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Sadist inside me

by Tormenting Dreams 12/19/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

i have learned that i am very sadistic. hurting people brings me pleasure, and i really dont know why. i seems like im going down the same path of my fore fathers. it brings exseptional join when its people that are close to me. but still there are some people i dont not nor would not hurt. it only satisfies me for a very brief instant though, later i regret my decision. and i do sincerly feel bad. but still the cycle repeats, until i have no one left. and i really dont want to be this way but on some occasions it seems inevitable.

but […]

12/19/2012 3 comments

I came here with a purpose and left with a ramble that I hope is helpful in some way or another

by NotReallyHereAtAll 8/11/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

When I saw the words ‘someday, all this pain will be worthwhile’ one time, then many other times on countless blogs, I would just shake my head, and silently disagree that my sadness would come to nothing, except perhaps recovery, then more nothing. But I recently realised that my pain has helped one aspect of my life: I am writing again. And what I am writing is good. Sure, it’s just a few very short and broken stories with loose plots and screwed up people, but that’s okay. Because what I’ve written is good. It’s not happy, but it is real and I’m pleased with […]

8/11/2012 1 comment

if anyone wants to talk

by Erin 7/22/2012

written by Erin

well if anyone wants to see what some people think that i do… I have a 2 blogs… well a tumblr and another thing… also so if anyone needs to talk my tumblr is inevitable nightmare…

but also, on my tumblr it is different because my sister follows me and i dont want her to find out about any of this stuff so it is mostly the other things that i like, such as Tom Hiddleston, my chemical romance, and stuff like that but that doesnt matter so… just go to my ask and we couldÂ privatelyÂ chat or i can give you my email and we can […]

7/22/2012 0 comment

Battle In My Brain

by someone_to_talk_to 5/30/2012

written by someone_to_talk_to

Generally I’m more of an observer and a listener than the person who actually speaks. I never blog, and NEVER talk to anyone about how unhappy I really am. But I need a listener for a change – an unbiased, unjudgemental listener. My life has been a traumatic mess, and has created in me an emotional, unstable, and lost little girl. At the same time, I am a very logical and sensible person, and I realize that dwelling on things (especially things from the past) is unhealthy, and probably a part of the reason I’m so miserable. These 2 people argue in my brain – […]

5/30/2012 12 comments

I stay alive for the people I love

by TrailingTheVoidAgain 1/11/2012

written by TrailingTheVoidAgain

I have attempted suicide twice. Once by hanging and once by pills and alcohol.

Both times I saw it as the only way to end the pain of being alive, of living my life, with my thoughts and my ideas of my future.

And both times I was radically incorrect about how my life would turn out. As I write this I am only now aware of that. I was so totally wrong about how things would play out for me, of all the joys and experiences I would have, of the love I would feel, of the ups that would somehow manifest themselves. If I had […]

1/11/2012 7 comments

Sometimes It Gets Better..But Still

by abeautifuldeath 1/8/2012

written by abeautifuldeath

I’ve been doing really well for the past month or so,Â

But when I really think about it, I still think I’d be happier dead. At times like these nothing is majorly wrong, I just don’t want to be here. I hate living here, I want to die so I can truly be happy and be free. Sometimes I google key words of how I’m feeling to find blogs or pages of people who feel the same. when I googled this time nothing came up, does anyome else ever feel like this?

but it’ll come back, it always does.

1/8/2012 5 comments