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Ghost on the Street

by Matt 3/1/2015

written by Matt

An angel in the darkness.

A demon of the lamplight.

From shadow to shadow I lurch and I hide.

I’ve lost my identity.

I’ve lost my bearings.

I’m afraid of this beast down deep inside.

I don’t like leaving the house anymore. It’s become a chore and I hate it.

But I did leave. And I went far. Over 100 miles.

And I saw you. But you didn’t see me. I was right in front of you. You walked right passed me.

You looked right at me. You looked right through me.

I could have reached out and touched you. I could have reached out and snapped your neck.

None of you saw me. I wasn’t […]

3/1/2015 0 comment

Am I the only that get trapped by hope, thinking that, soon, all’s gonna be ok and then realize that it’s not, that it’s just gonna be worse? I wish I had the balls to end my life and leave far away from this hell. But I’m staying, I’m thinking that it’s worth waiting and then, I’m suffering more, I take a razor and put it in my flesh. As I watch the blood out of my skin with colds eyes, I’m wondering when do will I commit suicide. Right now, I want it but I can’t. Hope is what making me stay but it’s […]

2/7/2015 2 comments

Any Depression Buddies NJ

by foxtrotz 2/7/2015

written by foxtrotz

I have been in mental anguish , agony for far too long. I don’t care you’re age or gender or even locale. I just want someone to talk about anything and everything. Maybe , we could help each other. I’ve been holding on for 7 years.

Email foxtrotz at aol

Bobby

2/7/2015 4 comments

Selfishly Wandering

by DimikaBelikov 2/6/2015

written by DimikaBelikov

Do you ever just stop and think that maybe you are being too selfish? Then you turn around and realize that you know nothing about yourself because you let your acts towards others define who you think you are? I was asked today, by a wonderful friend of mine, what I wanted to do with my life. Where I wanted to go to college, and what career path that I wanted to take. I answered the college because that has been a map of mine that I have followed for a couple of years, but I cannot for the life of me, think about what […]

2/6/2015 3 comments

Sweet Stranger

by theforgottenfew 1/23/2015

written by theforgottenfew

Oh Suicide Project,
That sweet stranger that I think of so often but visit far less. It has been ages and I fear I’ve locked away all these real emotions again. Alas, I will be back for the time because you are the only silent friend I can seek out for comfort and solace.
Until next time,
TheForgottenFew

1/23/2015 0 comment

I want to protect my brother

by Melancholic 1/23/2015

written by Melancholic

Hello,

I am a girl that now lives a life like any other citizen and do not have any particular horrible family problem — so far, at least. But I have kept on noticing how my brother seems to be mistreated in the house, as I on the other hand kept on being spoiled and cooed with by my parents. I keep thinking it’s very, very unfair for me to have such attention and for him to always be frowned at.

What makes me think he is mistreated is because every single time he voices his opinions, my father and mother both would reply with […]

1/23/2015 2 comments

Thank-you, thank you very much ladies n germs, such a warm-welcome. You’re beautiful, very-sweet, very-generous, gracious. I am indeed honored… to be here on this wonderful program. Of course I must warn you, one must be prepared for a totally unprepared program… ’cause

by Bisban 1/19/2015

written by Bisban

It’s weird, man
But I know, more than enough
You know what I mean
Sherry came to my house, yesterday
Christians, with her elder Asian friend
While I was resuscitating my, prayers
Like a climax, just in my zone of an unknown
So I open the door and it was just strange
At the end of the conversation, she asked if she could come back
And I was like, “Na, I’m just, too far away”
Seemingly disappointed quickly leaves
If they just knew the rendered, that they don’t know
Don’t come to my sacred, house, when I’m dying like that
But hey, I know the […]

1/19/2015 4 comments

The Paradox of People

by dreamsinwhichimdying 1/18/2015

written by dreamsinwhichimdying

I’ve found a recurring theme in myself and other depressed/suicidal people, which I’ve found extremely interesting. You want people close to you, but at the same time, you want them as far away as possible. When I sit alone at lunch, I keep looking at my friends, silently willing them to come over, but at the same time, feeling happy that they stay away. I keep looking at my phone, desperately hoping for a text, glad that it never comes. I want my friends to help me, but then I remember that none of them can. I don’t know, I just think it’s curious.

1/18/2015 8 comments

Atlantic-Galactic

by Bisban 1/18/2015

written by Bisban

Ultimatum
The Leo, Constellation
Is it the Monarch, Butterfly
This is for me and you too, Oracle
Do you want to assist my path, like warriors
For the healing, pilgrimage
I’ve sought all the possibilities
From the church to, the next
This is it, this is it, collaboration
Fortification, of the golden, Kings and Queens
Do you want to assist my path, like warriors
I’m the only that is so far, away

1/18/2015 1 comment

Sorry

by brady_851 1/5/2015

written by brady_851

I’ve been posting a lot lately today, sorry. I was just wondering if anyone still wanted to hear my poetry. Before people said they wanted to hear it but idk anymore so comment and tell me. Sorry for wasting your time. If you haven’t read my story, it’s not far down the page (there are 2 parts) so feel free. Thanks for taking your time to read my posts. I’m really struggling.

