Well long story short I come from a family that has made their own wealth through a private business of helping children with learning disorders. Love my family of two brothers, three sisters, and mom and dad.
The name is Gabe 19 years old. I’ve always felt like i have tried to do the right thing. Be polite, treat others nicely.Junior year of high school 2009 Â i just slipped into a huge depression sprial. Â Always kinda felt i wasn’t physically fit enough, felt guilty for how others perceived me. Â Never felt like i was there for who i thought was my friends. Always struggled in […]
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Girl In My Life
The long, sad story of my self-hate and depression:
I know there’s something wrong with me.. i feel there’s something wrong with me.. there HAS to be something wrong with me. I miss my old self. I miss being normal. I’m just getting more and more pathetic day by day. I can’t really explain what’s happening to me. I try to make sense out of it and i can’t. I’ve heard there’s a period of self-hate during life, but it’s just been getting stronger and stronger. Maybe some people just never grow out of it?
To break it down.. i’m a useless piece of sh_t. I have no […]
a year ago from today i was actually immensely happy. work was going well for me, had a great girl in my life who i had the best bond in the world with.
months later, all of that would be gone. the girl still comes and goes but she’s made it clear she’s moved on and that i need to accept it or go away.
i just want to find somebody to bond with. just one and i promise to god i won’t ask for anything ever again. i always hear “things get better”.. ok when? i’m already in my mid 30s.. still waiting for […]