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brokenness

How Do You Go On?

by thehusk 10/6/2015

written by thehusk

I’m trying to accept that I’ll never have a conventionally meaningful life (see previous posts for why.) I may feel this completely alone for the rest of my time in this world, even if I’m with someone. I will never be acceptable to others as I truly am, or part of any community. No one will ever really know me.

Ending my life still seems wrong though. While it would stop my suffering, it would inflict similar pain on my parents, who certainly don’t deserve it. Ruining 2 lives (3 including my sister) to end my own brokenness doesn’t make sense.

The question then becomes how to get through the next 30 […]

10/6/2015 11 comments

Why can’t you see?

by The_red_fairytale 6/4/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

It’s my fault, I made him mad.
So he does it, again and again.
No clues or evidence to be found.
Scared and lost, not knowing childhood.
Don’t move, don’t make a sound.
If he finds me i’ll be never leave this place.
Stuck here for eternity, crying and begging-
No more!
Please, not again! I’m sorry that I did something wrong.
Again
That smell, the pain and the guilt.
The words: the things he says
so cold and cruel
Why can’t he just end it already?
I don’t wanna be here anymore
Can’t you see my brokenness in my eyes?
The jagged stitching on […]

6/4/2014 1 comment

by monika 7/6/2013

written by monika

I can’t do this.

With every new experience, everything I do, I just get broken down more by how stupid the world is.

I always thought I got out of my parents’ house, faced my fears, I’d be ok. That everything would get better. But now I’m moved out and everything still sucks.

Boyfriend is away for two and a half weeks. It hasn’t even been one and I’m meh and depressed and mad. He said we’d talk “lots.” Lots for us is constantly. We’ve barely talked at all. I’ve talked to his older brother more than to him. And mostly I’m just mad at his parents for […]

7/6/2013 0 comment

expectations vs reality

by hurt 11/19/2012

written by hurt

If I could rub the genie lamp I’d wish for a view of how everything turns out after I exit or before. Life is tolerable. It’s true I don’t have the white picket fence that little girls dream of…when I was little I was trying to survive my reality and that left no time for dreaming of white picket stuff.

If I knew for certain this is all my life would ever be, then it would be oh so simple to say good bye. Maybe some people don’t find their soul-mates and they’re alone for ever. Or maybe I’m too fucked up to have a soul […]

11/19/2012 2 comments

Dakota.

by deeperthanflesh 1/18/2011

written by deeperthanflesh

So. Its my 20th birthday, yet life isn’t anymore exciting. I tried everything; moving away, moving back, sex, drugs, its all not working. I took the nursing program so my mom would just get off my back. Drew, my boyfriend and I moved into the basment at dads. Its been great for the first few months, but everything is getting so boring and life is becoming so repetetive. Yesturday is clashing with today, and no doubt tomorrow. Well I guess its time to go out, I’m almost 20.

I meet up with Sam and Sie, and I try my most authetic smile, because though they’re […]

1/18/2011 1 comment