I’ve officially just failed my family and God and everything else in between. I don’t deserve a single second I’m awake.
I feel like I’m just full of hot air, everytime I get to the bottom of the bottom I can’t seem to end it. I tell myself alright you ***** you tried once and failed but you know what they say try and try again. I believe that maybe there is something keeping me here but lately its getting harder to believe myself.
I didn’t successfully attempt my suicide last night. I had my beers and accidentally got too drunk, threw up, and fell asleep. I have all of the basic materials to complete my task. A bag and rope for restraint, is what its come down too. I’ve tried so many methods in the past that I clearly failed at. I’m so disappointed that I’m even writing this now and not just murdering myself.
I just need the sheer willpower to withstand the agony involved with asphyxiation. I’ll have it soon..
I use to think of myself being better than anyone else.But it aint worth it if u don’t prove it to the society, i realized it recently that I am the biggest failure and not a trust worthy person. in these past few weeks i have done so many regrettable things.1) i took money without asking my parents 2)I have failed my classes and coursework which my father went through a lot to get a seat in that college 3) i failed my group in completing the coursework, which ruined the relation between my best friend and me. so i had to talk with my father about this the first […]
I’m set on my plan to end things but one thing that i have always wondered with overdoses …. tried many times and failed but what are peoples opinions, lots in one go or drag it out so to speak so a few and often? Just wondered what people found as I always end up being sick even with anti sickness tablets :/ it’s one thing that has always puzzled me, not od’ing this time but something that has played on my mind since last attempt
I’ve attempted many times to better myself and failed. I’ve been an active person in the community, some failed jobs, and I’ve allowed alcohol to come into my life not knowing what would happen. I’ve tried sucide before but it didn’t work. And since then the feelings come back every now and then. Feelings of resentment, bitterness, hate and low self/family/community worth. And now I’m in debt, unemployed and taking up space. I’ve applied for an apprenticeship program and I hope it goes well so I can get back on my own two feet again. Thanx.
I failed my second quarter of college. I failed my parents. I failed my siblings. I failed myself. The fact that I actually tried. Like I really tried.. to see F … F … F … on my transcript just made me sick to my stomach. It’s like a waste of time, money, mental health. I’m subject for disqualification now and I don’t know how to handle this. I’ve never failed a class before. Let alone THREE all at once. I have no one to blame but myself.
If you failed at attempting suicide, did you try again? and why?
The feeling of failing a suicide attempt is excruciating because you feel worthless for not being able to kill yourself, which only pushes you to want to attempt again. Each time you fail, your need to die only grows and grows, and it feels like torture.
How do you tell the ones you love that you are suicidal? That every day you need to make a conscious decision? You have a stash of painkillers ready for the moment? That going to the mental ward again doesn’t solve the chronic physical pain? How do you reach out after so many failed “cures? “
I have come to a realisation about myself. I have realised i am beyond my own control. I usto think that I could rule my mind with an iron fist, that i could stop the darkness, with nothing but my will. It vexed me, Oh how it vexed me when i failed but then i realised something. I realised the reason i failed was because i was not ment to succeed. Why would i be ment to change what and who I am?
I have faught the darkness in me for far too long. Now i realise i was never ment to fight it, I […]
I’ve failed myself, once again.
Two weeks ago, I threw away my blades, and said “This time, I’m stopping”.
I didn’t cut for two weeks. I snapped bands against my wrists until my skin turned purple, and dug dents into my skin with my nails, but I didn’t cut.
I went to the store today and bought a new straight edge razor.
I cut myself.
I gave up.
I don’t think I can do this anymore…
Well guys just an update , I failed my finals been crying , I put my all into and failed but my teacher saw my potential and giving me a make-up …….hopefully I pass the make up test ……I just totes sad tonight *sad face * and tomorrow is valentines day and I still can’t even see my boyfriend oh well , plus everyone in my class calls me a demon and it’s pissing me off been thinking abt mass murder but I know that wrong but just been keeping to myself a lot .
Love Allie
xoxoxo
I am depressed  and want to die  I have tried Prozac and Lexapro  i am planning to die by Oxycontin overdose i took oxy before not in overdose and I havent  been active on the website for a while and my suicide attempt with sleeping pills failed
been in this site about a week readin and readin the stories… i’ve been depressed for 6 months and now i’m runnin out of resources to get my mind out it, since i’ve already failed in everythin n developin panic/anxious attacks isn’t helpin. or might be… actually the attacks are gettin a full mixed of emotions and desperate livin/dyin feelings. i just dont know whats real anymore… takin even more pills to get to sleep but every single minute dreamin about humiliantin/powerfull evil forces (not like ghosts or somethin) comin to me and makin the few people that i love suffer. i wake up with […]
I tried to impress you but I failed that’s my best skill is being a failure. I’ve been depressed for months because of you and there was no point in the end. I’m sorry I gave up love but you made me promise to and I can’t keep going.
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