contemplating death

To kill oneself or to not kill oneself? That is one hell of a question.

I’m stuck in the middle my own indecisiveness. On one hand I don’t want to hurt those I think I love but at the same time I don’t know if I can continue. I just have this empty feeling all the time. I constantly doubt those I know ‘love’ me. Everything is just so tiring.

I’m scared I won’t succeed then have to face the consequences.

Maybe I want someone to ask me directly. Then I could tell them but I know they won’t do […]