its been a while since ive been online. not a lot has happened. but im getting worst. me and my bf broke up, and there is this girl i just wanna kill. me and my best friend are fighting and ive got no sleep in about a week. im going crazy. i run away a lot during the day and sometimes at night. i think about death more and more. i just wanna die. before they were just thoughts but now it is serious. self harm- if i cut my wrist and hope to hit a vein, it will take hours of painful death until […]
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I think I’ve officially lost my fucking mind. When someone that I love doesn’t talk to me for an hour or I haven’t heard from them in like a day I will make up this whole story in my head that something’s happened. I will actually talk to myself and feel the actually pain that I’ve lost them. For example I’m freaking out now because my boyfriend hasn’t talked to me since last night and he’s not online. I have made up this whole story that I’m going to eventually call his phone and his mom is going to answer and tell me he died in a car accident […]
so i just found out one of my close friends and also my crush, ran away due to bullying and his depression and then commited suicide. cut his wrist 6 times and then hang himself. i will miss him so much. my heart breaks each day. he was my inpersation and my help. we made sure we both ate and that we didnt self harm. thanks to him i had survived from suicide and i started eating but now that he has gone i have lost my hope. i wish i had seen this coming so i could save him. i loved him i now […]
I’m sick of being everyone’s second choice – everyone’s shoulder to cry on.
You can’t use me when it’s convenient for you.
I feel like I was born and bred to be a shoulder to cry on… And I spend almost all my time alone trying to comfort myself.
If anyone needs a shoulder to cry on, I guess I’m here… Here to be convenient for you. I know you won’t appreciate it, but you’re welcome.
You know I’m going to be here, even when I don’t want to be. Because I’m predictable.
🙂
I.. um .. i went in to a fight with the boy i like , because i was having a bad day , and i called him a jerk  … now he’s not talking to me , AT ALL . I had a big fight with my mom…. she hates me , she sayd i should go out , and drink myself till I die …. i feel so small …. i feel .. alone . :’c
I’m sorry for existing … because i really , really don’t want to hurt anybody … but … i cant stand this anymore .. I hate this , […]
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