I’ve done so many bad things I don’t know if there’s hope for redemption and I feel like I may as well end my life. Â About a year ago I started drinking heavily and started consorting with people from the gutter. Â I then began using drugs and since then have continued to use Cocaine. Â Every time I do it, it’s after drinking a lot and I drink a lot because I feel despair and lost, and then the next day I feel even worse. Â My wife wants to divorce me, I’ve ruined our finances, I’ve cheated, stole, and gone from being a good father […]
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I know right from wrong and I do understand God won’t put to much on ur plate but. Fu its not funny and I know ur toying with me. Well as my week turns I rear ended a brand new lexux. My x. Is playing control games. My parents leave town and the one day I do come home. My moms dog gets ran over chasing some person that was hiding in some bushes when I came home. Let me see death threats. And the only thing cool that happend is I’m clean and healthy and makeing my self […]
Hello children, I just wanted to shed some light on one of the worst times of my life, I was not always as well adjusted and happy as i am now, i was once in the gutter. Its difficult to talk about because its a time would like to forget, but those who do not remember there mistakes are doomed to repeat them.
It was 7 years ago, the first time attended college, After my GF died, i went off the rails completely, If im perfectly honest it was mostly just a blur of alcohol and self pity, hatred for a god i didnt believe in, But mostly i […]
I don’t particularly think my story is of any significance, nor do I think anything particularly bad has happened to me, but I shall share my story anyway because of the simple fact that I want to.
I shall begin with the fact that I’ve always hated my father, as far back as I can remember he has always annoyed me, with his selfishness, lack of manners and personal space, I swear, if I even began insulting him, I could never stop. People say I have a really good memory but the truth is, I don’t I can’t exactly remember anything before the age of […]
I’m finding myself hitting the bottom again…or shall I say bottoming out. That “special” time in life where you feel like you live in the gutter and the world spits on you in contempt as it gently walks by. The world cannot hate me any more than I already hate myself. I would just take my life, but there are so many people that would be hurt that death is not an option. So here I sit in my misery. Committed to a life of solitude. Making the decision that I’ll just start taking prescription drugs to blank out […]