I’ve been clean for so long, I haven’t cut in over a year and it feels good. But the feelings won’t go away, they’ll never go away. At times I feel better, at times I feel so happy, and then it comes crashing down again. Thoughts, thinking, I know it’s a gift for us to be able to think unlike other beings, but I don’t want to be left alone with mine. They take me to dangerous places. Once they start, they never stop. It gets so out of hand, and I have thoughts of cutting again. Only sheer willpower stops me. This desire of […]
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If i could find the courage to kill myself, this is what my death message will say!! ver.1.0
I decided that I didn’t want to be a sufferer any more and took on this terrible selfishness that is probably hurting you right now! The selfishness took over me and I couldn’t get over feeling sorry for my broke life. I don’t want you guys to feel sorry for me, because I don’t deserv it for selfishly killing myself, and maybe hurting you in the long run!! I am sorry that you had encountered me in your life for why I terribly just killed my self! Please […]
I haven’t cared what has happened to me for years now. I have been living with this silent recklessness, if that’s what you want to call it, for far too long. I will stand in the middle of the highway hoping someone with change lanes and i will get caught in the cross fire, i go for walks in the middle of the night into the dangerous places in town in the hope that i will be ‘in the wrong place at the wrong time’ and get shot for seeing something or just provoking someone. I don’t use my brakes properly in the car, i […]