why now -GoD what else can u test me on

I know right from wrong and I do understand God won’t put to much on ur plate but. Fu its not funny and I know ur toying with me. Well as my week turns I rear ended a brand new lexux. My x. Is playing control games. My parents leave town and the one day I do come home. My moms dog gets ran over chasing some person that was hiding in some bushes when I came home. Let me see death threats. And the only thing cool that happend is I’m clean and healthy and makeing my self crazy but wishing and hoping I get of probation in 3 weeks cuz death over prison at my age is the only option. And I went to the emergence room this week to. But all and all when u hang out in the gutter don’t expect glitter. Well its time for a vecation well over due but sorry I’m trying my hardest to stay alive and every obstical that will go wrong will and my goal is get off probation so I can live and be free but GoD I need a babysitter for a few weeks