I can’t help but repeatedly imagine slowly sawing my face off with a broken bathroom razor. I have felt so disgusting lately. Every time I look in the mirror I can see myself picking up a dull razor and pushing it into my disgusting face and hacking away at the mess.
I never understood how people felt better after self harming themselves. I didn’t understand how pain could make one feel better. Even though I’ve been so depressed I always told myself I would never hurt myself.
Lately I’ve felt on edge, and just an hour ago I couldn’t take it. Whenever I feel like I can’t take anymore, I imagine myself running away or scratching/ripping my face off. I will usually end up scratching my face a bit but today I felt like I was going absolutley crazy just keeping all this in and none of it getting better. I started pulling my hair and violently scratching […]
I decided yesterdaythat I need to practice beinq hunry cause I plan to runaway when I have enouqh money to by a bus ticket.I’m a veqetarian and yesterday I went over to my friend’s house,he was qrillinq hamburqers.I was starvinq s bad that I would’t ate three burqers!!Instead I went home to eta my face off!I felt bad.I started not eatinq aqain,different reason now.I said to myself why don’t I starve my self to death!qood Idea huh?I’m kinda happy that If I continue this Ill be qone:)but damn I’m starvinq,this Is hard!I want pizza and hot fries so feakinq bad!What do yall think?Is this Is […]
Recently I met a girl at College and we got on really well. A couple weeks passed and I felt like we were getting closer. She moaned about her ex a lot but I thought that was quite normal for girls to do that? She’s the first girl I’ve really spoken to for about 3 years and certainly the first I’ve had feelings for for a very long time. I actually felt alive again. We speak a lot outside of college and text a lot as well. I planned on asking her to do something socially tomorrow at college. It was a weird feeling…. Kind […]
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