I really don’t know what to do anymore… its not that I’m really giving up, I just don’t know what to do now. I have been thinking about life, and what to do. I want to live happily, and I think about the future, and I know how I’ll feel and yes I feel like that sometimes but other times I just go down and it all seems to slip through my fingers. I just don’t know what to do right now. So I’ll just keep sitting around hoping no praying I can get better, you see I know why and the reason for […]
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i know my issues aren’t worthy of suicide compared to others but i just got to let this out hehe… i guess this may not be really about my thoughts of suicide. though i sometimes feel like ending my own life just because of reading other people’s pain and sorrow…
grades don’t matter but why can’t my father see that. he’s always bringing me down. always telling me how brilliant he was in college. that i ought to be like him. but i’m not him and never will be. he always contradicts me on everything even when i was choosing which school to get into. i […]
Since I keep coming back here, I have to throw in my cent and half. I’ve noticed a couple of things, before I go into my horrible depths of self-pity… First, I thought I was the only one who wrote with proper grammar. Gosh, does it sound horrible that I would notice such a thing when I’m low enough to even be on this website? But honestly, I’ve barely known what people were talking about when I’ve read other forums on random things. Please, any grammar dorks on here, go to yahoo! answers with a red pen and you’ll come back satisfied. But I can understand […]
I have a lot of things. I have a lot more than many people.  I am healthy, attractive, happily married, and just about to graduate from a great grad-school. I have everything to live for, but I every time when I turn around the corner, I see death calling me. I really cannot think about anything that I want bad enough to live for. Tonight I relapsed. I took a needle and pieced through my skin and my veins. For a brief moment I felt something. When I saw my blood oozing out of my arm, I felt maybe a brief moment of something.  I know exactly what […]
Well, i wouldn’t really consider myself suicidal and i don’t know why i really keep having a look at some of the comments people leave on here.
I guess what i’m really hoping for is to make a friend, or at least find someone who i can share the thoughts and feelings of a young, not-proud-to-be-British man with. I have friends in the real world but you can say so much to them…
Anyway, if anyone is interested in talking to me, even for a little while, my email address is – disciple.of.torture@gmail.com
I know i haven’t wrote much about myself but when you’ve done it that many […]
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