Home Tags Posts tagged with "Clarity"
Tag:

Clarity

Clarity

by claritee
written by claritee

I finally realized that I’m depressed; and death enters my mind like a lost cat tiptoeing in my mind, giving a small purr. I’ve never been good at life. It feels like a job. Even when I was young, I wished for death. It’s strange hoping to die when you’re 10 years old.

I read Anne Sexton’s poetry all of the time, like they’re my words:

“Even then I have nothing against life. I know well the grass blades you mention, the furniture you have placed under the sun. But suicides have a special language. Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why […]

Continue Reading
1 comment
0 Email

Mother may I?

by OffWithHerHead
written by OffWithHerHead

I saw my mum for the first time in a few weeks today. She turned to me and said all she has in the world is me, my brother and her husband, but that I was her rock. She’s been going through her own trouble, battling her own demons for a long time. Little did she know her rock was crying down the phone to the Samaritans last night, that I was crying down the phone just to feel something. How can I ever tell her that I want to die? How can I tell her that every day I smash up my sanity just […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

There’s no winning.

by WoundedSoul
written by WoundedSoul

Well, I finally found my first relationship, at the age of 26. It really did help me to find peace. It’s actually been really nice to have the first time in my life, and I mean this entirely literally, that I didn’t think about suicide every single day. It slowly drifted back, a little, but only just barely, and only just a few time every couple of weeks or so. It hasn’t been terrible. I have realized some things, that I had already considered, but I am far too old a soul for all these senseless children. My boyfriend, and just for the sake of […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

Empty

by InsideTheClockwork
written by InsideTheClockwork

I feel like everyone has a sob story or what some might call a good reason. “I’m insecure” or “I’m depressed” or “I’m abused”. That’s all sad and really painful and I get why you might just want to give up.
The thing with me is: I don’t even have any of that. It was a slow process, but at the same time it happened in the blink of an eye; a rush of clarity for me.
There’s nothing for me here. There never will be. Nothing had to happen to convince me of it, because I think I’ve always known.
Nothing ever feels right. […]

Continue Reading
4 comments
0 Email

My Room

by JustTooLate
written by JustTooLate

Deafening echoes reverberate off the walls.
Walls painted black by years of neglect.
Walls forming a very small room.
With a floor made of long-lost dreams and aspirations.
No door.
No window.
No light.
Beautiful.

In the center of the room, I sit.
Unable to think clearly.
Why is it so loud?
I only need a moment of peace.
What I wouldn’t give for a moment of peace.
Unable to open my eyes, for fear of what I might see.
And when I finally muster the courage, I wish that I hadn’t.

Filth.
That’s all I see around me.
People living meaningless lives.
Blissfully ignorant.
Secure in their […]

Continue Reading
0 comment
0 Email

DON’T TRY AND FIX IT!!!

by Nolentwohundred
written by Nolentwohundred

So far, society has made an attempt to “fix me” with non-applicable laws, jesus, Zoloft and a host of other inventions to keep the masses from free-thinking. I guess society was hoping that one of these things would “take hold”, but I’ve had too long to think for myself. I’ve had an epiphany. I’m not the one who’s FU(K!NG BROKEN! Now I’m a problem. I feel justified in my thoughts and actions. I cannot be easily controlled. I question everything. I insist on relying on my own research and take nothing at face value. This is […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email

Poetry Cleanse #5: If only…

by subtle_bloodstains
written by subtle_bloodstains

White roses scatted over the frozen ground
Snow falling disguising the beauty
Silence in this small corner of the world
Peace at last

Laughing and racing through the purity
Anxious for the end
Reaching it she finally sees
And regrets immediately
There is no way to forget

Wishing to un-know
As the first flickers of pain
Burn her consciousness

Unable to stop moving
She sprints through this forest
Evergreen towers judge her from above
And the day slowly fades

Her ivory gown flaps dissonantly behind
Like the wings of a mangled sky-beast
Her breath comes rapidly
As the torment closes in
There is no way to escape

Wishing to un-know

Continue Reading
2 comments
0 Email

Worst years of my life

by afewyearsback
written by afewyearsback

As my username suggests, this story is from a few years back, but I think that it’s worth sharing. And yes, this is lengthy, but I’m very sure that it’s worth the read.

This was probably the worst I had felt in weeks, life just wasn’t working out for me. I was stressed under mountains of homework, stuck singing in a choir that I hated that controlled my life and I had no social life. I didn’t know how to deal or cope with stress at all. A week prior to that day, I kept writing in this one notebook:

“Tell somebody, tell somebody”

It was the last […]

Continue Reading
5 comments
0 Email

by patrick1
written by patrick1

Hello to all readers,

I am an aussie uni student and am researching the topic of suicide for a presentation tomorrow. I have read many of the posts submited to try and gain some insight into the topic and could’nt help but feel so deeply saddened by what I’ve come across. Saddened mainly because many of the people that have submitted posts appear to all have one thing in common. That is that they seem to feel that they are less worthy of life and happiness than others. Happiness is not designed to be complicated and illusive. Everyone is entitled to be here, that is why you are here in the […]

Continue Reading
3 comments
0 Email