Twists turns my stomache aches i sweats my thoughts race. Mental torture my mind feels dull dry and overheated and robotlike.
As the same everyday routine goes by you lose track of the days things become blirry and numb.
Yes it has become a chore to laugh. It feels so fake. Its hard to genuinly enjoy any moment.
I am a slave to the dishwasher, weve become quite close we bond at least 3 times aday.
Spending time with it seems to be a highlite of my day. Yes its helpful and i feel good about doing it but when thats the only thig you do day in an day out life looses meaning.
I feel so spoiled and wasted to have good standards of life but to waste them with my lack ofhappynress. Well i guess i hshouldnt feel this way.
The day i am adjusted will be the happiest day of my life.
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I hear you. Have you consulted a medical professional? Anti-depressants were created for people like you and me. They don’t answer everything. I’m going broke, facing 69, have a family that thinks I should get a job at Walmart, even though they have plenty of money and have never worked at Walmart.
Medication can help, but, like I said, does not solve everything. Hey, cats are much more cuddly than dishwashers. Dogs too. They’ve saved my life more than once.
Im on prozac i think its helping my mood..but nothing significant..As for cats and dogs my family doesnt do so its a no go 🙁