oh no …

I.. um .. i went in to a fight with the boy i like , because i was having a bad day , and i called him a jerk  … now he’s not talking to me , AT ALL . I had a big fight with my mom…. she hates me , she sayd i should go out , and drink myself till I die …. i feel so small …. i feel .. alone . :’c
I’m sorry for existing … because i really , really don’t want to hurt anybody … but … i cant stand this anymore .. I hate this , i hate it .. this life I’m living , is soo f*cked . I’m gonna cut tonight , i know it … I’m soo sure that I’m gonna cut ,that i wont even lie .. all i have is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ECsaasfS-A this song , and 1 friend , who’s helping me wright now, it’s not helping , but she can try if she want’s to ….
I hate it , i hate this life , i hate this moment , i hate this day  , i hate the future , i hate hurting myself , i hate crying , i hate that i’m so weak ….. I HATE THIS .