guy I’ve been in love with for almost a year now. to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself from my family. I can’t even find the strength to get up and go to school for the last two days. I don’t want to go back on anti depressants. but I don’t know how to be okay right now. a part of me feels like it’s missing. I said things I didn’t mean but I know they were better to say then try make people understand the truth.

i still don’t want to live. i still […]

5/1/2014 1 comment

Love For Survival

by ITriedIt 4/30/2014

written by ITriedIt

So I sit here in a class

no one notices what I do

no one

I sit alone with no one by me

like I like to sit but how I hate to sit.

That empty feeling of being alone will always linger.

No matter what.

Even if I sit with my friend or my girlfriend.

I will feel alone.

It won’t go.

It’s madness that I can’t escape it.

I want to escape it more than anything but I can’t.

I just can’t hurt my girlfriend who is depressed on her own.

Every time I try to go she can’t take it.

I can’t stand hurting her.

I just don’t understand.

She would be better without me right?

I know it.

She’s […]

4/30/2014 9 comments

I Overcame

by kbjett 4/29/2014

written by kbjett

Hi.

I’m Katie, and I want to tell my story.

I was born into a pretty good family, with a dad and mom thatÂ loved each other and all that good stuff. When I wasÂ 5 though, they got a divorce, but the reason was good as a reason could be for divorce. My mom remarried toÂ a man who sexually abused both of us until the day he decided to try to kill us. That was the day he went to jail. That was also the day where I started on this long journey of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (I have been diagnosed by a professional). I have flashbacks […]

4/29/2014 1 comment

confused and sad

by sadgrl2000 4/28/2014

written by sadgrl2000

hey just an intro, Iam a girl and Iam 18. its been a while since ive talked to someone about all these feelings ive been getting lately. Iv been sad for such a long time now, its been years since I felt truly happy, and it really saddens me cuz I actually want to get better but I just cant, I hate this feeling of not knowing where I stand in life, I see all my friends go to college, get married, move on with their lives and I am over here crippled, not knowing what to do. The pain started off as emotional but […]

4/28/2014 2 comments

hangover

by Kallian 4/28/2014

written by Kallian

Fuck….I don’t even remember lastnight. Only woke up an hour before work, suffered through, now I’m home in the dark silence trying to feel better. Getting drunk off my ass was fun and all, but I’m not enjoying the aftermath

4/28/2014 0 comment

We haven’t heard from Januray…But..

by Lana00 4/27/2014

written by Lana00

We haven’t heard from Januray…But.. I missed all these people who doesn’t know how much I love them.. Maybe they aren’t perfect to someone else,bu to me you are perfect just the way you are. I love you guys,all of you.
My status,of emotions are distroyed.Of health so much better,but I still feel empty. And if someone is willing to share their story can send me a mail on lanamajetic33@gmail.com . I will always be there for anyone of you. I can’t say it will be better,maybe it won’t be like you want. You have to stay strong. I sound like my therapist. haha. I […]

4/27/2014 0 comment

3 more days

by candyapple 4/27/2014

written by candyapple

so there’s only three more days until i get to do it. i haven’t set everything in place yet, but hopefully i’ll get to do it soon.

i still have a tom of questions. where do we go after this? what will happen to everybody after?.. but i’m tired of hoping that everything will become better, coz it never really does.

i don’t know what to do. i don’t want to cry anymore. i’m just so tired of everything already.

4/27/2014 5 comments

by Kallian 4/26/2014

written by Kallian

I started cutting again. Got loads of blades now. I shouldn’t have gotten anything, shouldn’t have been weak.

4/26/2014 1 comment

given up

by givenuponme 4/24/2014

written by givenuponme

I am a 27 year old failure in life I have no reason to be on this earth I have never felt so alone then I do today I have been thinking about taking my life for some time now and the feeling has been increasing for the past several months with today being the strongest feeling of wanting to just end it all I feel as if I have no purpose and the people around me see me as being ungrateful and useless I have to fully agree with the later of the two I have a son who doesn’t view me as his […]

4/24/2014 1 comment

Better?

by abigail 4/24/2014

written by abigail

I start to see a new way, everything seems okay now, but right when things seem fine….my world comes crashing down around me and i cant stand the weight of everything thats happening , i just want things to be better and be able to be happy on my own is that to much to ask? like for real…. i hate depression with a burning passion i want to kill it. make it go away please …………….

4/24/2014 3 comments

by naomii 4/24/2014

written by naomii

everyday its the same routine. waking up thinking its a new day but then suddenly everything reminds how much of a fuckup you really are. And school doesnt make it any better. makes it worse actually. ive tried to pick myself up but eventually when i get home i dont eat or talk but go to my room And cry myself to sleep.

4/24/2014 0 comment

Surving Hell

by Kae 4/23/2014

written by Kae

I’ve thought about it many times, especially those sleepless nights, the drum beating inside the dark recess of my mind.

After the first attempt of 12 pills, then 24 pills, I decided to wake up and attend college both times I woke up from those failures.

I’ve been reading up a lot about Buddhism and about reincarnation or rebirth, and I was wondering and contemplated.

With everything that I’ve been through, and for me to cut my life short thinking that hell would probably be a better place to be in I realized, if I cop out now I’ll probably have to go through this entire experience again, […]

4/23/2014 1 comment

Too fast overstrung

by Engeltje 4/22/2014

written by Engeltje

I’m so overstrung, that even doing a small thing is too much. Even going out of bed, eating and dress myself is already too much on a day. If i do a little bit more, such as playing a game with my mom, walking a little while or having a therapy session, I’m completely broken after it. And the following three days I can’t do anything, because I’m so tired overstrung by that one activity I did. Really makes me sick, that I just can’t do a single activity. How will I ever get better then?

4/22/2014 5 comments

SOMETIMES ALL YOU HAVE IS YOUR WORD

by bryan higgins 4/22/2014

written by bryan higgins

But sometimes it takes self sacrafice for a better of a world .or family to see that as long as you do things with a pure heart .you are above mans law …but maybe the madera county probation dept will think about my loss and my story that will not die .when I do ..FATHER I MISS U AND IM COMING HOME TODAY …IF ITS YOUR WILL..what I do in spirit was to full fill ur survival. …

4/22/2014 0 comment

Thoughts

by themusical 4/22/2014

written by themusical

I should be careful and not come here too often…

I’ve been quite depressed, lacking hope and feeling generally worthless yadda yadda, uninspired to do anything but wallow in self pity.

Being so full of hate that I even learned how to tie a noose.

That made me feel better.

Because although we can all theoretically end it all when we want, it is often quite difficult. Not everyone has handy drugs in the closet. Some will just have to do it the tried and true old school way.

So it’s not always comforting enough to think: well hold on one more day because you can always end it, because […]

4/22/2014 2 comments

I’m not alone

by friendlyfire01 4/22/2014

written by friendlyfire01

So why does it feel like I am? Outwardly I try so damn hard every single day to make them smile, to make you smile. My only thoughts are of yours, my sweet Maria. When I turn inward, numbness is all. None of this is your fault.

I have been distant all my life. Not ugly, or fat, or picked on in any way. I separated myself from others as a matter of course. We had no connection, whatever they felt around me was lost on me. Social cues, meaningless, friendships, tossed aside. I care about nothing. I’m watching my fingers type and know that this […]

4/22/2014 0 comment

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