im awfully depressed and lonely so if anyone else feels the same heres my email: cinderlilah2@gmail.com I know it’s a stupid email – don’t judge me, I made it when I was nine. So yeah, please talk to me.
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Do you see how much I need you right now?
You’re the one that I love and I’m saying goodbye.
Will you let her go?
You lift me up just so I fall.
I wish you were here.
I’m barely hanging on.
I learned to live, half alive.
Just one chance, just one breath; Just in case there’s one left.
No you don’t know what it’s like.
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do.
Songs: When You’re Gone, Say Something, Let Her Go, Reckless Heart, Wish You Were Here, Behind Those Hazel Eyes, Jar of Hearts, Far Away, Welcome To My Life, The Reason
It’s kind of a funny story
Time: 1hr 41 min
Rating: PG 13
Category: Comedy, Drama
Starring; Keir Gilchrist, Zach Galifianakis, Emma Roberts
Craig is a high school boy who wants to commit suicide. He has many things that made him attempt to. He loves his best friend’s girlfriend, Nia. Craig also feels that his mother is too sensitive and his father always says the wrong things at the wrong times. Craig as a teenage boy needs his parents. He always feels that he is not smart enough. His expectations are not realistic. If he does not go to summer school it does not mean […]
I don’t feel like I’m in a good place right now. I don’t really remember ever feeling any particularly strong feelings towards anything, even when I have achieved something I wanted. Anything I would have considered a victory feels hollow.
I feel like I want to become close to somebody, I can picture myself talking to someone where we both know everything about each other and yet we pass no judgements. This could be because we know that we are in what is effectively a M.A.D situation and any sort of point scoring we could hope to achieve about each other could be instantly negated; and […]
I don’t know who to trust no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)
[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so […]
I have lot of experiences( good and bad)
Why my brain only interested in bad experiences I have?
When I am trying to direct thoughts to good experiences it feels like foolish to me
May be this is how depressed peoples “meta brain” works 🙂
I really i’m kind of confused about this. It’s a suicide project, and even when I definitely don’t want to hurt or kill myself, I feel like i’m dying slowly. My disease is tedium, a horrible boredom that I can’t wash away. The worse thing is probably that I can’t explain what I feel, the best expression probably is: I feel like a scab.
I was looking for some help, but the thing is how can somebody help me if even I can’t tell what is going on. It’s probably the nearest thing to “nothing”. “Nothing” is taking away anything from me. So I went […]
Today I started to cut. It feels like the right thing to do. I was going to do it on my arms but I decided to do it on my hip instead. The pain is bad but the cuts are good, though I feel like a mess. I keep shaking every time it think about self harm, it’s like the shakes you have when you’re cold, they’re hard to stop. My hip is badly hurting now. I’ve had racial comments made at me today. Some by my “friends’” boyfriend, but her and all her friends that were supposed to me my friends are sticking up […]
Time is ticking away on my deadline because I’m going damn near insane. Yet I make every excuse to stick around and to hope for things to get better. What a fucking waste. I’m at a point where I satisfied with dying. I still don’t feel like I don’t have much to live for and I’m wasting away (it feels like it). I can sense the slight frustration my mom is having with my unemployment (it’s been a ***** to find a job). Two degrees + debt = biggest waste and regret of my fucking life. I understand her in everyway. I turned and looked […]
“Stop setting yourself on fire for someone who stays to watch you burn.”
This quote really made me think today. I have realised that I need to set myself free, I need to learn to leave people that hurt me in the past and move on. And that’s exactly what I’m doing and it feels great. I just wanted to say, if someone is setting you on fire don’t just sit there whilst they watch you burn, don’t give them that pleasure. Stand up, keep walking and fight for what you believe in. Leave that person in the past, they’re not worth it. I really believe […]
the past few days have just been the worst I am seriously in so much emotional and mental pain. I havent ever felt more empty or hopeless than I do now and sometimes I just wanna say fuck it and grab my fucken gun and just try to end it and hope that i’ll be lucky enough to die. I swear it feels like a shitload of misery and sadness and hopelessness just fell out of the sky and landed right on me. I feel so alone right now so empty i’m sitting here just bawling me eyes out and I can’t stop I just […]
I am not happy. I don’t ever really remember a time  I was ever truly happy.  That’s the first time I have ever admitted that to myself.  I talked to my mother last week she said that her children are what give her a reason to fight when ever she feels down. What if  you don’t have anything to make you fight to stay. That’s were  I am in my life right now.  I never loved or been loved, If i was to leave this earth today it wouldn’t  impact any ones life. I could be happy. So when there is nothing else […]
That feels the way i do? Is there anybody out there
So im 33 and have hoped my life would get better…the past week or so has proved me wrong and there is nothing left to be hopeful about.I have several health problems any of which could kill me at anytime.I have 3 girlswhoi lovemore than anything even tho only one talks to me anymore.Within a week or so after i postthis i plan on taking my life,i know its a selfish act but there really is no other choice.It feels good just to write this down thanks to anyone who reads.
I don’t know what to say
Someone cares
Someone shows that they care
And I don’t know what to do or say
Because no one has really ever showed that they cared
Not my family, not my friends
But this one person comes into my life
And picks me up
And tries to fix me
And shows that they care
I don’t know what to say or do
I’ve been used to not being cared about
I’m used to be the worrier the carer
Not to be worried about
Not to be cared about
I don’t know why
They even go through the effort
It’s […]
I went tanning today and purposely burnt myself… It feels so good to be in so much pain but I have a cheer competition tomorrow and I’m going to look stupid.
Hey.
This is my first entry. I’ve never really been good with describing my pain or how I feel. So, bare with me, okay? I live in Montreal, Canada. My parents aren’t married and they have four kids, myself included. This has a lot to do in my life so it’s important that you note this.
I began to feel depressed when I was ten. My older sister, Veronica, was the main reason to my bullying. She always pushed me around and made me feel like shit. You might say that everyone feels like this at one point, right? Possibly. But what made this worst was that […]
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