So today was my birthday. I wanted one and only thing to be left alone. Did I get it no. instead I had family come n wish me the best. I know they care but its like everytime I smile its fake. I hate giving out fake smiles but what do I do? Tell them how I feel. Depressed. If I do then I get endless questions. Maybe today wasn’t one of the best days. Idunno. I guess I’ll just try to keep going even though sometimes…those thoughts come back.
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Birthday Today
Okay everyone, it’s my birthday today and I feel like crying. Today’s the day I decided I’d go through with everything and actually commit suicide, but after my last failed attempt, my parents are really keeping an eye on me. Not that they care ofcourse, they just don’t want to go through with all the shame of having to tell everyone their daughter committed suicide. Hah, I’m so tired of everything. I’m tired of pain, I’m tired of not being good enough for my parents, I’m tired of getting bullied, I’m just tired. 15 years is quite a long time. Idk, I’m worthless anyways, everyone […]
Today, march 21st, is my birthday.
Today’s the day I was born on the coast
Today’s the day I loathe this life the most
Today’s the day I’ll look like everyone else, but
Today’s the day I’ll be going to hell.
Today’s the day I get sung to and cheered
Today’s the day I remember their jeers
Today’s the day when I show them their wrongs
Today’s the day when they’ll sing no more songs
Today’s the day that I take my gun out
Today’s the day I’ll turn the lights out
Today’s the day where I say goodbye
Today’s the day that I will […]