Do you ever feel you don’t belong on this planet? I’m plagued with this idea most days of my life.
I usually feel as though i’m just waiting for the day my mom passes so that I can release myself from this place. I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m homesick.
All I wanted more than anything this weekend was to come home from college, drive the five hours to see my friends and family for my birthday weekend. I now realize it was a bad idea, I was so hypermanic yesterday when I came home, literally haven’t been that happy or excited for anything in ages. I have to leave tomorrow morning and I’m so terribly homesick even though I’m still here. It was like nothing changed, I had a bad nightmare that I was at college and I woke up and everything was okay. I don’t know what to do, I hate it there […]
Every time I try.
I’m not good enough.
Unintentional or not,
It never happens.
I’ve tried 3 times.
None of those were successful.
The only time I had hope was when I lost her.
I fell into hell.
And I couldn’t get out.
It was my unwanted home.
And recently I’ve been homesick.
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