Happy Birthday?

Okay everyone, it’s my birthday today and I feel like crying. Today’s the day I decided I’d go through with everything and actually commit suicide, but after my last failed attempt, my parents are really keeping an eye on me. Not that they care ofcourse, they just don’t want to go through with all the shame of having to tell everyone their daughter committed suicide. Hah, I’m so tired of everything. I’m tired of pain, I’m tired of not being good enough for my parents, I’m tired of getting bullied, I’m just tired. 15 years is quite a long time. Idk, I’m worthless anyways, everyone always tells me this. I’d be doing them a favor if I left. I don’t understand why their making it so hard for me to go through with this! I’m crying every night, and no one is bothered by it, but when it comes to me killing myself everyone wants to come into the picture yelling at me that I can’t do it. I wish I could end everything. thanks for reading.