1/5/2015 2 comments

This is it.

by three.moons 12/23/2014

written by three.moons

I have health issues starting, now that I’m 52, which as far as I’m concerned, mean I will be alone the rest of my life. What’s sad is that I’m still somewhat attractive and in pretty good shape but I will not be w/ someone if I’m falling apart physically, I won’t do it. I just lost my Big Love 7 months ago and don’t expect to find anyone else I want anyway but in the last few weeks have noticed health things going on that as far as I’m concerned, seal the deal — alone forever now.

And I am not happy about it. As […]

12/23/2014 9 comments

It is dark and getting darker by the moment

by phly1990 12/15/2014

written by phly1990

I am writing from a deep dark hole. I do not feel that my life is worth living. I am depressed because I have worked all year, and now that Christmas is here, I have no money to spend on my family for Christmas presents. I spent all of my hard earned money paying bills – medical and dental bills, car repair and insurance.

My employer is a remorseless entity. They work you to death,pay you nothing and treat you like dirt. I have tried but am unable to fins another employer. I feel so guilty. I have no friends to share my experiences with. My […]

12/15/2014 3 comments

life’s a punishment

by nowornever 11/21/2014

written by nowornever

I am here just to ask one simple thing for the ones who’ve tried it. Can we live (if not happily,somehow keep breathing without killing oneself ) all alone? I mean by isolating oneself from everyone we know. Is it worth living or breathing would just be a waste of time? Going to a far off distance,leaving everyone behind and off to such a place where nobody knows you. Just to earn your bread and somehow live.I am a girl from the eastern part of the world so my problem wouldn’t make sense to most of you. All my life people have compared me with […]

11/21/2014 5 comments

A little speed up

by K1T3 11/18/2014

written by K1T3

Since suicide by starvation alone takes a considerable amount of time, ive decided to drink smal doses of anti freeze mixed into my gatorade, i posted yesterday stating i was beginning the starvation process but ive actually been on it for 5 days so far including today. ive gone fr 170lbs to 161lbs so far and feel like death figuratively, but thats probably due to taking my anti anxiety meds without food. Like many of you i wanted the least painful way to go. I dont suggest these methods. i will update with how the antifreeze affects my body in a couple of days.

11/18/2014 7 comments

sorry

by cathy arsis 11/18/2014

written by cathy arsis

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/A-Change-Is-Gonna-Come-Sam-Cooke-1963-from-YouTube-by-Offliberty.mp3

i just cant anymore. today is the last….90 ambien 100 otc sleeping pills….i just can’t……i’m so so sorry.i really did try. but i cant i told you before i was afraid i’ve gone so far afield i was afraid i wouldn’t be able to find myself again….well i cant……i’m so sorry. i know this is gonna leave behind a big hurt and i’m sorry

11/18/2014 9 comments

Hope its time

by Destined_to_end_it 11/16/2014

written by Destined_to_end_it

I took 4.5mg of synthroid a little over 2 hours ago, I sure hope this works but all I have noticed thus far is a headache. I sure hope it starts to do something soon because I don’t want anyone to witness my death. Really wanted it to be over already…

11/16/2014 5 comments

“You’re dead to me”

by FakeImportance 11/2/2014

written by FakeImportance

That’s what I was told. By my own father. I’m only 17.

It makes me wonder then, would he actually feel sadness if I died? I sort of want to put it to the test, but what if that’s just depression screaming at me?

I’m surprisingly calm about this. I’ve been endlessly suicidal recently and I’ve given myself time to come to terms with the fact that maybe I don’t want a future.

Oh, I don’t know really… I think I’ve hit the most agonising rockbottom so far and I don’t think I can pull myself up from this one.

11/2/2014 1 comment

All Saints Day

by RealTalk30 11/1/2014

written by RealTalk30

After the dawn has come, and the moon no longer crest..the shadows on the walls still don’t seem to rest. Could be a day to forgive angels and saints..but the blood I’ve drawn is purely symbols for the pain.. and though it seems these ghosts should rest..they wait in the corner for me like a silence breaking breath.. take a single breath, followed by a three..double back to gasp for more, while choking down a fourth, and a fifth.. a day I won’t be fighting for..a day that won’t be missed..
Bring the morning sun, as to show I’m not too far.. far away from […]

11/1/2014 2 comments

I’m so far down, away from the sun again

by bornfordying123 10/28/2014

written by bornfordying123

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPOeLX4B55s

10/28/2014 0 comment

With This Knife

by Deleted.from.society 10/21/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

“With This Knife”

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how i try i don’t know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

With this knife i’ll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife i’ll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can’t believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million […]

10/21/2014 0 comment

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