Halloween sucked. Considering none of my friends wanted to hang out with me and I was left at home with no one to talk to. Now this Christmas I will be suffering under the same situation but with more sleepless nights and unforgiving depression than ever before. My family is going to Disney, the most happiest place on earth or so when it’s with those you love and care about you (my definition of it). Another vacation ruined by our “family friends” and my family’s lack of consideration for how I feel. Another anxiety driven plane ride after the other. “You’ll understand it when we […]
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The walls of this house haunt me…They reflect every memory and mistake. As a child, the pictures on the walls, made me feel lucky. Like I was truly loved. Sooner than a young child should, I learned they were the mask, the mask over an unhappy home. The pictures scream at me… Telling me, remember before? When you were innocent and things were simple… They also tell me, keep up this bravado, be strong even when the mirror breaks you down, when every word from her mouth is trashing you.
But.. in all honesty I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO BE BRAVE, putting up […]
So I was talking to someone the other day and she said that writing letters to people helped her get over her hatred and depression…so yea. I’m gonna write a few letters….
Some of them might be vicious, others may be gracious and kind…but we’ll see after I write them.
Dear Austin,
It’s been 8 months since we started dating.
Remember in the beginning, how it was so easy and carefree? We were on the top of the world. No one could stop us…but of course, they tried. When they told us we couldn’t be together, we did it anyway.
And now look at the trouble we’re […]
Hello there!~
I decided to post a message to those thinking about committing suicide or depressed. Hopefully I’m not breaking any rules.
So I also recently wanted to commit suicide. But now I don’t,after I talked to my mom and realized something. I told this message to another person who was thinking about suicide and it helped make that person to no longer wanting too.
Life is hard sometimes. Life can even be a b**** at times! But you gotta pull through!
I know it seems like there no one out there for you, but think. There is at least ONE person out there who really does love you! If you were gone from the earth, how would […]
My note
I made a stupid decision.  I know it’s selfish, and I’m doing it for the stupidest reason.  I can’t help how I feel.  I have felt like this for a long time.  If you want to know why, Jackie has the full story.  She knows me better than anyone else.
To my mom and dad
I love both of you very much.  You were amazing parents.  I loved going to disney world.  I loved going to mexico.  I loved going on bike rides with you dad.  I grew distant from both of you, and i don’t entirely know why.  Over the past few years, I’ve […]