I always feel like i shouldn’t be like that, that people have it worst then me and that i’m being depressed over stupid thing and ugh like that girl i just read about her past and looking at my life i’m having it the easy way so maybe i should just grown up and stop being a child cause everything is right, right? Maybe i should just forget about my depression cause other have it worst. I remember having a message from this anonymous guys telling me how i’m shit cause all the things that ever happen to me are baby scars and that other […]
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you could have been great.
but your mother is a poor adulterous whore
and your father is a cheating son of a child molester
and your step-mother is a vindictive ****
and you are a weak selfish bastard
nobody wants to see you succeed
I am not feary dragon
Then what I am, a muck
Time is the viscous
Life, it keeps going
Are you cosmic-obstructed
The veil of the tango
Only that I am, the pain
International angel, dying Beedrill
Dying Butterfree, never for me
Dragonyte, step in
Beautiful, child.
The chain, blood, I call
Phoenix-down, for me
I speak from the grave underground-style
Infiltrate, broadcast from dead-zero
Daemon exist in the world, my friend
Black-pirate, for the pierce
Gateway thirteen, behind
Something exist
Prologue, backward
Do you know what I mean
Degenerated X.
Here, here, I am the child, only here
How can, arcane, in a way, life beautiful
This is like the last song, so sad, in the end
The end, that ended so long ago
A pain of the eternal, what I want
Why me, the way, there is no way
Breathe
the people on here, this website, are true sufferers- they are drowning in poverty, surrounded by nothing but their own crushing thoughts and self-accusations. they have reason to scream and sob and choke on depression.
i am 16, popular, a brilliant student, a violin prodigy (slight hyperbole), an extrovert, horror movie addict. my parents are established- “dad” has a Ph.D, mom is a retail genius. we are upper-middle class, gorgeous home. i’m an only child so they shower money on me; where else will they dump their earnings?
the question to ask, then, is: am i allowed to be so sad? why should i have the right […]
“Mad World”
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head, I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
My life seems great looking from the outside in. I have a nice looking family with comfortable living expenses, three cars, and a nice house. But honestly my emotions have taken a toll on my life. Growing up I’ve stolen and lied numerous times and basically I’m just a terrible person. Some may say I deserve it.
Parents divorced, I live with my mom. And since then she’s been meaner and meaner, boyfriend by boyfriend. Now she’s married and doesn’t care for me. Being an asian parent, she’s abused me. Laying a hand on your own child is considered abuse even if it’s just a spank. […]
I want to be strong for my husband and my kids, but I don’t know how I can go on much longer. I have been sick for 2 years now, and no one knows what’s wrong with me. I’ve been in pain every day, and it’s making me a worse and worse person. When my husband and I first met he was so in love with me, and now he can’t stand me. He tells me that it’s not my fault and he loves me, but I can tell that he doesn’t. I’m just a burden to him. He won’t admit it but I can […]
So so tired. So so tired. So so very tired.
| Be still, child. Let nothing shaken your faith. You can get through this. I will be with you.
“But am I capable? Am I worthy? Can I help? How can I help? ” alas, I am but just a wandering soul.
Fall on me and I’ll support you.
But do I trust you enough? |
i had a stereotypical evil stepmom that hated me undercover for decades.
she did all the evil shit evil step-parents did
emasculated me constantly
framed me for destruction around the house (in addition to the regular mess a child makes)
did interesting food experiments on me (any one with cooking roots to a specific culture knows what im talking about)
and generally made me regret any supposed favor she would do for me
…
i thought when i finally started to hate her, that she would stop
she would regret making the child she raised hate her
but what i didnt know was that
she hated me first
she hated me for longer
she hated me more […]
I am sick of crying every day! big people don’t cry, right? Sick of it !!! Tired of all the BS. I really want to go on with my life I really do but something is always at the heart, major issue!!!! I have thought about suicide since I was a child and being molested by both parents….took my virginity…thanks Dad. I know, no one wants to hear about sexual & mental abuse, too uncomfortable, oh well, its out there every day !!!! The stats are highly under reported and disgusting. I moved to this apartment because there is a garage and that is a really […]
Age 11 found out life really isn’t that great,
Age 12 ran away from a rape,
Age 13 became less bright and cute,
Age 14 tried my very fist zoot,
Age 15 started drinking and became wild,
Age 16 got pregnant and lost my first child,
Age 17 tried to turn my life around,
Age 18 here I am soon to be buried deep into the ground.
No child should have to go through this, this is what leads to self-harm and suicide and worst of all depression.
I will sink all the way
But the now at eternal apex
God, I am so alone, abyss
Chained Minotaur in labyrinth
Behind the gates is whom that I seek
Shiva, oh godddess, you are the Queen
A bewildered child of hell in the scene
That nobody, that nobody knows, the pain
I just want to breathe, rectify Satan
Nobody sings
D_Binary
Damn, the high-end sound
And a deepest under
Severely developed
To my comrades, I lost it all
I am the Elephant-Whale
Defected nature has failed
Is it a game, it will continue
Flora and Fauna, run away
But so that I can come back
Can you fathom for me please
I am the backward and you the Sacred Clown
What can be done for the binary
Only with you does my story begin
Aquarius, the victim, what can
Rotting celebacy to replenish
Where are you, magic enchantress
Take me to […]
Joining the suicidal project not because I am suicidal God knows Iv’e never been ballzy enough to even atempt. However, these dark thoughts have haunted me and I’m completely lost in the problems of child hood and self demolition. I have became who I’ve never wanted to be like my father… and i am scared to be come what my biggest fear my mother. Anyways here I come , just another dark post.
“539 Everlast”
Spectral I will never arrive
But will you for me if you saw me
Does it but would it matter
The way that I come
Only my backside facing to you
I only want to look up to the sky
I was a natural prodigy at hockey
Super-Man all the way
The fresh air and trees, take me
That is all that I want
To look up and stare at the moon
The stars in the sky that you are
The imagery, child in beautiful room
I love toys and everything
Almost two weeks ago, my almost ex-husband killed himself. We were going through a divorce, which he didn’t want. It had gotten ugly because he was using our son as an emotional tool to hurt me. Our son is 11.
A policeman came to my work, took my in my office and told me to sit down. The officer told me that his brother had found his body. I had to tell our son that his father was dead. Funny thing is, although I was so sick of him, I seem to be having a harder time with this than my son is. I’m so angry. […]
Playstation, deep devastation
Manifestation, a true hell
Do you know what the darkness
The book, the story, supreme chain
The age and a child, blood of binary
My deteriorating rotting flesh
Sacred asphyxiation, spiritual cruxifiction
I wear a mask and I’m a goddamned pirate
The clay in the face, need to detoxify
Back seven years and purist in the sun
Who are you, what if you were I
Me, now, my unfathomable cape of suffer
Eternal, fated, I’m here to save the world
Can I burn a fire and you be the dynamite
Can I roll out tonight, in my white robe
Down under, gate thirteen
It was many and many a year ago,
In a Kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this Kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of Heaven,
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this Kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen […]
those of you who know the character in the play hamlet know what happens to her. it sort of sums up what is going on in my mind. as in i feel like i am losing it. the swing of emotions i am experiencing is exhausting. anger, deep sadness, tears that come from nowhere, and an urge to kill myself. while i am supposedly making progress by letting myself express these emotions, it is the unpredictability of the whole mess that is getting me. i have been suicidal since i was a child so of course that will emerge from the pit as well. i […]