I used to be the most popular (I hate that word) girl in my school. & in the whole district. For all good reasons though. Like I am a fun person to be around & I’m just a good person. I have two groups of friends.. Well I had two groups of friends. The one group is all bitches & their cheerleaders & the other one is all basketball players.. Even tho I don’t play I still fit in. But in the cheerleader group I was friends with the one girl who was really annoying & one time we went to camp together & we […]
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I’m not sure when or how it started. Just the feeling of cracking. Like when your windshield gets hit and cracks start to spider web out further. Another thing hits and the web cracks further. And then another and another until it just breaks completely. I thought about that windshield and how it must hurt, to have those cracks, to be hit so hard like that.
Now I realize that I am that windshield.
My mother cheated on my dad and left him for my (now) step-dad when I was 6. The divorce, which was messy and grisly, was finalized a year later. I had to watch […]
i think i want to quit dance. sure i love being consider “a good dancer” but this year isn’t like last. I’ve joined cheerleading this year and its really fun and so are the people! dance just doesn’t feel the same anymore, i wish i could go to the past and be happy. the truth is i feel really selfish i have alot more than some people have and i know i should be happy and myself but… im not! I dont even want to compete anymore. i just want to be happy again and cheer makes me feel like that i love trying to […]
my name is is melody. i am 19 years old. ever since i was a small girl, everyone talked about how cute i was and how far i was honna go. about how extremely intelligent and talented i was. and i really was. i was an amazing writer, i won so many awards, i was a great cheerleader, amazing artist and track runner. i was a class clown. everyone really did love me. but what people didn’t know is that after school, i came home to a horrible household and was bullied every second that i was there. how much of a piece of shit […]
This is going to be really long but I’m going to keep it as short as possible. This is most of my life and most of my problems all in one. Â I’ve never told anyone all of this but I really need to get it all off my chest- Â so here it goes
So I’m  a 13 year old boy crazy girl. From the outsde I look like I have it all together. I’m that pretty popular cheerleader who looks like she has a lot of friends and guys like her. Sounds greatright? That girl isnt the real me. I’m falling apart.Im insecure. I feel fat […]
I’m 16
I’m a Junior in High school
I’m a cheerleader
A straight A student
A softball, basketball, and volley player
On color guard
Have great friends
An amazing boyfriend
I should be happy right?
I’m not
Why?
I have a secret
A secret that hurts me so bad
I don’t want to live
I was raped by my stepdad
from the time I was 9 until I turned 13
I feel dirty
I feel worthless
I feel responsible
I feel damaged
I feel broken
I feel ugly
I feel pain
But I keep smiling
Because I don’t know what else to do
I don’t tell that I cry myself to sleep every night
That I have nightmares
That I’m scared to be alone
That I want to die
My name is Whitney
I seem happy…..
Right?