My mind tells me that I am a prisoner trapped in my own fuckin body. I so desperately need to be free from this little thing we call life, to just leave this God forsaken planet. I have so much rage, hate, and anger pent up in side me I literally feel as if I could explode, I try my best to keep it under lock an key (I mean what kind of man can’t even control his own emotions) but sometimes it gets the best of me and I usually end up trying to cave someone’s face in. And it feels great at the […]
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I really don’t want to commit suicide, but in my case, I think it may be my only way to avoid a life of complete suffering for many more years.
I’m a single, middle aged woman, no children or spouse. Â I have siblings whom I no longer can have a relationship with, for valid and good reasons. Â While I have friends, and I appreciate them, they have their own families and their own lives, I cannot count on them to alleviate the loneliness. Â I’m incredibly, incredibly lonely.
But, I’ve always been a “fighter” … until now. Â I’ve gone through trial after trial through my years on this […]
I am starting to feel like I am being punished for being alive, I wasn’t truly meant to exist anyway since I was unplanned. I can’t have one good thing happen and if something does, I pay for it later on. I have been through so much in my life, was mentally and physically abused by my dad, had to watch it happen to my mom who is disabled, been into women’s shelters, was raised in a cult like religion which left me without friends, social activities was highly restricted, no help from them with what was going on at home since they said in […]