Don’t care about hope, will, or any other hopeful feeling. If u have the desire then u will do it. Despite what others think I’m done here. And here is my idea. With wolfs bane or monkshood mixed with belladonna and your favorite tea. How you decide to take it is your choice. Remember if you want it natural then be smart and make sure all evidence is destoryed. Pre make and then throw rest away. No letter but make sure you have the best day of your life. Do not be dramatic. Wash cup well or soak. I suggest put on dishwasher and turn […]
I am young, (13 almost 14) and I know I should be weird with my emotions. I have suicidal thoughts all of the time. I cry for no reason, suffer from insomnia, and have constant headaches with no medical reasoning. I’ve taken tests online, searched up the symptoms of depression, and all that stuff, and I am sure that I have it. I was okay until I broke my ankle (like a month ago, still have the cast today) where I got a lot worse. Now I just want to die, no matter what. I’ve been so close to trying to drown myself, and while […]
Twists turns my stomache aches i sweats my thoughts race. Mental torture my mind feels dull dry and overheated and robotlike.
As the same everyday routine goes by you lose track of the days things become blirry and numb.
Yes it has become a chore to laugh. It feels so fake. Its hard to genuinly enjoy any moment.
I am a slave to the dishwasher, weve become quite close we bond at least 3 times aday.
Spending time with it seems to be a highlite of my day. Yes its helpful and i feel good about doing it but when thats the only thig you do day […]
I don’t even know why I’m writing this, I guess because I have nothing else to do. I’m almost 22, graduating from a community college this semester, jobless, and still living with my parents. I just feel fucking pointless though.
I say graduating, but I know that’s only if I can actually make it through these 2 classes I’m taking. I can’t study, I never want to, all I want to do is just waste my life away on video games, so I don’t have to think about my current life. I’m still living at my parents house, and not to brag but they are decently […]
Once when wanting to die I got ememensely drunk. Left what I couldn’t drink of my pay check on the bar and walked till I found a woods and found a wood pile and buried myself at the bottom. I didn’t want to die in a sudden gory way that was definitive. The worst on the people that knew me is that they would occassionally wonder where in the world I might be. The best is some wild life would have a good feast.
It would have made things easier now if I hadn’t woken up with the solitary need to get warm. I have been catapulted […]
Dedicated to anyone who thinks about it- I understand- but it is not the answer.
I have been up for hours and am exhausted before the clock strikes eight. I eye the sink full of dirty items while the dishwasher lies four inches to the left. The house is silent and soon I know the air will be filled with anger.
Walking outside I water the just planted begonias, knowing full well once I leave they will die; much like the limited peace that lies between the walls. I […]
So after I made that post, I had trouble actually falling asleep, so I watched an episode or two of Futurama. It`s a pretty good show, I would recommend it. Anyway after I finally eventually got to sleep, I had a pretty fucked up dream. Though people dream every night, I (they) rarely remember my (their) dreams. I guess this was one that stuck out.
The first thing I remember was going into this smaller type of sort of `home` restaurant (I guess..) and asking for a job. This woman (Maybe..) in her 50`s ish told me that there was already a dishwasher and didn`t need […]