If i could find the courage to kill myself, this is what my death message will say!! ver.1.0
I decided that I didn’t want to be a sufferer any more and took on this terrible selfishness that is probably hurting you right now! The selfishness took over me and I couldn’t get over feeling sorry for my broke life. I don’t want you guys to feel sorry for me, because I don’t deserv it for selfishly killing myself, and maybe hurting you in the long run!! I am sorry that you had encountered me in your life for why I terribly just killed my self! Please at all cost, don’t sped money on any funeral for me, I don’t want that! Please just cremate me and set me free from this world I hate! Sell all the stuff I did temporary owned for the time I existed on this earth and sell it to get rid of my carcass! If my mom wanted me buried, then let her have her way! She and josh put me into the world, they can do what ever with my dead carcass and sell my organs to help other people… beware though…, my organs may carry depressed memory cells, so I don’t know if that’s a good idea! If God does exist, I grew over the years hating him!, Though, I don’t think this Universal Caring God ever existed, but truthfully I am Agnostic, so you don’t have to pray for me. No matter how hard I tried to help myself out of the un-ambitious dogmatic brain I had, I just couldn’t seem to change and help my self, & sadly no one was meant by nature to help specifically me!! (sorry but that’s just what I believed and seen!.. It is evidence too, or else I would have not been dead at this time on earth) I thought long and hard over the years of suicide once I became free of the “Conditional Loving God Eternal Hell”, and I just don’t fear death! I wasn’t afraid of walking in dangerous places at night, and hoping some killer would find me! I hated my body/mind and my life! I felt like I wasn’t accomplishing anything… I truly hated my self! I never had the desire or ability to look in a mirror to tell my self that “I love me”! Anyways enough of ME writhing about my self… Good Bye and please due your best to forget about me… I didn’t mean to hurt you intentionally though I’m sure I did hurt you… Take Care (don’t be like me) (You are You)
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I agree with everything you say there, i hope you don’t go through with it but you are not the only one in this terrible situation…
Hard to write good-byes. Thanks for sharing. I hope you understand what we call death is not an end, but a return to non-physical. Many people are struggling with existing at this time. It’s a tough time to be in the world. Pat yourself on the back for journeying. It’s your choice when to say ‘okay, this is enough’…all that exists truly in the universe is unconditional love and light. Being in a body in the 3rd dimension is a challenge for sure.
Transition back to the non-physical and all death is suicide no matter how it comes about. So go easy on yourself. I used to get myself all worked up at the thought of ‘killing myself’ but it’s our understanding of death that needs clarifying. You will continue on and receive support and help. I encourage you to believe this…it certainly can only help amidst the circumstances. If you do it, do it for love of yourself and to relieve and release yourself from pain into peace. This will help you in the process. Good luck, and take care.