Ok, so this is really weird but, like, I really miss being able to cry. Like I started meds about 7 months ago and since then, I’ve been unable to have a really good cry regularly. It feels like I’m on the edge of a breakdown and I really hate this feeling. Like, I kinda want to go back to last year when I was crying almost every day because at least then I had some way of releasing whatever I was feeling. Like, now my only way of releasing my emotions when I can’t draw or write is through self harm but even that […]
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Cutting Self Harm
I have been 9 months clean as of this week and the temptation has never been worse
by bbt
written by bbt
So the last time I cut myself was early in March and I have not had a time since then that I’ve wanted to as much as right now. I threw all my razors away and have not bought any new ones since but each day I have the urge to go out and buy new ones. I self harm when I hate myself and it just seems to be more and more apparent to me that I don’t like who I am. I’ve already slipped into the habit of my old eating disorder, I go to university so it is not like anyone monitors […]
(Just disjointed thoughts on a subject… that usually helps me cope… to overthink something into utter boredom…)
yes`, why?
I have been on and off with cutting myself since I was roughly 19. I managed without cutting myself for a period of months and then fall right back into the habit. But it is not only cutting as I noticed. Slapping, punching, intentionally ingesting harmful substances, or just plain ‘ol verbal abuse by downgrading everything and anything I do… are things I have been doing since early childhood, but why do I do it?
some People say “it’s just because you want attention” .
A doctor I spoke to […]
I get the feeling that you need something for security, as in cutting/self harm, something that indicates that your still alive. I am not going to sugarcoat this, because for people throw a pity party for themselves. Even if your going through something, because we all do, you are the author of your own fate. “But my mom/dad/both don’t care about me. I did that because of what they did to me.†Like I said, it’s up to you with what you do with your life, don’t let other people influence how you walk down your own path. If you do drugs, alcohol, smoke, don’t […]